I come with a heavy question, I come with hunger for answers.

I tried making fortnite 3D blender porn a year ago, I never got better, I never got better. I want to present the evidence of lack of progress as well as present the works of others, current day, that are performing better works. Could it be proof of talent?

mine, from before.

Here's what others can make

Previous threads
https://warosu.org/3/thread/986401#p987487

>>1013702 (OP)
>>1011129

>>1013702 (OP)
Hello again, I tried helping you a year ago. If you haven't improved after a year; you're beyond hope.

>>1013719
Well then try again, I decided to quit over my lack of talent

How can I improve and why didnt I improve, why did I fail

i have no natural eye for light, right?
https://warosu.org/3/thread/986401

why did i fail?

These following three are mine, remember the first one, it's the latest one.

https://files.catbox.moe/ mvy20q.png

https://files.catbox.moe/ uk3qyz.png

https://files.catbox.moe/ niq3zt.png

This is the work of the person I feel compettitive about, jealous.

https://files.catbox.moe/ dir9u6.jpg

https://files.catbox.moe/ jtagae.jpg

https://files.catbox.moe/ t0drb9.jpg

https://files.catbox.moe/ r7jovq.jpg

THAT I FEEL I LACK THE NATURAL EYE, THE NATURAL TALENT, THE NATURAL SENSE TO BE GOOD OR EVEN IMPROVE
ALL THESE PICS ARE FROM A YEAR AGO, I GAVE UP AND NEVER TRIED UNTIL NOW...MAYBE

SO AGAIN, WHY WAS I SHIT COMPARED TO HIM? WHY CANT I FUCKING IMPROVE?

Hi Howie!

>>1013702 (OP)
Same reason anyone can't do something, Anon. You tried, weren't good at it, and then threw your hands up and effectively gave up.
It's a part of having autism. Unironically though, not as like some random insult. This is a thing autistic people do where they wallow in their own inability and self-sabotage by only giving half attempts at the thing they're not actually that interested in, and wondering why they can't improve. It's the same reason you "Can't" roleplay, or write, or do any of those things you wanna do.

You have separated the idea of effort getting results, and find a bit of comfort in just declaring that you can't do something because it's better than the alternative, which is acknowledging that the amount of effort you thought was acceptable for improving, wasn't actually enough.

The actual way to improve is to press yourself and draw/RP/etc, better today than you did yesterday, and you keep doing that until you actually improve. Not just, "Do as good as you can" and then rage about it online for the rest of the day.

It's probably time you abandon this knee jerk habit of being mad that you're not making fantastical art and great RPs out the gate, and either actually try, or stop dwelling on it and go do what you're actually interested in. You surely have an autistic obsession somewhere that's not about being a great artist.

>>1013735
No, it is obvious to see he was naturally better than me, why? Why am I unable to get the same things?

I have no sense of composition as seen here
https://warosu.org/3/thread/986401
NO NATURAL EYE FOR VISUAL ARTS, IS THAT SO?

>>1013736
Shush Howard. I don't give a shit.
If you quit, actually quit, don't pretend it's our problem.

>>1013738
No, I will not give up until I know.
Why? Why can't I?

>>1013739
You didn't actually try. You gave up really quick and got mad that you weren't as good as some other faggot overnight.

>>1013740
but he and I started at the same time, he naturally gets composition, I do NOT get composition and lighting at all, so again, why did I fail?

>>1013741
You didn't actually try. They did more than you, dedicated more hours, pushed themselves harder. And also, maybe more importantly, didn't try to master like 4 different artforms at once like you.

>>1013742
I FAILED
I HAVE NO SENSE OF ART
AND I NEVER TRIED THEM AT THE SAME TIME, READ MY FUCKING THREAD
https://files.catbox.moe/ebhgia.jpg

>>1013743
You didn't actually try. You threw up your hands and said you couldn't very quickly. I know how you work, you have autism. I've seen it many times.
The fact you are here complaining rather than trying again is evidence of this.

>>1013745
Why would I try again? I failed, I would never do something I'm not going to be good at, it's a waste of time.

>>1013746
You didn't fail, you just gave up. You set your goals unrealistically and shit on yourself instead of saying you'd be there "one day" because you were angry you couldn't be good right now.
You didn't actually try.

I tried so hard, I did the hard work, same with drwaing but I didn't improve, others were better faster, look at what the anon I was mad about does now, he has talent
https://wimg.rule34.xxx//images/1477/f3977e4e64a0dcdda94216cc8d972ac0.jpeg

>>1013748
Maybe you don't actually like this stuff and just want to be known as someone who is really good at art.

i WANT THE REAL ANSWER
why did i fail?

