Thread 1017599

An amount of disgust and HATE that i never felt before. The amount of sadistic fantasies that i have developped. I never EVER felt this raw revulsion towards something that i have made.

This is my first character model in blender and i have no words to describe how much i want to hurt it.

I want to create and AI for this body, give it emotions just to know that it suffers. I want to torment it, i want to trap it in a house of psychological horror. Just imagining the AI's response to pain, it simulating human emotions of despair and sadness brings me great satisfaction.

I want to punish what my hands have made, i previously made bad art but this is different. I created something that i want to exist just for the purpose of it suffering eternally. I want every artifical fiber of this rot to fry and be reseted to suffer again and again with no comfort and no body to relate to. I want it to know that it's suffering, i want the artifical system to scream in agony with each tearing stimulation on it's vertices.
Anyways, i'll probably adjust some proportions and watch tutorials uwu

>>1017599 (OP)
meds + skill issue

>>1017599 (OP)
You can kill, maim and torture the next best thing: yourself.

>>1017602
Not until you make a donut

>>1017599 (OP)
I'll penetrate your little pink bussy with my BWC and listen to your sharp screams of agony with my right ear, until it's torn, bleeding and preventing you from ever sitting down again in your life.

>>1017655
>pink bussy
Hot but I'm indian uwu

>>1017638
fuck!

>>1017638
>donut tutorial
sure... i totally wanted to learn how to make a donut, it's completely integral to my creative vision, unlike making ps2 style human characters or anything, nope, donuts are what's important

>>1017599 (OP)
Brighten up there sunshine or you are gonna turn into sum kind of corpse face paint tryhard when you grow up.

I mean, it looks fine to me. Geometry is a little fucked on the vertical equator, but I like it. Not flawless, definitely try again, but it's good for a first attempt.

>>1017666
>indian

Fucking EW! You're the reason our world has gone wrong, filth.

>>1017729
Yeah, the donut meme isn't really necessary. I've never done it, never needed to do it. Make what you want. This is art, not a job.

Thanks OP, I think I finally understand God.

>>1017599 (OP)
Relatable

>>1017599 (OP)
I am right there with you. I want to call it shöëmann. That way I know that despite it's horrific nature it has a sole. I want to tell you, as it's creator, to kill yourself, but honestly it would be more punishing to encourage you to let you live. Honestly. I don't know what you were thinking. If you were thinking at all. It made my cat start to vomit. My cat. It vomited a greasy hairball and fluids from it's last catch, and even that was less disgusting. Jesus fucking Christ man. What were you doing?

>>1017599 (OP)
hating your creation is the essence of art
you're on the path, anon

>>1017599 (OP)
based

>>1017599 (OP)
so basically you're like the god of the jews

>>1017599 (OP)
>An amount of disgust and HATE that i never felt before. The amount of sadistic fantasies that i have developped. I never EVER felt this raw revulsion towards something that i have made.
me whenever i make something