>>41119461 (OP)
Trying getting sunlight safely everyday, it helps to regulate the mind and keep it sharp and healthy. Also look for alternative and natural medicines as well and see if that could help you too. And if worse comes to worse, you could always try seeing a medical professional to help you out with your mental health problem through whatever means necessary.
Just know that if there's a problem, there's always a solution. With a will, there is a way. And just like what another wise anon said here, you are ultimately judged for your actions, not your thoughts. You won't ever go to Hell because of worm thoughts, so don't worry about that, buddy. You'll be fine. Good luck and Godspeed.