I was "raised" by a "person" with BPD.
I am high intelligence. She is about 80 IQ. And yet I cannot speak to people. I am funny. And yet I cannot interact with people. I am scared of everything. I cannot control it. I spent my childhood being screamed at and hit and manipulated and caring for my mother as if I was her parent.
And now I'm going to graduate school.
And she is living it up off of other people's money like she always has. She never has to work and she never will need to work. I will be working for decades. She couldn't complete a college degree. I did. She couldn't. And yet, she gets everything in life because she has a cunt and can get men to fuck her and give her money. If she was a man, she would be sleeping on the fucking sidewalk. And yet, she gets everything she wants. Her and my retarded fucking stupid goblin cunt sister get everything they want all the time.


What am I supposed to do? All that I want to do is get high. That's all I want to do. I just want to get high and wasted everyday. Don't fucking tell me to "go to therapy" and do not EVER tell me that. What am I supposed to do?

I recommend Freud.

>>33301336
And what the fuck is that going to tell me?

My dad probably has an IQ of 85. He can barely read. Arguing with him during my teenage years was as as unbearable as you can imagine.

Being ruled over my a literal retard really messes with your head.

>>33301358
Yes.
I have nothing but anger. I am angry all the time. Anger anger anger. That's all I have. Whenever I hear about people who "had good families" I become enraged and angry at them. FUCK them. FUCK everyone who had a "good family" and fuck religitards for telling me that "God loves me" or "they will pray for me" when their fucking "GOD" ruined me

>>33301326 (OP)
>What am I supposed to do? All that I want to do is get high. That's all I want to do. I just want to get high and wasted everyday. Don't fucking tell me to "go to therapy" and do not EVER tell me that. What am I supposed to do?
You sound awfully stupid for a "high IQ" person. I suggest registering with the local euthanasia center and then waiting for the cremation van to collect you.

>>33301718
Fuck you retard

>>33301358
>>33301376
Hello anons, I am in each of your shoes.

The answer I was searching and eternity for and has dramatically changed my mind and helped me on the path for internal peace was my family being plagued with BPD (Mother) and NPD (Father)

I strongly urge you to binge watch 2 YouTube channels unironically. I am not paid off I simply genuinely believe in these two as a wealth of healing knowledge.

Jerry Wise.
Nothingness: Antidote to narcissism.

Young people don't know what narcissism really is, tiktok threw the scent and its caused many people become victims to the unique form of abuse and control known as Enmeshment.

Your folks might be genuinely retarded, or they are actively aware of their behaviors and it's all designed to keep you in the role they have chosen FOR you. To be placed on a shelf.

If nothing else, please consider watching Jerry Wise and see if anything "clicks" for you. You must find a way to relieve your suffering, anyway to cope externally from your situation. You must before its too late..

>>33301772
Thanks I will look them up

>>33301347
watch the anime the anime girl is from and THEN read Freud