i keep randomly screaming and crying about being alive, hating life, and wanting to die, literally every single day. I cant stop and i dont know what to do
>why do you hate life so much
I just hate everything in general like having a body and sensations, i want those things to stop now

>>33284677 (OP)
Drugs issue

>>33284684
i dont take drugs man, and ive been doing this since kindergarden. Man i just dont have anywhere to turn to for advice do i

>>33284677 (OP)
Register with the local euthanasia center and wait for the cremation van to arrive.

>>33284677 (OP)
I get the impression you're unhappy

Don't talk to a therapist. Go directly to a psychiatrist.
If 'having a body and sensations' is one of the reasons you find life so difficult, you're not just depressed; Something else is at play here. That's not typical - even for the mentally-ill.

>>33284677 (OP)
You probably have autism + deep trauma. Don't kys, just start seeing prifessionals. Psychiatrist, psychologist, therapist. And do your own research. Also talk to chatgpt about what you're experiencing. It's actually a great resource for self-reflection, free and available 24/7.

Also, try this technique: when you get trapped in negative thoughts, just start writing them out in a notepad file. Listen actively to your thoughta and write them down as they flood in. If you look at them, you'll realize just how bad your programming is, as well as how stupid it is. Then you can start working on reprogramming your automatic negative thoughts. And remember to be compassionate towards yourself.
Okay, good luck anon I hope you feel better. I love you as a brother and you deserve to exist.

>>33286380
I agree with this post
>>33284677 (OP)
There is such a thing as emotional trauma, and it kind of sounds like that could be what you're struggling with. I'm not an expert, but I would suggest looking into that

>>33286350
i did before and they made it worse
>>33286380
i wrote them down and dont find them silly, i agree with all of it even in my happiest moments

>>33284677 (OP)
If you want to die, how are you alive?

>>33286664
i didnt die yet, simple as that

>>33284677 (OP)
"The Power of Positive Thinking" - Norman Vincent Peale

>>33288303
idk this author but the power of positive thinking is real.
>>33284677 (OP)
Check out brian withers on youtube.

But from reading what you said, I think you're posessed from something that happened in your past. You need deep healing and deep transformation. Please dont give up.
Also, read the gospel and try going to church

>>33284694
This board is full of women and normies on the self improvement train, you will get the usual dogshit advice here you can get everywhere else on the internet and youtube, which is keep trying, do this do that. Basically they don't really care about your problems and just want you to go away.