>>3055416>Shinji seems more like heโd overcompensate for his lack of masculinity by refusing to bottom.See, you say that, but thatโs what makes Shinji bottoming even hotter for me. All Shinji has ever wanted was to be loved, and he believes this โloveโ is gained from exhibiting traditionally masculine traits (piloting the Eva, not running away, being more like his father, being dominant, etc). Shinji suffers because he doesnโt meet this standard (he likes cooking and cleaning, heโs passive, he struggles with taking initiative). Itโs no secret that Shinji having daddy issues and complicated relationships with women all warp his view of masculinity, making him believe you have to be masculine to be loved as a man. Also, Shinji suffers from the hedgehogโs dilemma, and he canโt connect with others out of fear and insecurity. He believes that if he forces himself to be masculine, then his suffering would go away. So, the fact that Shinji spends his entire life building a masculine persona of himself but immediately reverts back to his true submissive self the moment he meets Kaworu makes my dick diamonds.
But eh, different strokes for different folks.