I like watching porn of men, all of my sexual fantasies contain men and I own dildos but the thought of physically touching a real penis makes me genuinely gag sometimes. I feel so repulsed and I don't know why.

I was never raped or molested but I did get a ton of unsolicited dick pics as a child online so maybe that is the cause of my feelings. I don't know if that's valid enough for me to feel this way because 99% of women my age experienced the same thing and they have normal relationships/feelings with men.

I'm currently talking to a guy (not dating or together yet), but I can tell he has clear romantic interest towards me. But I'm scared to take the relationship further because he might want to have sex with me. I can't even think about his dick without being nervous and getting a physical flight or fight response.

Looking at them on a screen and owning a unrealistic silicone dick is fine, but when I think about seeing a real one and being forced to interact with it makes me want to crawl into a pit and set myself on fire out of disgust.

No offense to penis owners btw.

>>33300205 (OP)
Try wearing a double-sided strapon

>>33300205 (OP)
Just be honest with him. Tell him you you think dicks are gross so he can decide if wants to stay or not

>>33300205 (OP)
Just be honest about it with him and he should be understanding, you can take it slow and will probably realize it's not so bad. Maybe see a therapist/psychologist as well about your hangup/trauma.

Provided you're a girl, this is not normal. I mean I'm a guy and I like my own but I feel the way you do about other people's dicks so I definitely get it.

I don’t get it. Is OP gay, or pretending to be a woman?

>>33300457
OP is first and foremost a generative AI pretending to be human, this is /adv after all.
it so happens the bot randomly chose to be a woman ITT

>>33300484
lol what makes me a bot

>>33300457
what dont you get? :0

>>33300457
Probably both

>>33300205 (OP)
same. yes, you can train to like it.
in fact i think you can train to like anything

>>33300576
Let the D happen. Like when you jump in a lake and quickly get used to it.

>>33300586
>same
have you felt the same way?

>>33300590
i wish i could just have normal woman settings instead of having to "get used to" things that should just be natural :c

>>33300608
It is natural to find dicks weird. I found vaginas weird and disgusting at first too.

>>33300205 (OP)
Pavlov yourself into loving dick by snorting a fat line of cocaine every time you're about to give a blowjob

>>33300205 (OP)
That poor elephant...

>>33300608
Your feels are somewhat natural. Nobody likes smoking when they start either.

>>33300707
its a geoduck apparently

>>33300750
i guess that makes sense. am i brainwashed by porn to think that women are supposed to be cock starved succubi even as virgins

Theres a guy whose been posting on /r9k/ about how he is rewiring himself to be gay because of his hatred for womens attitudes.
Last I saw he said he was having progress, maybe look through archives for his posts

>>33300205 (OP)
Do you like that anon?

I am straight male, but I had similar issues with women. I like women, but im afraid of intimacy, I like talking to women and they are so cute, but when it comes to touch im afraid of it.

Now in my case it comes from growing up in a schizo house where I was beaten for talking to women and I was called a rapist by my mother even as a young kid when she hit me.

so little different but like, there was an aversion to physical contact even though I craved approval and affection from women.

For me, I thought I was asexual until I really liked a girl, now it still didnt work out with her but it kickstarted certain feelings inside of me.

Personally, my advice to you would be to take things slow, see how he makes you feel, you should feel safe and even want physical contact. Let those feelings grow, be honest with him too, if you are comfortable with it, make out with him see if you feel differently.

Is this an online bf or an irl one?

>>33300604
yes. i was quite repulsed by it, now i get wet from just doing a blowjob. funny

>>33300673
maybe this but have some gum

>>33300776
yeah, that’s me but thinking that an average dick is 16cm or more. most people are 13cm or less which is very funny to me lol

everyone having shota dicks

>>33300205 (OP)
You need to explain the situation to your boyfriend, and ask him to be patient. Then the two of you need to see a sex therapist and start doing sensate focus exercises.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensate_focus

>>33300205 (OP)
Just put a condom on it so you don't have to touch it. Andplay with his balls instead.