>>41333834 (OP)
its real, my karmic soulmate in this realm and timeline is the daughter of billionaire jew hedge fund cfo. She's a marxists socialist in socal. I met her and knew it was her. It was really intense, but she's also a narcissistic woman. So when I came along she self sabotaged the relationship. A lot of the mexican women we worked with just knew it too. They told me she loved me ,but just couldn't show it. She had a boyfriend. 25 years old and at the time we met and strange things happened when we were together. Like telepathic communication, eye gazing into each other souls, I could feel her pain. I just wished she would have told me before, I did Ayahuasca. Ayahuasca is what revealed to me our ancestry past life. We were together before in another timeline and I died. It was forbidden love, where she was married to someone else, and was her lover. I went to war, it was in the middle east, I saw desserts and pyramids. I was killed by an enemy army and I could see her crying in secrecy. It was like repeating process, it felt like god put us back here, once more, to make amends. But mother ayahuasca also told me I was better at peace without her, because she's not mature and ready to be your wife.
When I got back, I just couldn't talk or be around her. She was your typical femcel, needing constant attention from everyone, and manipulative gaslighting. I couldn't fix that and at the same time not my responsibility to do so. I really did love her and will probably not love another like her. We never got sexually intimate, and when we tried, she would have a panic attack and start crying. So When I broke it up with her, I spiraled into a deviant sex life. I felt sexual-physically empty, and searched for her intimacy in every girl I had sex with after her. I fantasized about her every time, wishing it was her I was making love to. 5 years have gone past, and even though she still stupid, I still love her. But I choose my piece at the end.