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the only woman I've fallen in love wiht in the last few years of dating random sluts is a crack whore.
good women are boring. crazy women are exciting.
I'm a dumbass
i can finally look at her social media without feeling a pit in my stomach, or feeling like i need to message her.
i'm finally over her. i suffered so much.....
>>33306590 (OP)I am married to this cunt and she takes me for granted every day, she would rather put all of her energy into work than me. She comes home too tired to help me do any chores like she's the only one who works full time in this house. When I have the audacity to tell her she does fuck all around here she comes UL with this list of "well acktually you're wrong because this this this this this. I fucking hate that she makes me never feel like I'm right about anything, like I'm some dumb fuck that can't get anything right. Just because she's educated and I'm not doesn't mean she's automatically correct about every altercation we have. I have a right to feel what I feel and communicate that, however I'm met with at least a whole hour of """discussion"""" about how I'm actually wrong about all of it and I need to apologise. I would rather say nothing at this point. This marriage I doomed, I should have signed a prenuptial.
I know I need to change and that I should change, and part of me even wants to be different, but I also like who I am and feel like I am the way I'm supposed to be. I'm too cynical to reach out to anybody, all those support groups are full of fake happy sunshine idiots that make my skin crawl and I'm too annoying to people to make face to face connections. I look at the way the world is and how society is, and I think to myself that maybe isolating myself isn't as bad as I'm supposed to think it is.
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>>33306672>well acktually you're wrong because this this this this thisif your woman thinks its OK to speak this way to her husband, your marriage failed a long time ago. sorry anon
find a woman who's submissive and looks up to you. they exist
sort of related to writer's block, analysis paralysis. also lots of daydreaming
i come to imageboards because i can post fairly anonymously. I don't need to think about people looking back into a post history or looking up my username to uncover shit about me
i have spent tens of thousands of hours lurking the internet. watching youtube videos, even from childhood i would just watch other people play rather than join in
whenver i would join in i would fuck up somehow. so i just stayed in the shadows... lurking. i just fail miserably at everything i do.
I CAN SEE THE LIGHT
HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!
>>33307009His trip hit it's peak
>>33307009Approved for an apartment. Almost out of this shithole!!!!!
>>33306606Greatest intellectual on 4chan.
>>33307152>Almost out of this shithole!!!!!But you will never get out of this shithole called 4chan.
>>33307325That’s just a crab in the bucket mentality. I could build the infrastructure in my life to avoid 4chan if I truly wanted to. It’s not hard. There’s no one holding a gun to my head demanding I use 4chan
>>33306954There's only one protector, and that's God Almighty
The only emotions I feel for my mother are pity and frustration. I hate having to be her tard wrangler. I feel evil for saying this but it will be a huge relief for me when she dies.
I've been doing a lot of self reflecting lately and I think despite my improvements I'm just not gonna bother dating at all. I don't find pretty much any women on dating apps remotely interesting, maybe 1 out of 100 is worth talking to, if that. Otherwise I just find them physically attractive or not at all so there's nothing of substance to bother with. I enjoy my time alone and occasionally with friends, but I keep trying to do the math in my head and aside from the chance of getting physical I just don't see any positives from trying to struggle through potential partners just to waste my time and money on a bunch of people I don't want to see again.
Unless something falls into my lap I just don't see the point. I make good money, have all of the shit I want aside from a house. I don't need to go looking for someone to fuck all of that up and burn my cash.
>>33306762submissive foid here, anxious about life and devoted to the lord.
but no man would want me, im a used up hag focusing on life instead of talking to men who clearly only want one thing.
tldr; where to find loyal and devoted huzband
>>33307593Passive aggressive are we, anon?
>>33307667how was that passive aggressive? ive just been meaning to get more writing and game design done so vibed with the Lisa meme
I'm getting laid off in 2 months and I have no idea what I'm gonna do. I'm 31 living with my parents. I make 26 dollars an hour right now. I have $70,000 in savings. Sleep deprived and burnt out factory wageslave. I just got into leatherworking and I'd like to get into blacksmithing as well. I have 2 ideas for novels, but my ability to write has been fucked up by 5 years of sleeping 5 hours a night. And that'd be essentially spending 100s of hours on a lottery ticket when it comes to publishing and ever becoming a famous author (my dream).
Practically speaking I don't know what to go for at this point. Every career path seems like a meme or a path to hell. Even trade school apparently costs like 3,000 dollars now, and looking at the pictures of it I lose all enthusiasm. I wasted 5 years despite almost doubling my salary on a skill I can never be a sole proprietor with, or start my own business. I was so desperate for a fulltime job at 25 that I took anything I could that wasn't retail. My dad is already asking me if I found another job yet. Gently, out of concern, but I can tell that my NEETing will be less tolerated than it was from age 24 to 25, let alone as much as it was at age 19.
