Thread 33236983

This is a strange feeling but basically I really sat down and did an overhaul on what foods work and dont work with me and I noticed I got leaner. You may think this is good news, but honestly I feel so fucking angry when women help me more now or go out of their way for me , a few millimeters of face fat was the only real difference. I did not improve my social skills, I did not change my hygiene and skin care, I did not workout harder necessarily (more efficiently but not higher intensity)

When I see a girl smile at me I almost want to gouge out her eyes on the spot because I cannot believe the ridiculousness of the situation. I want to channel this into something positive, I want to accept it humbly and graciously and use it to connect and build a network because I know there are people out there so chopped that they could lose all the face fat and still look ridiculously ugly. But just so much rage....

It almost makes me want to get fat again (which I did for a bit and everything stopped) and just be left alone in the corner cause I cannot believe the shallowness of it all.

How do I overcome this? Have any of you dealt with this?

>>33236983 (OP)
kil yourself

>>33236983 (OP)
You hate them because you hate yourself

>>33236995
you first faggot

>>33236983 (OP)
what is the big deal about this anon? you just discovered people like attractive people more? have you never been disgusted by a fat person and felt negative emotions towards them?

>>33236997
interesting , elaborate - where would one go about the self inquiry for this?

>>33236983 (OP)
As someone who went from skinny fat, to regular fat during COVID, to just starving myself till I was very skinny, I understand your struggle.
Just live with it. Don't get fat again. It sounds like you did it to feel better and didn't get there in an extreme way like I did. Maybe work on getting some muscle. It seems like non-muscley skinny guys are in rn, but if you gain some muscle you'll be less bothered and feel even better.

>>33236999
I can operate normally in society and society treats me right why would I need to kill myself
you on the other hand it seems that anything good that happens to you only makes you angry, you'll never adapt to normal society might as well end it while you're still young and leave with a handful of good memories over leaving later with only grim dark memories occupying all your brain.

>>33237001
>have you never been disgusted by a fat person and felt negative emotions towards them?

no , I grew up with many many flaws , something about normal or "ugly" people makes me see the underdog in them. Especially the ones at the gym. That ones that disgust me have more to do with their personality - like being ugly and also a flagrant dickhead or some such.

>>33237029
this is very rich talk for a sociopath

Don't worry faggot, I see the ghoul that you really are. I have the courage to be honest with myself and confront hard questions, and you are still lying to yourself about being a "good normal person" KEK

>>33237012
I've been "fit" my whole life which is the funny thing about this, it just this last time around I decided to take it the extra mile and just get my diet finally sorted

But thanks

>>33236983 (OP)
>I cannot believe the shallowness of it all.
did you plapjack? if you're not fucking BBWs you already accepted the truth

there has literally never been a time in history where they said ugly people are romantically successful like pretty people. there are exceptions to people bring shallow occasionally but every single person learns shallowness is the water the fish swim in at 13

>>33237064
as long as people treat me right I don't care bro, I'm a good member of the community and people appreciate me, I don't go out to buy bread one day and people start calling me and asking me if I'm ok.
I just wish defective people like you weren't part of the community you ugly the place up.

>>33237117
yea yea and I'm the king of england , whatever helps you sleep at night son.

>>33237113
>did you plapjack? if you're not fucking BBWs you already accepted the truth

not yet , but I am chatting to some chubby girls

>>33237182
again, kill yourself
everyone would be safer
the last time we had a maladapted person in the neighborhood girls were on edge and parents were more aggresive to people talking to their kids, once we got rid of him things started being good again.
either tame your anger or kill yourself, you're not wanted.

>>33236983 (OP)
So you can feel this way, that's your choice, but realize that the reality about women that you're perceiving is not an ultimate truth. You feel aggressive towards them because of that shift in behavior after your facial/body fat loss, but there is always the possibility that you just notice it more because you feel better about how you look and it started entering your radar.

>>33237232
>You feel aggressive towards them because of that shift in behavior after your facial/body fat loss, but there is always the possibility that you just notice it more because you feel better about how you look and it started entering your radar.

That's a fair analysis , but I was hyper self aware before as well, I even went back to chubby a bit just to see , I basically found the exact line where it flips for me -- so I don't think its quite this but thanks

>>33237275
I mean, you could be right. People can be extremely shitty and shallow.
Anyway, there's someone out there that would love you whether you had that extra few mm of face chunk or not. Maybe they even encourage it with baked goods and hearty meals, who knows? My point here is that seeing only the bad in people as your broad view can fuck you out of something that could be wonderful. If you're paranoid about it, you might get lucky meeting someone online. Hell, I ended up falling in love with someone without having a full grasp of what they looked like online, and I just got incredibly lucky that he was handsome. He's got shit self esteem like you do, though. That's a thing that no woman will ever fully help you wrestle yourself from, unfortunately. Or fortunately, I guess. It should be your own triumph that you accept yourself, afterall.

>>33237311
>My point here is that seeing only the bad in people as your broad view can fuck you out of something that could be wonderful.

Hmm not bad , yeah I think what I'm still dealing with is a form of a more convoluted rejection like when I was younger. Like yes they accept my physical form but they don't actually accept ME. But you're right , I could never connect with someone if I'm always paranoid or angry - letting go is going to have to happen at some point

That raises many questions for me though:
> Do I want to connect with someone? Do I even believe in that?
> Or do I think love is a scam and waste of time?

For the record I've NEVER romantically connected with someone, ive had lust, ive had games, but when you've never been accepted its very hard to believe in these things.

>>33237311
you're wasting your time he wont accept any advice that is not "you know what you're right I hate women and people that treat you better when you take care of yourself"
he's a lost cause.

>>33237355
Yeahhh, you just need some online girl to simp for you a little before showing off your pictures. It'll help with the exterior acceptance part, at least from one person. But itll still mean something

>>33237367
>some online girl to simp for you a little before showing off your pictures

how does she simp before seeing me? kind of a paradox

>>33237360
go to bed bitch

>>33237375
It happens. I was the simp in my case. I don't really know how often, but as friends online.

lol he's so insufferable he's been samefagging for a while

>>33236995
>>33237413

u come in here directly with hostility and call others insufferable? I weep for your lack of self awareness

>>33237476
nta

>>33237476
>gets discovered samefagging
>stops samefagging and tries to direct attention somewhere else
LOL

>>33236983 (OP)
I won't read resentment threads. get to the point and ask for advice next time.