is there any actual advice for what to do about constantly hating life and wanting to die? you name it, ive tried it. Been to 3 mental wards, tried countless pills, therapists, reading self help, philosophy, prayer, meditation, drugs, intense exercise, changing my sleep schedule, diet, i just fucking hate life and want to die, what do?

>>33232047 (OP)
Clearly, you want to live more than you want to die, else you wouldn't be here talking to us.

>>33232375
Thats not true at all actually, if i had a gun id just shoot myself lol

>>33232501
that's still ideation and not attempt.

Stop being a pussy when you feel dread. I get it you are in your apartment alond and no one is there, but for the love of fuck, can you just be glad you are where you are at now. Fucking Hell some of the NPCs in Fallout are more isolated than you, and yet they still try to enjoy life. Maybe just not let it get to you while trying to feel comforted in yourself. Feel your damn soul? Ain't it great to be living still?

Motorcycle

>>33232514
ive attempted a few times prior, anyways, i just do not want to be alive
>>33232532
No its bad to be livin still, very very bad, it should stop hopefully

>>33232544
cant drive

>>33232047 (OP)
You can either try to get your life together to have things generally easier and funner and better... Or you can try with your current self and get out there and hope you stick like shit to a wall somewhere. Happiness basically comes down to relationships and wealth but some people have a lot of trauma and hangups that makes it difficult for them to be happy no matter what. Maybe try working through it with Gemini if you can't afford therapy.

>>33232608
>ive attempted a few times prior, anyways, i just do not want to be alive
multiple failed attempts are in fact indication you're not very likely in carrying through

a serious person might fail the first time, not knowing what it would be like in the moment, how your survival instinct might compromise the attempt, and so on, but they'd have done it the second time

>>33232773
Uh huh, keep coping along dear anon, truth is; its hard to escape this prison called life

>>33232047 (OP)
I don't know man, just know that you're not alone. I've also tried basically everything I can think of.

>>33232544
Funny you say that, I just got one. I'm learning to ride. Hopefully it helps.

>>33232615
Come on genius, start with that. It does help slightly. I went for a night drive, and you know, that's the ONLY way an American city ever looks good. In the daytime it looks like we were born in Hell.

>>33232820
I cant drive, i cant get a ged, its not a matter of
>if i do this then i can
No, i cant fucking drive or work

>>33232853
why can't you drive at least? ADHD? Vision? Why can't you get pills/etc?

>>33232853
Why can't you drive or get a ged?
Would you say there's an identifiable root cause for your depression, or a specific group of causes?

>>33232890
I have autism, low iq, and get overwhelmed by basic cooking and math, i would crash, nor can i pass the written tests
>>33232898
Honestly the root issue is i just HATE how this world works, i hate this game

>>33232906
how do you have low IQ and can write like this?
normies can drive giant lifted trucks and they are fucking retarded

>>33232917
Because driving a car is harder then posting on 4chan, anyways yeah i cant drive, i cant pass the ged, and i cant get a job

>>33232906
>Honestly the root issue is i just HATE how this world works, i hate this game
Why do you hate how it works, by game would you be willing to be more specific about what that is or what you mean by it?

>>33232951
I dont like life or existance in general. I hate having a body, or being conscious, its like an FPS game with a focus om survival i guess but i just hate it

>>33232955
>I hate having a body, or being conscious, its like an FPS game
Hmmm, I haven't really seen that cause for depression much before. Sorry for being annoying by asking a million questions but I feel there's something deeper there still. For that hatred of being conscious, would you say its a constant feeling of despair or under stimulation that happens regardless of the things around you (like even if you're having something really good happen to you)? Or would you say you have that low feeling but it's moreso caused by certain events or a lack of access to certain opportunities?

FWIW there's this wild content creator named Vegan Gains who's a high functioning autist, and he seemed suicidally depressed by nature. From a young age he had suicidal ideation basically. I wonder if you're maybe a bit like that? Apparently shrooms helped him a lot, they caused a significant enough perspective shift to significantly alleviate his symptoms, at least for a while.