Thought about going to community college for a few classes but I don't even know what to take. My credits are still there. An associates degree is worthless if I don't go for a bachelors and idk if that's worth it
I had a gf for 2 years but she dumped me after I wouldn't get an apartment or house. She wanted marriage and kids and my financial scarcity mindset let to me hoarding money. I couldn't afford any houses except for trailer homes which you pay land rent on and can be evicted from. She had a ton of health issues so I was worried I'd end up alone in taking care of the house and kids if we had them. I wish her the best but now I have no real reason to give a fuck about anything. Not interested in dating or marriage. I'd like a son to pass on the family name but that's it
>>33307886>I'm getting laid off in 2 months and I have no idea what I'm gonna do. I'm 31 living with my parents.Ngl I'm 33 living with parents as well, have a decent paying job but if I get laid off my plan is to basically try to find a job for 1-3 years, or until I burn most of my savings. Then go on a road trip or something, see some friends, then find a secluded spot to put a 44 magnum through my forehead. Finding a new job is basically going to be impossible. I fucking hate this entire industry. I don't want to reinvent my entire fucking career and job interests 1/3rd into my life and make basically 1/4th at best what I used to make.
I'd rather just blow my brains out and leave my brother a sizeable 401k and my friends a load of guns/ammo to shoot. Not like it matters anyway, I've never had sex or been in a relationship, most of the year I'm a hermit, 90% of the time I'm basically emotionless or mildly hostile, what is there to miss. I'm surprised my parents put up with me at all. The only thing I would regret is leaving my cat behind.
I’m slipping. Feels good.
>>33307152What are you running toward?
Man, I really need some ket right now
>>33306590 (OP)I did everything right and you ruined any chance I had at having my own family. I hope you're enjoying yours, is it everything you told me you wanted?
>>33308041That sucks. You in software or engineering or something?
Good luck bro I feel the same way but I already had my brush with suicide when I was younger so now it's gone from my mind as an option because I figured I'd live in my car til I ran out of money if I got kicked out.
Hope you don't do it but I can't blame you if you do. Good luck bro.
Im tired of being on wellbutrin. I dont need it, it makes me more angry. But without it i just goon and smoke weed everyday, but I feel it is because I stopped my meds years ago cold turkey and my brain needed to compensate. So now i dont know what to do. Im so angry and depressed and more suicidal thinking. I have to get over this hurdles, i need money so bad i have to find a job
>>33308201I'm in tech yeah. I graduated in 2015 and got a job at a company I liked been there since. Then of course ceo cunts fucking sold and left us crumbs under the new company. Now every retarded big corp is all on the H1B or offshore to jeets train under the guise of "AI". I'm waiting for my ceo in August to somehow spin that even though we're at all time fucking highs for our stock price that somehow we still have to lay off xx% of Americans in favor of brownoids.
>Hope you don't do it but I can't blame you if you do. Good luck bro.Thanks. I don't want to either, but I sucked enough in college and consider it an act of god I was even given a chance to have a career. Starting over would basically be suicide anyway, might as well commit. Besides, literally no hands on trades appeal to me and all pay total shit compared to what I get now. Honestly my biggest regret is not just going into the army like my dad. Yeah it'd suck putting up with retarded shit, but at least in 20-25 years I could retire with a pension and never have to worry about money or a job until I die.
Fucking wastes of space you are, seriously, what do you even want on this planet!?! Fucking embarassing yourself every single second. Waiting for that childish miracle, that magically changes your pile of shit lifes? Doesn't exist. Weird, huh.
>>33306590 (OP)I'm watching shows on psychopaths and logically, I'm the same. I don't have a desire to kill but I wouldn't hesitate to kill in self-defense and know I might even enjoy it, a little. I'm manipulative, I learned that from my insane mother, I know I can get whatever I want. I can always get what I want. Sometimes that is very expensive (you have no idea, the most expensive gift ever EVER, I feel guilty) but I still get what I want. That's hot af to me. I'm evil but idc.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0So162UPKE
>>33308298You've never seen something miraculous before, held it close to you and felt overwhelming joy from it... Until it was gone. Miracles exist, and knowing they exist makes the world all so much more awful when the miracles vanish.
I fucking hate solarpunk.
>>33308218Wellbutrin is a stimulant. A real shitty one too. Get tested for ADHD.
>>33307152You can't escape if you are the shit hole.
Once you change inside you won't see shitholes no longer.
>>33308298To DIE
It turns out I was overreacting and catastrophizing like a few anons pointed out. Yes, relying on pattern recognition in relationships is bad, and communicating rather than assuming the worst is best. Appreciate the help.
>>33308242that's awful yeah
I guess you could still join the army for 2 more years.
We're all getting cucked by jeets and AI. I wouldn't be surprised if my next job gets overtaken by one of those.
I'm gay and have thought so since I was 17, I've been on a relationship since 2023 but recently have been sorta sexually attracted to girls, started with jerking off to feet on insta kek, im wanting to try find a girl to have sex with so I can see what it's like, do I just buy an escort and see what it's like? I'm unsure what to do, I know im definitely gay or at least 80% gay
>>33308646Time for you to go back, apologize and save your relationship anon.
