I am being reminded daily by life, that there's no point of trying and no goals are to be achieved. How tf can one stay positive if 100% of things that happen to are plain bad? I am a 35yo oldfriend that have been grinding like a mad man for the last ... about 14 years. Despite lack of education and any support from my parents, I've managed to learn programming in free time after my shitty work and for the last 7-9 years I am finally earning good money (not a programmer, automation engineer). Autism causes me to waste time on people that are wonnabe normies. They pretend to be introverted, but given a chance they do sacrifice me, our friendship or other people. So I am failing at friendships miserably. Have put lot of effort in family life and my sisters did too. But in current year they couldn't care less, parents are old and they don't even understand half of the shit, I can't even have a coherent conversation with them because they watch tv and argue with each other and that's it so their brain has already melted. Romance life was to some degree successful, had have few long term gfs, last one dumped me after 10 years because she wanted to hoe around on tinder. But man, online dating and dating in current year in general is worse than all previous things I wrote combined, it's a total shitshow. Btw, I am slim fit and pretty decent looking, working out and eating healthy was also part of my grind.

TL;DR was grinding for years to realize, there's no golden pot waiting for me under the rainbow. What now? I don't even like hookers nor drugs, what direction can I even take?

>>33244186 (OP)
You don't. It's fucking over dude. Some things don't change and are set in stone and one of those is "if you don't have it by 30 you're fucked".

>>33244221
But I could have been a neet and in terms of good things and happiness there would not be any difference. Also, now I could give up on finding relationship and could pick bros to spend time with, even waste time with on stupid hobbies, but due to autism I can't even make friends. It's double over for me.

>>33244186 (OP)
>bad things happen to me. waaaah!
Just don't let things bad things happen to you, and plan for good things. Spend all your time in the upper right quadrant of picrel.

just stay clean and have fun. it's easy.

>boohoo my life bad pls coddle me
Not reading faggoted threads made by spineless losers.

>>33244246
>It's double over for me.
Pretty much. You can try lying to yourself and start going out more but going out is for people in their youth.