>>33232974
ive tried shroom and lsd before and just got violent.
>would you say its a constant feeling of despair or under stimulation that happens regardless of the things around you (like even if you're having something really good happen to you)?
Yeah its constant but its not under stimulation. Its just bad stimulation.

>>33232978
Bad stimulation? Like things that should make you feel neutral (like sitting on a chair or looking at an okay painting), make you feel shitty even if they're not negative? Do you feel good/positive stimulation at all?

It's a shot in the dark/guess but I'm almost wondering your form of depression is more-so an autism symptom. That there's difficulty relieving it because there's a certain aspect of the autism disorder that needs to be addressed first. Again it's just a guess, but as an example your emotion identification/processing could need some work, to help resolve negative emotions more effectively.

>>33233007
>Bad stimulation? Like things that should make you feel neutral (like sitting on a chair or looking at an okay painting), make you feel shitty even if they're not negative
yeah

>>33232047 (OP)
Matthew 5:
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will receive mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

>>33233080
i dont like religion, please stop it

>>33233081
Why? Because it involves something more powerful than you judging you? That God can know your slightest transgressions, and what you were thinking as you made those transgressions

>>33232047 (OP)
Enjoy the ride man. You didn’t exist for the longest and you’ll be dead for infinity after this.

>>33233095
No, because i dont agree with them or find them helpful or interesting

>>33233110
>Enjoy the ride man
No i dont want to, stop trying to force me to. Id rather not enjoy it if im forced to go through it anyways

>>33233113
Nobody is forcing you.
Make your life meme something.

>>33233911
No.

>>33232047 (OP)
What types of therapy have you tried? There are a lot of them out there, and in the field of mental health there is no such thing as a one size fits all solution. It took me over a decade to find the things that work for me.

Outside of therapy, do you have a job? What are your current living conditions? Do you have any hobbies or interests? What is it in your life that you are unhappy with. I need to know these things before I can give you proper advice.

Let me tell you a little about myself. When I was in my mid 20s I was homeless and addicted to crack. I know that sounds crazy but it's true. I was in and out of the hospital for attempted suicide, and I honestly thought I wouldn't make it to 30. I fought tooth and nail to get out of that state. Today I'm 34 years young, have a job that I love, and live by myself in an apartment.

My life is by no means perfect, but I'm happy. More importantly I am living proof, that you can come back stronger from just about anything life can throw at you.

Tell me about yourself anon.

>>33235269
i tried many med based and talk therapy, but it was such a negative experiece each time i cant do it anymore. I cant work because i cant get a ged or drive, im autistic and live with parents on autismbux. Im not unhappy with anything in particular but i just dont like life on the whole and i really want it to go away

>>33235293
I'm actually on the spectrum myself. What worked best for me was cognitive behavioral therapy. When I first started getting serious help, I joined an outpatient clinic that did group therapy for multiple subjects. You might want to consider finding a program like that one. Make getting well again your full time job.

It might not be the right time to try getting your ged, but you can still do Volenteer work to give your life some purpose, build up confidence, and even give you some skills for the future when you do get your ged and prepare to enter the workforce. No matter where you are I garuntee there's an animal shelter or soup kitchen in dire need of any help they can get. Also volunteering looks great on a resume.

Find some constructive hobbies too. I recommend something creative that let's you work with your hands, or something that gets you outdoors. I enjoy painting (Pic related) and foraging. I get to work with my hands when I paint, and create something pretty, and when I forage it gets me outdoors, and finding wild edibles brings me a little closer to nature.

Try a plethora of different hobbies, don't be afraid to step out of your comfort zone. When you find some you like, go see if there is a group of people nearby who share in your hobby and join them. That'll get you some needed socialization.

The most important thing though, is baby steps. Don't try to do everything at once. Take your time and handle things one task at a time. Trying to do everything all at once is going to overwhelm you, and set you up for failure.

Good luck anon. If you have any more questions I'm here to answer.

embrace it hard and learn to live with it. it might pass and it might not. find reason in the lack of reason

>>33232047 (OP)
have you tried meeting new people, reconnecting with old friends, and finding love?