Is it possible to burn your synapses out from porn + cooming? I've been jerking off since before I could actually cum, but I'm 29 years old now and I'm basically anhedonic in everything that isn't cooming. Nothing motivates me, nothing brings me joy or pleasure, it's all just dissociated slop washing over and past me.
>video games are boring, if challenged I simply shut them off to jerk off
>no movie/TV show holds my attention anymore, I have to commit to a theater showing if I want to finish viewing the film
>haven't been to a concert/bar in months

worse still:
>29 and KHHV
>no IRL friends, calcified social skills
>actually MORE sensitive because of porn, not less (softcore stuff gets to me)
>also on bupropion + SSRIs + nightly weed usage

...not here to baww about those, but rather to ask if cooming too much causes anhedonia, how you fixed that, and what fixing it was like.

>>33281254 (OP)
Yes I suffered the same affliction until I started adopting these habits 3 years ago:
> Meditate for 1 hour per day
> Eat either an apple or bannana before and after the meditation
> Some sort of exercise at 6AM every day be it a walk or a full body work out
> Sex with prostitutes once per month

This allowed me to refrain from masturbating entirely and refocus my energy into my soul making me a more vibrant person and I made many friends, relationships and got promoted since I started adopting these habits.

>>33281281
>meditate
sure
>1 hour
christ

The last few times I attempted mindfulness meditation, I ended up feeling more dissociated and trapped behind my eyes. I'd probably need a guide if I were to pick meditation up as a serious practice again, it has the opposite of its intended effect when I try self-application.

I feel like I'd also get into a self-hating hell loop if I examined a porn craving thought during mindfulness.
>why are you horny?
>you're bored, sad, lonely
>why are you bored, sad, and/or lonely?
>because you can't make and keep friends to distract you or fool someone into fucking you
>why's that?
>because you're not only boring and inarticulate, people bore you too
>why are you boring and inar....
>ad infinitum (ad... an hour)
How would that be helpful?

>sex with prostitutes once per month
I don't think I'd be able to get it up unless I had porn in front of me. Would rather keep the V card. I should be more morally conflicted about porn and prostitution both being exploitative sex work, honestly. More excuses and roadblocks to me not getting pussy lol

>>33281254 (OP)
yeah, short term I've found if I jerk more than 3-4x a day I get really bad anhedonia for a while.
just hard limit yourself to 2-3 faps a day, or whatever your threshhold is, and edge a little longer so they each count

>>33281254 (OP)
I won't read threads in which it is not clear that the OP even wants to solve his problem.

Probably. But this could just be straight up burnout from cooming. Just give your dick and balls a rest for a whole week or three and your libido should reset. If you're really concerned, go get your test levels checked.

>>33281879
If you could read, you'd probably pick up on the "burnt out" bit. Of course I am not going to sound driven to change when no stimuli or action gives me any satisfaction or pleasure. Doing something "good" or "bad" for myself just results in the same living purgatory, waiting to die.

>>33281922
Any methods for sleeping better? I'm already trying exercise to knock myself out, but it doesn't happen unless I vape weed or coom in tandem. Nice screencap response

>>33282763
Any methods for sleeping better?
You could take Melatonin instead. I heard that stuff can increase sleep quality.
I'm surprised exercising doesn't help though, are you running for 15-20 minutes straight? That usually gets me tired and I end up taking a nap.

>>33281254 (OP)
>on SSRIs
>why do i feel bad

>>33283341
I tried raw dogging it for a span of 3 years. I was suicidal, ruminated on it often, and had a roadmap to doing it before I decided I needed meds. Medication or not, I feel bad anyways. At least I don't feel like constantly telling everyone I want to kill myself when I'm on them. Which I should've followed through on by now. 29 and unable to make an adult friend is pathetic.

>>33282898
>Melatonin
Doesn't do anything for me. I once drank an entire bottle of it in college and felt nothing. I actually didn't sleep that night, either.

>Exercise
I'm doing indoor cycling because I live in the southwestern US and it gets brutally hot here. Sometimes the elevated heart rate from the exercise keeps me awake instead of lulling me to sleep.

>>33281254 (OP)
>Is it possible to burn your synapses out from porn + cooming?
Yes but only if your response to boredom is MORE THING or NEW THING.
If you just be bored then you won't burn out.

>>33281254 (OP)
>nightly weed usage
Oh that's the culprit.

your dopamine receptors are fucking destroyed from weed and porn

>>33284378
stop being so gay suicidality isn't real it's all just a convoluted mental game people play. you can live without killing yourself, and your 'desire' to kill yourself is just a self delusion you invented for the purposes of signaling... your suicidal ideation is so unwarranted and contrived when niggers in africa with bellies bursting from starvation don't even have such thoughts, it's all a first-world mindgame propped up by first-world clinical dogmas

>>33286279
I'm worth less (and damage the world more) than those bursting bellies. They would be grateful to have what I have and I'm so fried that I can't appreciate any of it anymore. Your line of thinking doesn't help me out here. If suicide is gay and perpetuated by the first world, maybe I'm a flaming faggot too stupid to see past it all. If my signaling reached anyone at all, maybe I wouldn't be so alone. Thanks for your input

>>33281254 (OP)
>also on bupropion + SSRIs + nightly weed usage
You are on 2 possibly 3 drugs that numb your mind and you ask this stupid ass question.
Maybe get off the drugs you retarded cunt.

>>33281254 (OP)
Do you know how to edge efficiently? because if each of your faps is a pump-pump-bleh-clean up chore then you'll be fapping too often trying to chase a feeling you don't know how to attain

Quality>Quantity

>>33281254 (OP)
OP, ppl tends to say "addiction is bad" and ho on about a science they simply cannot understand, just repeating things that confirm biased ideas.

cooming is not bad itself. is what causes you to give in to cooming. masturbation is good. but you do it for the wrong causes. you are conscious about your psychological issues and need to cope somehow.
WHEN you heal these mind problems, your escapism will subside.

see a therapist. a psychologist specifically. no pseudo guru, nor coaches. spend money on it, and try to find a professional that is similar to you in some way. gender, skin color, similar age.... it will help you both to get in tune.

>>33287947
who gives a fuck what you're 'worth' don't you see this is all part of some contrived social divination... you've internalized the perceptions of others as if they're the definitive account of your own being, which only you can possess anyway nobody else can access your experience and from your perspective (as the only conscious person) nobody else is conscious at all... this whole self esteem business is immoral

i dont know about you fren but like im not as old as you and i recently just stop my porn addiction because nutting as a sub5 male just feels like an ultimate cope thinking im not sub5 and should breed a skool shooter while telling myself that they wont be 1 like thats the biggest thing that made me stop nutting just out of feeling loss of dignity cause i cant even nut in a actual female then nutting on what ever it is in front of my pp just make me feel more like sh!t needing some cringe form of dopamine i dont know how yall coomers do it (i got like self induced ed or smth idk)