I have a deep hatred of humanity within me. I love my family, and would never dream of hurting them, but I feel like I'm sub-human every day.
I don't remember when this started, but there's always a looming sense of dread that I can't escape. I know there's no one out to get me, but I can't stop feeling like I need to find a resolution to this pain, and fast.
What should I do? I need to feel something other than quick satisfaction or deep anger. I need control.

I apologize if this is all over the place. I'm not good at putting these feelings into words.

>>33291175 (OP)
Stop what you're doing and check yourself. Did you eat? Have you been drinking water? Do that. Scream into the pillow. Go outside and sit for a little bit and take yourself away from that space, close your eyes and breathe. Nice deep breaths. Get a pen and paper, go back outdoors, and write out the things that ail you. Each thing gets it's own box, and under those boxes write down what you think could be causing them. Underneath that, write down what you think could resolve that. If it can't be solved immediately, write doen when it can if that's possible. And if that's still blank, write down things that give you comfort.
Look over that list of things and see where there are connections or anything that might offer clarity.
Are you allowing yourself to feel comfort when you're feeling like this?

>>33291202
I wrote down a list and drank some water. Should I post a transcript?

>>33291381
You do what makes you comfortable, if you're serious

>>33291175 (OP)
I won't read this "I hate everything" meme that keeps showing up every day. Nothing can be done.