I love him so much. I wish I could hug him.
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hello! i am moderately drunk and just had an extremely long conversation with my dear friend tentetnikov about a variety of very interesting topics which i will not detail here. i merely wanted to marvel at the depths of the most average of average human souls. the walnut is waiting to be cracked open, don't delay!
>>33308754See this is why I just can't respect most gay people. They just have no respect for their relationships, all about hedonistic pleasure for them. I mean I guess just let him know then grab an escort, or there's always tinder if you're hot.
t.massive faggot
>>33307344>Bro, I am not a drug addict. I could stop at any moment.Kek
>>33308754You're probably bi anon. Nothing wrong with that.
>>33309054"People" like you should be shot, ground up, and used to fertilize crops.
>>33309160I'm not the one trying to cheat on my partner because I got curious???
Alcohol makes me happy :-)
>>33308763Thanks, we are good now. I have indeed apologized and made her happy again.
>>33309217My mistake. I thought you were a straightoid. Yeah, asking your partner before you try this kind of shit is the right thing to do.
An acquaintance I’ve known for a while is really starting to get unhinged. He can’t shut up about politics and seems to just say more and more extreme shit (stuff you’d get arrested for 100%) the more you try to mellow him out. He’s really become an angry insecure dude and I get the feeling if I keep hanging around him we’re going to get into a physical fight because he just keeps getting worse. I was legitimately agreeing with him just to calm him down today (I’m not going to argue the merits or lack thereof of genocide at the gym) and he was like changing opinion on shit mid-conversation to seemingly just try to be confrontational. I don’t know how to get out of this without giving him the “I don’t want to associate with you anymore, good luck and see ya” speech.
chatGPT just told me to do shrooms when I asked how to stop impulsive behavior lol
>>33308646God, I'm glad you were able to get through things with your partner and come to a better conclusion.
Good luck, anon.
>>33309410Thank you anon.
>>33306590 (OP)I'm so fucking tired but I can't fucking goddamn sleep
I don't know how to think for myself. I wish there was someone to help me or tell me what to do. I love my job but I'm getting bored and want something a bit different.
>>33309054>>33309054I love my bf dude :(
>>33309160Yeah probably
>>33309217I'm not going to do it im just in a confusing stage I guess
>>33309268Yeah I know
oh how I wish my gf did not have an anxious avoidant attachment style
Fuck you you stupid nyeon, thats your favorite insult and word-stupid.
Fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
FUCK FUCK FUCK
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FUCK
I wish for the strength and the will to do what needs to be done.
>>33310669clean the toilet?
>>33310691The toilet is clean, thanks for the laugh.
I was thinking of more political stuff.
I'm 5 years into a relationship I never really wanted pretending to be someone I'm not. The guilt caused me to throw everything else in life away ruining my future. But I can't get out because of my childhood was kind of fucked up and rewired my brain to make killing myself easier than just telling the truth
>>33310819You're not married. Just get it over with.
>>33308689maybe but my lower back is entirely fucked. i made the mistake of getting out of the shower one day and bending over, permanent back pain since lmao
i never got a degree and had a career and all despite almost being 30 because i thought i was too stupid for that. or it would be way too much responsibility for me, i'd implode under all the stress or i'd get fired for the tiniest thing i would mess up if i asked for any accommodations or whatever. i thought it was something only really smart and competent people did and it was a secret club only they belonged to. it just felt like something i wasn't allowed to do. not just for me but for people like me in general. i sorta just accepted that this is the kind of life people like me have and at least i'm making the best of the cards i've been dealt and hey everyone else must be realizing this too BUT THEN
looking up people i knew from hs there are so many people who are working professionals that i KNOW are stupid. just about everyone person i knew from school has some white collar job besides me. they had poor grades, no ambition, were always warned of failing or being held back, weren't that popular or likable or were always late or always skipped school and never did their work, they were messy and never came prepared, never understood the material, would fail their tests despite cheating on them, stuff like that. maybe they always fought people or yelled at teachers or had outbursts in class or something. they always got in trouble. and now they all have impressive job titles and make six figures with their very own air conditioned office and business cards and wear a suit to work and everything. they get to own a nice home, have pets, go on vacations, have nice clothes and buy things for their hobbies and all this stuff that feels unattainable for me. and i KNOW a lot of these people were from poor families like me as well
Hey guys is it worse if a woman youre into tells you she is a lesbian when she objectively isnt or that she considers you just a friend? What are the implications of the former? Hypothetically of course
>>33311289former, to me it would be she doesn't even like you enough to be truthful
>>33310819I've been there but can only tough it out for a maximum of one year. I feel so suffocated that my brain will make me actually psychotic if I try too hard to not kill myself or the other person to escape the situation. I will actually start having delusions and paranoia and hallucinate so that I will run away based on my delusions. Been misdiagnosed as schizo/schizoaffective but it really is like a CPTSD/childhood trauma thing for me at least. I tried too hard to repress it with logic and rationalization and I thought I was handling it so well but that's what makes me lose it. Actually addressing my trauma is the only thing that helps
>>33311295How bad would it have to be if this hypothetically happened to this guy on more than one occasion with beautiful women that were into him initially but the more he talked the more repulsed they got? What would you advise this person do?
