>>33258302 (OP)I'm really good at pretty much anything I commit to and usually end up surpassing my peer group when left to my own devices and becoming a sort of SME in various niches.
The problem is I'm really socially stunted and so if I have to work in front of others (I work in an office around townies that dropped out of college) I completely lose the ability to think and am focused on holding my face or body language the right way or looking like I'm listening. When it comes time to contribute or execute, I'm completely blank. Ironically, in being hyper self aware I cause myself to be stupid and inferior to people that don't really have a sense of self or context and kind of jist autopilot everything, allowing their full brain power to act at a given moment to recall information and solve problems.
These people are in debt, they drink themselves into a stupor sometimes at work, they'll never leave or progress in life and I'm rapidly accumulating wealth and finished two major professional certifications that are usually held for people with years more experience, yet they wouldn't trust me to run the office and neither would I. I don't even remember where half of these ridiculous documents "live", let alone what authority of authority of authority to ask when some high level problem arises. Don't know anyone's phone number, quit asking.
Idk employment is a humiliation ritual and the only people truly fit for it are actually really dumb and deserve to get up at 6am every day for the rest of their lives. They like ordering lunch, they like asking if you've seen the latest hawktuahdubaichocolatemeatcanyonkanyewestisisbeheadingvideojdvancememe, they like weekends and beer and Starbucks and deserve all of it and more.
As soon as my MRR breaks $4k after taxes and capex I'm dipping to the tropics and never speaking to anyone unless it's for them to provide some service or good to me, ever again.