>>1013749
wHY? WHY DO YO UTHINK SO? I HATE EVERYTHING
i legitimately dont like anything, even being alive, i dont like anything really
but i wanted to do art, make my ideas a reality, im so mad i want to suicide and kill

>>1013750
Because people who are good at art usually like doing art.
The way people actually improve is by doing the thing despite the fact they think they're shit at it, and as they practice for fun they get better and better at it without really perceiving it.

If you push yourself to improve for some end-goal of being really good at art, you just get stressed out an give up because you're waiting for something that takes a long time.

>>1013751
No, why cant I improve?
Why did i fail? Do you think I could have been good or improve? I enjoy things that Im good at I hate not being good at something

>>1013752
You don't improve by liking things you're good at. You improve by doing things despite the fact you are shit at it, until one day, you're not shit anymore.
There's not a way around this, asking over and over again won't change anything.

>>1013753
Ive asked /ic/ why I failed at drawing for 5 years, I will never stop asking until I get to the truth, again. Could I have been good and improved or do my images show a lack of talent that try to improve would be wasted time?

>>1013754
Well you can't improve if you don't like doing the art in the first place. That's basically it.
I dunno what truth you're seeking if you can't accept that having a personal drive to continue your work even if you suck at it isn't the correct-answer.

The fact is everyone sucks when you start. Sucking pisses you off, so you have a fit and give up. You sabotage yourself. You'll have to get over this.

>>1013755
but what can i do im crying so hard i wish i could just sleep forever and i wish people like you and everyone else would die and suffer

again tell me is this anon right? >>1013739
everyone starts with a sense of composition right? everyone good
NATURAL

YES OR NO WITH PROOF

>>1013756
Talent exists but it doesn't determine how good you can get. That's entirely based on your mindset.
What Anon means when they said you have no "Eye" for this stuff is that you lack the natural understanding of the artform that some people have, and that you probably won't have the determination necessary to learn it otherwise.

It's harder to get good at art when you aren't born with an innate understanding of these things, but you can get it if you stop beating yourself up so hard.
Just acknowledge you're bad at it, do it anyway, and one day you won't be bad. Stop scribbling over all your shit and having a panic attack and writing failure on everything.

:P

>>1013757
look at this shit worlds worst blowjob render, ic ant do it
and this is the revised light, the original was so much worse

>>1013758
Oh well, it's about as good as any other mid tier CGI artist out there.
Just keep doing it if you wanna be any better. You have to find a way to have fun with it, or you'll give up. Simple as that.
If you can't do that, surely there's something you actually like doing in the world. That's what you'll be best at eventually.

>>1013759
but the guy is better, look at the links here >>1013733

ill brb, just write some stuff on another board and then give you my argument but please check it
any observation, feedback etc would go al ong way please

this was the first ever blender image i tried

>>1013760
the fact you consider this an argument proves nothing will come out of this thread. you don't want advice or help you just want to vent

>>1013762
no i dont care to vent as i dont care about the feelings of others i care abotu advice, if i had a logical argument as to why continue or give up and reasons and research i could be free of my fixation to ask

>>1013760
Comparing yourself to others doesn't do anything but make you feel bad. So what if someone developed faster than you?
It literally doesn't matter. Only you give a shit.

>>1013764
they will be better sooner, they will be better for more time,
my issue with drwaing
what if it takes me 10 years to be good as someone in 3? then why even dtaw at all

the original one was so bad
yhis was my natural attempt without knowledge of the 3 thing lights

>>1013765
Some people improve faster than others, especially when they don't suffer from breakdowns about how bad they are at art.
The difference is that they don't beat themselves up so much.
You are pretty much sabotaging yourself.

you're posting the same renders you've had for a year so as far as I can tell you haven't practised at all in that time.
your stuff is worse than who you're comparing yourself to because they've put in hours and hours of work that you don't see.
even if they are more talented and improve at a faster rate according to you, it's not an insurmountable gap, it just means you need to put in more work for the same results.
you've put in less work and are expecting the same results. stop posting, read take on some of the advise here and knock out some renders.

>>1013768
>>1013767
but why was he better than me, is it true i show no potential to be good at blender porn?

>>1013769
Well hey Howard
Maybe the thing you're best at is making crazy threads on 4chan.