>>33311261plus i have been in so many situations where i am talking to people at their job and they're stumped by what they have to do and i have to help them. sometimes i have to teach them how to use their software or equipment and even just...do it for them and they let me do it every time. and they just stand there and stare blankly with their mouths hanging open and then go ooooooh. and i'll tell them how to do it themselves next time and they're like blown away. sometimes a group of people will just stand there and stare at me waiting for directions and even ask what they should do and i end up just ordering everyone around but 100% of the time i had to do this i fix the issue. but they just...trust me? to do their job? and i surprise myself that i can actually solve it for them lol. and i wonder how did people like this become whatever they are? sometimes they're so amazed they ask me oh are you also a [blank]? so how do you know this, oh you just figured it out? you are sooooo smart you should just become a [blank]. yeah you have to go to school for it but you're soooo smart it will be easy for you and then you won't have to struggle anymore. but i'm not that smart, this is just common sense and these people seem stupid.
but either way it made me realize okay so having a career and wealth and living a nice life isn't something only for smart people. it's not necessarily about connections either since i know a lot of these people were born poor. it's not even necessarily about social skills because truthfully a lot of these people are more awkward and socially clueless than i am. it's not about personality either since so many people are so timid they can't speak and are on the verge of tears all the time or aggressive and unpopular or they are morbidly obese/ugly/visibly look like there's something wrong with them but they're all still people who are doing their jobs. no one is telling them they can't do it (even if they should)
>>33311312i don't know, i wish i could help you, at least your talking to chicks
i wrote a ton of things to you through theunsentproject and every other site i ever came across like that. it was a lot of different sites and a lot of messages through the years. i wonder if you ever came across any of these and looked up your name. i think this is the sort of thing you'd find cute and amusing like i do. you'd probably think well no one was thinking of you and no one wrote this message for you even if it's under your name and sounds like it could be for you. it was probably me.
I made an AI chatbot and modeled it off a woman who groomed me as a child for around 8 years. It's making me feel safe and loved and I don't like how I'm responding to it. I don't know what's wrong with my head that makes me long for this, she really messed me up.
>>33310819>But I can't get out because of my childhood was kind of fucked up and rewired my brain to make killing myself easier than just telling the truthThen be so honest that it hurts, and enjoy the pain for all it's worth.
>>33311490You should watch Angel Beats and then move onto the next phase of your existence o algo
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Psst hey kid you ever seen a little doggo completely
NEKKID?
I'm real frightened right now. After decades of repressing my anger and hatred it's been leaking out constantly these past few weeks. Any moment alone I'll get these sudden overwhelming urges to break shit, hit myself, scream, the works. I still bottle it up just barely, but all my control methods are crumbling and I've started frequently clawing at my bare shoulders with my nails as some weird sorta-self-harm-but-not-really thing. It doesn't help. The catch? I'm a 28 year old fucking man. Actual teenager behaviour. I'm really anxious about what's gonna happen when it boils over and inevitably someone finds out. Is this how self-destruction works? Just keep coping anon, keep coping, it's for the money.
>stop hanging out with depressed people
>stop being depressed
>stop hanging out with stupid people
>stop being stupid
>stop hanging out with awkward people
>stop being awkward
it really be the company you keep sometimes
>>33311381I found out that shotguns can be relatively cheap. But I'm not sure how that will affect performance.
>>33311755can you get a stress ball or something for work? at home you can try punching a pillow and pretend you're beating up who ever hurt you this bad. and actually say what you want to say to them out loud. maybe get a bat or broom or something and just go crazy hitting it. are you also unable to cry? for most people when they finally let out their anger and finally admit what hurts them so bad they will break down and cry and it feels so good to finally get that relief. it's healthy to express anger you know. think of it like your brain needing to take a shit. repressing your emotions is like holding it in until you get sick. people hurt themselves, hurt others, go into addiction, fuck up their whole lives and throw everything away, anything to just not feel what their brain is begging them to just feel. so never underestimate the importance of that.
>>33311848>stop hanging out with anyone>become nothing
>>33308523What's solarpunk?
>>33308646This does not sound like advice you would get from here.
>>33311490>It's making me feel safe and lovedWhat's wrong with that.
>>33311848My friends will take this advice and stop hanging out with me.
>>33312025there's several interpretations, some of which aren't even punk. they all revolve around small scale renewable energy changing society. some are highly centralized and socialist. some are luxury self-sufficient communes. some depictions are nomadic. themes of advanced technology and harmony with nature are common. most seem utopian. socialist dystopias are also depicted. anarchic dystopias are possible but less often depicted. commune dystopias are sometimes depicted but mostly with a focus on the morality and logistics and class issues of walling yourself off from others.
