>21
>Uni, studying engineering
>Living with parents
>Never have any motivation
>Never have any friends to encourage me
>Parents from the old country don't understand what i do
>May possibly have ADD/ADHD but i don't want a diagnosis since i wanna serve in the military in my new homeland
>Can't get a job since i have to attend uni due to praxis

I know that the LORD will sanctify me if i keep His will, and i know that all is possible, but is it wrong to yearn for just a little encouragement, is it wrong to yearn for sometone to say "You can do this, i believe in you", or do i sound like a wuss since we men just supposed to tough it out. I need genuine advice, how do i escape this absolute purgatory and get motivated in life, every day i don't get more and more depressed, i get more and more unhinged. I'm afraid that eventually i will take it out on someone...

>>33242808 (OP)
what's your diet/exercise/sleep like?
what's making you get out of bed every day?

>>33242834
Sometimes i excersize, sometimes i push myself, but doing 200 crunches or a 5k run once a week usually. I always het 8h of sleep, i wanna ull out all nighters but i alway sgo to bed and wake up early. I mostly feed myself on protein-rich foods but a bunch of energy drinks are there aswell, which maybe make me tired now that i think about it.
I wake up every day not becuase i want to, but becuas ei have to, it's nether socially nor psychologically acceptable to just lie in bed all day...

>>33242851
cut out processed crap if you eat it, like frozen pizzas etc.
anyways, why are you studying engineering if you're planning to join the military?
For me it sounds like you're studying something which won't be useful for you later on, so you feel no motivation to do it. You want to do other things but you can't. IMO it's just that your goals and actions aren't aligned with each other. And being friendless doesn't help you one bit with that, because you don't have anyone to bounce thoughts off.
You should have a lot of human interaction when studying, so maybe that'd help?

>>33243119
To be honest i love life sciences more than engineering, but a degree in biology won't pay the bills, no? Engineering is interesting but i'm not fully commited to it. I don't want to be a professional soldier, just a reservist in case the country needs me, that is why i wish to join it. All my comrades from uni seem to be aloof, and keep to themselves as it's kinda hard to study Math, Physics or Electrotechnics in groups...
And nah, i specifically avoid processed foods as the plague, the reason i stopped being fat 3 years ago and now have a brawny shape.
I'm pretty much sure that my issue in life is that i've achieved nothing, i'm nothing to everyone and am basically a useless manchild to my parents... It's this dread of being capable of nothing that's slowly consuming me...

>>33243151
>All my comrades from uni seem to be aloof, and keep to themselves
Yeah people from these fields will be more introverted/autistic than average, so it's probably a bit harder to establish a proper relationship with them. Still, I think there are some good people out there for you that you would be happy to talk to. They are probably also lonely aswell, since the male loneliness epidemic is on full rise right now.
>as it's kinda hard to study Math, Physics or Electrotechnics in groups...
Yeah but you don't have to study with them. Just hang out like normal friends during breaks or after you're finished with your classes. I'm sure they've got some hobbies outside of studying, right?

>my issue in life is that i've achieved nothing, i'm nothing to everyone and am basically a useless manchild to my parents
I feel you man, I am 21 aswell and living with my parents as the economy doesn't allow me to live on my own at this age.
On the other hand, you're only 21, what can you really achieve at that age? You barely became an adult. I think what would help is working towards something. You didn't achieve anything yet but give yourself the best foundation to do it in 5 or 10 years. Pretty hard to do a groundbreaking discovery or become a millionaire at 21, but you know, "Rome wasn't built in a day" as they say.

>>33242808 (OP)
Return to shitistan and marry one of your cousins. There, you've solved your dick, height, and weirdo problems.

>>33243202
>You didn't achieve anything yet but give yourself the best foundation to do it in 5 or 10 years.
I guess that time will tell how everything turns out, it's still kinda hard to move on when the future seems so uncertain...
Alexandre Dumas ends the Count of Monte Cristo on the note:
"Has not the count just told us that all human
wisdom is summed up in two words:
Wait and hope (fac et spera)."
Either way, thanks for taking my situation into consideration, i appreciate it. Good luck to youtoo, hopefully we all make it one day

>>33243255
Low hanging fruit, girls from the old country have a very different lifestyle, and will certanly never like me since i object to it.