In my course, I looked at men's crotches by accident, and now I think I'm getting doxed, like what happened in the past.
In the past I've tried to kill myself by hanging myself, but I escaped in the end. Now I'm being laughed at and maybe my friends and family already know about the incident.
I also have schizoprenia and fear being unemployed.
Should I kill myself?

>>33245769 (OP)
No. You're just having an episode. Dial 988

good news. no one cares/cared that you looked at men's crotches by accident and it's highly likely you're not being doxed. also have you tried medication before? i recommend trying it before roping to see how it makes you feel. though from what i've seen a lot of schizos don't like their meds and just being plain coocoo bananas is preferable to being medicated. so no, you shouldn't kill yourself. you've constructed a world in your head that's a lot worse than reality.

>>33245769 (OP)
I won't read wtf is this fuckwit on about threads posted by mumbling, subhuman morons.