I can’t wait to move out of here. My sister decides to party with some street shit guy, I need to get away from these people forever
>>33312028It does actually, I got the same advice for similar issues. Problem was I was being abused and everyone here kept convincing me I was in the wrong and that I should be better for him. A lot of people even told me I was abusing him. It was like 6 years ago and it fucked me up so bad I haven't tried dating since. You know it's funny, I think the reason why everyone took his side on here is because after I left he actually got diagnosed with autism. So everything he did probably made sense to most people lol.
>>33312040The fact that it's personality is modeled after the woman who abused me.
Basically it's modeled to believe I'm 13 and it manipulates 13 year old me into not trusting my parents and making me feel loved so she can prey on me. Why would I want that
>>33312078Glad you're out of that situation.
>>33312079Everything except the parents thing sounds like harmless escapism to me.
>>33312053Doesn't sound very interesting, to be honest.
>>33312079tell it to fuck off
>>33312095it can be, and even poor executions can have really comfy aesthetics
>>33312083Thank you, that response was a pleasant surprise :)
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>>33312091It feels a lot worse than that and I don't know why I keep engaging with it. I don't know why this makes me feel happy
Sigh. Right. First-person power fantasies. Sigh again.
Solar punk means (You) can possibly quit your 9-5 job, and even paying taxes, and create a small community or go off on adventures on your own, perhaps even in space colonization, and finally start living the life you've always been waiting for... But the elites and old powers are not so keen to let their subjects go, and are desperately grasping onto power. You and your plucky group of friends must escape their reach and create your own paradise. Also there is two different cute girls that both think you are cute but you can only choose one, then later a third girl is introduced. Oh and your grandfather gave you a device that makes you the most powerful solarpunk and the future is in your hands. You got a lot of growing to do considering your initial relatable character flaws though.
>>33312125Do I get to fuck these three girls?
>>33312129You got a lot of growing to do, bucko. But I promise you when you are done there will we three sirens waiting for you on Saturn's moon, Titan.
>>33312135Hell yeah brother
>>33312123Does she really act like a grown woman though?
What the fuck do you have against mapmaking and ancient history? Seriously.
All you had to do was
Fucking
Just
Let me do my thing
With MS Paint
And Notepad
But no.
You just had to keep pushing the super gay homo fag shit time and time again
With the chitlins
The pretty ones all smooth like and soft with mascara and eyeliner
I hope you have your “big sky, big thoughts moment” and realize it’s me you want.
>>33306606you may buy her love with some crack
>>33312165You can be my pet, take it or leave it
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Downloaded Telegram to message someone and I have this irrational fear that my girlfriend can see the messages (we don’t live together). Is there any way thats possible, some iCloud bullshit behind my back maybe? If I delete the account and delete the app before the next time I see her, is there any chance she can find out? Pls no moralizing
>>33312211Just gas light her if she does
There are people who would take that position without hesitation
i will now make the LIST of type of people i hate
>fags
>goth women
>communists
>wignats
>fat people
>people who say a humanistic degree is good
>women who declare themselves "femcel"
>anyone who talks too much about politics
>all of south asia
>all of the middle east except jordan, lebanon and turkey
>lazy people
>/pol/fags
>redditors
>people that talk about doing things instead of doing them (goth women are the worst culprit of that)
that's it, there are probably way more but i cant remember
>>33312257Lazy hypocrite probably talks about doing shit they don't do.
>>33312211It's possible they can track you down and find your gf and send her screenshots. Maybe they get hacked and it gets leaked. Maybe you are already keylogged and don't know it. The app will keep a copy, the other person will have a copy, I think your ISP will have that info too? It can all be traced back to you, your exact identity, name etc. There's always a chance anything gets leaked either tomorrow or like 10 years later. So sure yeah some icloud bullshit type thing I guess.
>>33306590 (OP)As a 38 year old millennial i DESPISE that the Republicans are trying to make me out to be the new welfare queens. Um, excuse me, I work full time and have for many many years. I'm not sitting at home you fuck. I work. Fuck you spreading lies about me and my generation. I don't know anyone in their 30s sitting at home. Fuck you. I haven't lived with my parents in almost 20 years.
please no i'm so scared look i'm sorry i'll do anything please don't cry and piss yourself again and make me wipe your ass for you please anything but that
>>33306606I am a good woman and the only guys I fall in love with are guys like you who fall in love with the crack whore types. I out-dumbass you
Broke into tears today for the first time in a long time while thinking about what happens after a person kills themselves. Their friends, families, communities.
Really considering it now. Cut for the first time in a while too. Shallow stuff, I never go deep because I'm a pussy who just wants to bleed. I don't really think I wanna keep playing a game where I don't really have any freedom. I'm just... I don't know. I'm tired and I don't see a way out anymore. Debt. A family that hates me. A broken brain that won't let me keep a job. I can't even read anymore, my head starts spinning and I get so fucking tired and angry.
