How do I deal with envy?
I'm a virgin. I'm a college dropout. Everything I had to struggle for and eventually fail.
Meanwhile, my younger brother is one of those people everything comes naturally to. He's charismatic, he's smart, he's talented. I want to be so proud and happy that he didn't turn out a failure like me but at the same time I'm insanely jealous of him and it's making me feel like a horrible person.
I used to be someone he looked up to when he were a teenager but now I'm so embarrassed I can't look him in the eye.

Envy is a good thing, it shows what you really want to have.

>>33277525
But it's something I can't have. I could never have a normal life and definitely can't at this point, anyway. And it's just evil. I find myself hoping he'll fail at this thing or the other just so I can feel like it 'evens us out' when I know nothing ever will, anyway, before I try and stop myself from feeling like this. I constantly have to tell myself "No, I actually want him to be fine"

>>33277514 (OP)
you cant change or control your brother

you can only change or control yourself (and that, not even completely).

Even if you've failed a hundred out of a hundred attempts so far, you can still succeed. I know you dont believe this, because you have no data to back it up -- but that's just too fucking bad.

The way to get out of this dead headspace is by working on it.

Decide now to get better.

You cannot do everything, but there is something you CAN do.

What can you do? Nigger, do i look psychic? Im not you. I dont have your life, your knowledge. YOU have to look at your shit and sort it.

Start today, asshole. Do one thing well.

>>33277537
>But it's something I can't have.
You can't ever have sex and lose your virginity?
You can't go back to college and finish after dropping out the first time?
You can't learn to develop your charisma, read/learn more to become smarter, find and develop a talent of your own?
I don't believe any of these for a single second, but it's clear you've already convinced yourself. So whatever you say OP...you do you.

>>33277514 (OP)
Dude same, your post is literally me except I'm envious of my cousins. They all have something going for them: one of them are very smart, one is very rich, and the other one is literally peak masculinity.
Meanwhile, here I am: an ugly, weak, deformed, autistic, stupid, poor, insecure and alone faggot
I completely understand what you're going through, it's terrible to feel that way, to have so much frustration and disdain for your own life that you end up resenting the people you should be proud off.
I guess some of us are just born to be losers from start to end. I wish I could have hope but I have 20 years of experience that say otherwise

Same but I feel that way with everybody. Even random people on the street. I have a huge inferiority complex. I have no confidence in myself and see myself as subhuman. I've completely given up and never leave my house, I don't see a point in interacting with the world as an inferior subhuman. I'm too fucking stupid, ugly, and useless. I'm in my mid 30s and it's just getting worse

>>33277872
Let me guess you also had very old parents? A very overprotective and overbearing mother that was the head of the family? An emasculated and weak father that never tried to bond with you? Single child or younger child?

>>33277514 (OP)
10. Thou shalt not covet
"Compare yourself to who you were yesterday, not to who someone else is today." - Jordan Peterson

Right now you are trying to compete within your group.
Try thinking about it like he is a member of your team and when he does well, you do well.

>>33277514 (OP)
"The Power of Positive Thinking" - Norman Vincent Peale
"Six Pillars of Self Esteem" - Nathaniel Branden

>>33277872
Threads and posts like these are where I start to think that maybe some of you could stand to have a little more healthy cynicism, not less.
For example, I look around and to me most of the people I see are weak, ugly, stupid and/or useless sub-humans. So let's say your self-assessment is correct.
That would mean that, at worse, you fit in just fine with most of the rest of the world. And looking around, I see that of these people still find happiness and/or success anyway, even if perhaps in spite of themselves.
So why can't you?

>>33278076
Because I'm a retard and inferior to those people too

>I find myself hoping he'll fail at this thing or the other just so I can feel like it 'evens us out' when I know nothing ever will
Happened to me too. I kept thinking "okay, he beat me in X, but I'm better at Y..." and I wasn't. It really is what shattered my just world beliefs, and made me realize that humans aren't balanced, some people are just more gifted in everything.

>>33277514 (OP)
I never felt envy in my life until I started caring about my own happiness and success (I was too depressed beforehand) and I left my small pond entering university. Meritocracy doesn't exist, there are people who put no effort and get to the top in everything. Why should I have sacrificed all my time to study all day when others got better grades without even trying? How long do I have to learn social skills before I can get a girlfriend? What I hate the most is that the winners of the genetic lottery never admit it and they are all bluepilled instead, so they can't even give advice, just the "be yourself" crap. It's no use being yourself when you are genetically inferior, I too would try to be myself if I was a talented chad or a genius. And also, they all mistreated and hated me throughout my life because of my developmental and intellectual defect. No one ever tried to emphasize with me or help, because people only care about what you can give to them, and if you are a subhuman with nothing to give, not even saints will want to befriend you.

Now I'm self improving again, but with a different purpose. Whenever I tried to learn to fit in society or be successful in anything I failed miserably. I don't care about fitting in and being loved anymore, love doesn't even exist for me anyway. Now I just want to become strong enough to lead the Incel Revolution and get my revenge on the foids and the normalcattle who have wronged me. With this goal in mind I have noticed that my incel rage is strong enough to counter the depression and hopelessness and make me keep going.

>>33277612
>What am I missing?
Talent, potential
>I'll use a different strategy
None of them will ever work
>Is this really my best work?
Yes, and it's not good enough
>I can always improve
My limit is clear
>This may take some time
Obviously, nothing is easy to me
>Mistakes help me learn
No, I'm too stupid to learn, and some mistakes shouldn't be made in the first place
>I am going to train my brain
Again, my limits are low, also IQ can't be improved
>I will learn to do this
You can't learn everything
>There's always plan B
It didn't work either
>I will learn from them
I tried to learn from Chad and all I gathered is that I'll never have his genes, the only thing setting us apart

He probably does still look up to you, no matter how badly you think of yourself. He knows the struggle you been through. Not every man is dealt the same hand.

>>33277514 (OP)
you have to put in the effort to try. No one is going to hold your hand down this road. Nothing anyone says is going to help you. It truly has to come from your own heart. And maybe you're seeing you just can't, or don't want to. Then accept it and quit complaining. The truth nuke is that you're choosing to believe everything in your head. You're choosing to be like this, consciously or unconsciously. Get in the drivers seat and make the change, or don't. No one can do that for you.