>>1013770
>>1013768
>>1013767
my problem is, i have a fear of the future, what if i practice and never improve, what if i practice and always fail
i liked making 3d stuff, it was fun and i had some ideas planned for better ideas i wanted to try to make but competition killed any drive i had, he was better, if someone is better they take your place

i dont get composition or lights, would you guys review new stuff i made, what should i try to make?
>inb4 what idea you had
im demoralized i have no drive anymore

I have the exact same personality trait as Donald Trump in that I hate losing, and i hate losers, I want to win all the time
>>1013768
>>1013767
Do you think I could be good, better than this >>1013705

also heh djt captcha

Please can someone tell me how to improve, do i have potential or lost cause?

>>1013702 (OP)
Stop comparing yourself to others and worry about your own progress. "Eyes on the prize" doesn't mean "only care about the final result", it means "keep trying until you make it."

>>1013775
but i live in a world with others, i was raised to compete, my upbringing is one where if youre nto good at something you dont deserve anything, i cant just forget that and turn it off
its me...
>>1013775
look at the pics and read the thread, am i a lost cause is this anon right >>1013739
or what can be done?

Bump how can i improve

The way you're behaving you're not going to make it. Not because of lack of talent but because you seem unwilling to change your attitude, won't put in the necessary work and ignore relevant information unless it conforms to your preconceptions.
>>1013776
You know something like that could also be utilized as drive to improve instead of wasting time in agony about something you're too unwilling to change.
>>1013763
You don't even realize you're looking for justifications for how you feel, which in itself isn't that bad but behaving like a kid throwing a tantrum demanding others to accommodate you without realizing is not a good place to be in since it will turn the people trying to help away.

I'm not going to respond after this for my own sanity. Still wish you the best even though I'm very pessimistic about it seeing how you ignored pretty much all advice so far.

>>1013779
Staying optimistic is important

>>1013797
>>1013798
Fine, I'm sorry, I've had a traumatic day, horrible horrible fucking day. I wasn't that healthy. But I wanna do 3d for escapism even, a hobby. I enjoy it
I've read the advice and I'm starting to accept I am too critical of myself, self hatred and self doubt, too self aware that I allow perfect to be the enemy of good. I know this now.

I had fun, I loved this, I liked doing 3D stuff, one of my main issues was that I micromanaged everything, redoing and doing so simple stuff took me hours. That's my own fault, I just don't want to feel stuck, I wanna see improvement.
Sorry for just how I came in posting here, in shock and hysterical.

Can I have any additional comments, feedbacks or just some advice? Me staying optimistic is not /3/ related but I feel if I embrace fun I might get to, hobby as escapism. Still, how to improve, I dream not of just posing stuff but make my own models one day

>>1013705
>that knee
>the bikini strings sticking to the body
Anon, your competition isn't that tough. They'll probably stagnate later on anyways when the praise they've been getting goes to their head.

>>1013806
Color and lighting comes from doing the work. At least that's how it works for me. For one nice webm, I have 5 which look like shit.

>>1013702 (OP)
Don't use Cycles for stylized characters. Fortnite's rendering engine is much closer to Eevee than it is to Cycles. That's what's causing the fuzz.
Fix your lights and your environment. Since this is a Fortnite character, but it in a Fortnite world with the same type of lighting Fortnite uses.

yesss my favorite /3/ poster returns
>hasn't made anything in a year
>why don't i have any 3d skill? is it proof of talent?

>>1013748
this looks good
however if you look at his pictures you linked here >>1013733 you can see many many flaws, especially the last pic
it's almost like.. he's improved over time.. and simply shitting your pants and giving up instantly doesn't help you learn? could it be proof that talent is irrelevant and the key is persistance?

>>1013756
>i wish i could just sleep forever
I´d tell you to rope yourself but you´d probably jut fail to tie the knot on the first try then go back to shitting up the board

the guy you're comparing yourself to has 280 images on r34. how many have you finished? zero. that is why he has improved and you have not. you start then instantly gave up. go look at his first pictures they are very amateur. also you have no idea if he has any experience prior to posting porn which might give him an extra advantage

>Amadeus if Salieri never learned how to compose music

Op is a bitch
Fuck this fucking faggot. He is just here to waste your time

>>1013821
>>1013863
>>1013870
>>1013893
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>>1013901
Thanks guys, my ban is finally over so I return to say I'll keep trying, can I get some extra advice or just experiment?

>>1013922
just make something and stop freaking out about talent. then make another thing. and another. eventually you will accumulate knowledge and experience as you work things out. it's been a year since you last had a meltdown here and you haven't made anything

>>1013706
i forgot how entertaining this thread was

>>1013922
The only other piece of advice I have for you is to raise your aspirations much higher. The person you're trying to be like sucks. Make official Fortnite renders your primary references rather than referencing beginners.

>sanest /3/ poster appears just to farm a bit of attention then vanishes once more
>doesn't even post any new masterpieces
wtf