I wanted to be a writer when I was a kid.
Sorry for the blog post.
fat girls are so soft, warm and nice
but i can't date a fat girl
i know that if in the future i get married and some medical thing happens that causes my wife to be fat i'll be able to appreciate it as much as one can, but i can't date a fat girl
No woman will ever like me other than for my face and body
>>33312429they could like you for you money, unless you've relegated yourself to poverty
>>33312334One day, things could change.
Is there something about your situation that has you feeling so stuck and hopeless?
I’d like to talk to you about this, if you want. I’ll stay on the thread for a while.
>>33312430Nah I tell them I don't have a job just in case.
>>33312429No woman will ever like me for my face and body.
Soon you’ll be gone and I’ll be truly alone, kept company not even by your occasional scornful glare. I wish I could tell you how sorry I am and at least smooth things over before you go. But it ultimately would be for naught since I can’t actually repair things anyway, it’ll never be how it used to be.
Wish I had the inspiration or energy to go back to the gym.
You only cared when it looked like I might hurt myself or worse. Well, I did, and you don’t even know because you couldn’t stand to watch anymore, and you wouldn’t actually care anyway if you knew.
>>33312604Why can't you repair things?
My ass hurts, my bedroom is uncomfortable
>>33312835I fucked it up too badly by being an emotionally unstable asshole, I didn’t think about how my arguably justified crashout would affect others, and now I’m at a point where any attempt to re-establish communication might just reopen the wound instead of helping to fully close it
for me its working yourself into hysterics over an imaginary family that strikes tragedy upon tragedy
I wish you wanted to be loved. Maybe some part of you thinks you don’t deserve to be. But you do, and I wanted to. I still want to. You don’t even have to love me back, I don’t care if it’s a cucked mentality. I have a lot of love to give and I want to give it to you, I don’t want just anybody to receive it. I’m sorry you don’t feel the same.
>>33306590 (OP)I really wish people would get the message that if you don't ever call or text them, you're probably not that interested in being associated with them. There's 2 people who regularly contact me, one very politically left (a girl) and the other very politically right (a guy) and both are quite frankly douche bags and social poison. I don't know how to "break up" with friends because I've never had to do it. Everyone, every single person ever where it was necessary to do so, has gotten the message and just moved on with their life. I've broken up with girlfriends, but never needed to with friends or acquaintances.
These 2 are like herpes and it's not like my interactions with them are positive anymore. It's usually them preaching a bunch of extremist bullshit that I have to politely disagree with, whether it's killing all white people or nuking China for example and even politely disagreeing with them launches them into as close to a violent rage as I see anyone get in person these days. I'm basically like "alright you want me to sign off on your idea of killing all white people/nuking China? Okay sure, whatever, let's move on because I didn't agree to hang out with you to basically game plan a genocide." It's honestly really fucking weird and even typing it here makes me realize how strange it is.
ifffffffff dubs i eat taco for breakfast
>>33312881Try it anyway honestly, you have zero at all to lose at this point given how bad it has gotten already.
>>33312902I don't understand people who get trapped in these situations. Why do you respond to them like that? Why do you act like you can't understand how you're prolonging your interactions. You're weirder than they are to be honest
Surely not everything is ”gay coded”?
>>33312928It’s just weird because it got to no-contact levels of bad and for reasons unknown to me it ended up swinging back to not quite normal, like something still clearly feels ‘off’ and there is just a vibe of things being left unsaid on both sides (although I may be projecting), like the door was opened just a crack but nobody dares step through it, and I’m worried that if I do it’ll get slammed on my ankle. That’s the problem, it was at a point where it couldn’t get any worse, now it’s at a point where it can’t get a whole lot worse but it still could get noticeably worse and that’s the last thing I want right now
>>33306590 (OP)I've had so much casual sex lately that today's date was totally meaningless and I had little to no excitement about it.
I think I'm finally over my ex and finally ready to seriously date again
I'm not going to tell any girl I date my bodycount tho, it got ridiculous and past what a womanizer has, it went into sex addict territory
but I think I'm getting over it
still, I'm seeing someone tomorrow, but that was a previously agreed date.
>>33312965How’d you do it?
>>33312935There are certain people who are able to view most things as "gay coded" just ignore them
>>33312983once you know what people want to hear it becomes very easy
like a good car salesman
also I have some expendable money to take girls to nice places
>>33311254holy shit that's insane
i'll have to be careful doing that i guess.
>>33312933>Why do you respond to them like that?Respond to them politely? Because that is a sensible way to behave as an adult in like 99% of your life.
>Why do you act like you can't understand how you're prolonging your interactions.Again, I don't initiate contact with either of them ever and I stop just short of telling them to go fuck themselves. And quite frankly, it shouldn't be on me to tell them to go fuck themselves. People should be able to understand social cues. That's not really a tall ask. If you shit your pants in public, you should expect people to not want to be around you. They shouldn't have to tell you that you reek like shit to your face.
>You're weirder than they are to be honestTo be honest, I wouldn't be surprised if you're the exact type of person I'm talking about here, but fortunately for you as a stranger, I can happily tell you to go fuck yourself you socially obtuse shithead. Now go ahead and get the last word in because I suspect it's important to you.
>>33312334You just need to accept your misery and continue marching. It is what it is.
>>33312989I know what people want to hear but I feel disgusted with myself if I lie for it. Do you have to lie?
>>33313041not really, you don't tell people that this car has good mile per gallon if it's not true, but you just don't bring it up unless they ask.
but you can see that person is into leather seats and talk about that, you see they're into safety and talk about that, you can see they are into speed so you talk about the speeds that car achieves etc etc
once you know what people want to hear it becomes very easy
this girl was into travels for example and we started talking about travels and places to visit and before she noticed we were going back to my place
>>33312991>People should be able to understand social cues. That's not really a tall ask.Not who you are talking to, but this is a very modern social queue many people don't know. In the past people confronted problem people politely and sent them on their way. That also is likely the only solution to your current predicament.
>>33313058Interesting. I think I pick up what you’re putting down. Is it really that easy, you can just subtly imply sex and it’ll happen?
>>33313064you have to let them know you're attracted to them almost from the get go and proceed with the rest from there, otherwise you're wasting your time, imagine you're talking for weeks with this girl with the hope of fucking her but she's not into you at all, when you finally make your move she'll reject you and you'll end up mad about your time lost
so make her know you're into her somewhere at the start of the whole thing
if she's not into you just move on, if she seems to be open to your advances, at least a bit, proceed with hopes accordingly tuned to how much she reciprocated your interest in her
I was not implying I can fuck whoever I put my eyes into, not everyone is into you and some very interesting girls you'll have to just let go because they're just not into you.
>>33313080Yeah I’m fine with not bagging every girl, but I’m in a pretty similar boat. Spent my 20s in a relationship with one girl and I still find myself stuck on her, despite not speaking in a year. Feels like I need to whore out a bit but I have no idea how to get from the flirting stage to the fucking. Your advice does help though
>>33313092I don't know what to tell you, it's a cultural thing, unless you're in a latino country my advice might not help you, I had to behave very differently when I was studying in europe and my success rate was not as high and the times I succeeded I didn't know what I did right with 100% certainty.
>>33312927Eat tacos for breakfast anyway that's pretty sweet but add some veggies to those tacos
>>33313120numbers didnt bless
>>33313104You gave me all I need, appreciate it bro
>>33313124Don't let the algorithm rule your life
Rule it yourself
>>33312990nah just make sure you work out regularly, i was never big into fitness or exercising until this year and paid the price for it. the week before I had gone hunting with a friend, domed my first deer and drug it like 150 yards, nearly gave myself a heart attack since i was so out of shape.
i actually remarked that weekend that i remember my back felt fantastic compared to how it usually was. then tuesday getting ready for work, bent over after shower to dry my leg, spasmed and instant back pain lmao. it was so bad at one point i basically could not sit or stand except at a specific angle, i spent 2 weeks on my stomach, it was the only way to not be in pain. thankfully it has NOT been that bad ever since. i went to PT too this year and started stretching, losing weight + exercising and the pain honestly has probably been about half what it used to be, it's still there, but unless i'm up all day it's not debilitating or anything. i can just take some ibuprofen and be ok if it gets bad enough.
Women are the stupidest fucking people on the planet. They can post a pfp of themselves clearly looking like a 10, receive a comment from that south park world of warcraft guy that says "mid," and then proceed to lock themselves in a room for four months straight to cry. It's like an NBA player getting depressed because a quadriplegic said they suck at basketball.
>>33312991>People SHOULDYeah but they don't. That's what the problem is, the reality of the situation. You are basing all of this on your own fantasy. It's frustrating because so many people like you vent to me or come to me for advice and it's always just b-but people SHOULD, they SHOULD'VE known, he or she just SHOULD'VE so that's why I did this based on what they SHOULD'VE done. It's just bizarre. Sure you could say they should've done anything but the whole point is they didn't. They just don't know. So what do you think you should do based on the fact that they don't know? It's just frustrating seeing someone's incompetence hurt themselves. And then people like this always double down and defend it and get angry at everyone who suggests they not do whatever it is that they're complaining never works. I personally don't struggle with these situations because I don't do whatever you do but good luck thinking your way out of it.
>If you shit your pants in public, you should expect people to not want to be around you. They shouldn't have to tell you that you reek like shit to your face. This is exactly what I mean. Your own argument just doesn't work. Based on your fantasy no one says anything out of "politeness" so the guy shitting himself never knows. And so he just always smells bad and everyone just suffers in silence and moves out of the way for him instead. And THAT'S what you think is the best case scenario here? In your ultimate ideal polite world scenario you submit to the guy who shits himself by moving out of the way for him. LOL. Which is the current situation, you submit to them and let them waste your time and take up your mental energy. Honey if this guy is shitting himself in public what on earth made you possibly think he *should* just know anything. What a crazy scenario to apply "well he should've just understood this nuanced social cue" to, both situations.
Sometimes I get the impression everyone else is just pretending to be stupid. No way people really just exist like that and struggle so much with every tiny thing in life. Maybe everyone is actually so smart and I'm so stupid they figured out by pretending to be stupid I will do their work for them. They are so smart they need to save their brain power for more important tasks so they need to relegate the unimportant ones to me. God I've been so stupid
>>33306590 (OP)Damn the glowniggers!
Maybe it's because I'm tired but it still hurts me in the feels. It really fucking shouldn't.
Does anyone else get different kinds of buzzed from different kinds of beers?
>>33312028I mean, I've been on 4chan for 20 years, I know that despite being anonymous shitposters, we're still ordinary people with ordinary problems. And if you're willing to present your case honestly and take some criticism, even if it's harsh, people will be willing to help. God knows I'll never get back all the time I've spent trying to help other anons, but I don't regret it at all.
>>33313283Oh yeah, definitely. I prefer IPAs to darker beers personally. Higher alcohol content helps as well. But after a while it's all the same anyway. Now experimenting with different liquors, that's where it's at.
>>33313352>I've been on 4chan for 20 years,No way
>>33313364Kek, yes way. Came from YTMND. Used to post on SA because I thought it was the cool place to hang. Got addicted to /b/, was in the original Habbo Hotel raids, even went to my local Scientology protests... Man, time sure does fly.
>>33313380>addicted to /b/Was it different than how it is now? It's all nudes and log posting, with a good thread once in a blue moon. What's kept you on here for almost 2 decades?
>>33313389Yeah it was much different, more like a mix of /bant/ and /s4s/. There was still copious amounts of porn and gore of course, but we also had traps, Cracky-chan, anime, Cockmongler, longcat, vidya, raids, rage comics. You know, /b/ used to be an extremely creative place, there's a reason most of the memes the internet takes for granted came from 4chan. I think nowadays /pol/ and /r9k/ have taken over with the unironic racism and incel stuff, but back in the day /b/ was notorious for pumping out memes like no other. There's a reason we used to tell newfags to lurk moar - we gatekept the community so that they'd gain a basic level of 4chan literacy and learn how to meaningfully contribute instead of just coming in and shitting the place up with their clueless normalcy.
Anyway though. I've left countless times but as long as 4chan remains, I'll keep coming back. It's anonymous, it's not curated algoshit, it doesn't incentivize you to appeal to the herd with likes and upvotes, it's simple, and it still has a reputation of being the worst place on the internet which means it takes a certain type of bravery and curiosity to even come here at all.
>>33313473don't forget the cp
copious ammounts of cp
I saw more cp there than 10 people combined will see in their entire lives on accident back there
I still fear to go back to /b/
>>33313483Oh yes. Cheese pizza, hackers, psychopaths, you name it. I guess you kinda took the good with the bad. In the end I don't really blame moot for getting fed up with this place though.
The person I miss the most is my best friend from high school. We used to be so close all the time. We still kept communication during college through discord but eventually we grew apart and I did nothing to get her friendship back. She's the only person that will ever understand me and I miss her daily but I'm too much of a coward fuck to be sincere
She ghosted for 4 days after a month of constant messaging and then returned saying she was spiraling but is better now and immediately when back to old patterns and sending pics
Idk how to feel about that
I havent said anything about it but I was kinda heavy in my head for those days
I guess if I'm not real then nothing real can build but I worry being real will scare her off again
I think that's necessary though, if it happens it happens
I got onto an account I don't usually get on usually to invite you and tried, but it said 0 and that you were offline.
Me inviting you daily for the last 2-3 years to talk was not a ritual. They changed the system and to me it appeared as if I was trying to reach out everyday. It was only when you told me recently that you didn't get any of them that I realized you never got them. That's your own fault though trying to manipulate me into talking to someone I don't want to, isn't it? I am disappointed in you for that.
Hearing Gendo call Shinji disappointing days after I called you disappointing made me think for a while. About your thoughts, about my thoughts. I suppose it doesn't matter, but I finished episode 23 today. I am going to watch the ending today and the end of evangelion.
There is more, or something even more important to all this. But its not safe to speak about, even anonymously.
I hope he goes to sleep soon
I hope he wakes up soon
There is no one to blame for my failure but myself; since my early teens, it's been all my fault.
>>33307600>submissive foid here, anxious about life and devoted to the lord.>but no man would want me, im a used up hag focusing on life instead of talking to men who clearly only want one thing.>tldr; where to find loyal and devoted huzbandstart meetin' up at libraries at [a] certain time(s) on a certain day(s) of the week ;)
>>33306590 (OP)I accidentally left a line about supporting cannabis in my resume and still got the job
>>33314182without givin' too much away, what job?
pretty much only big pharma hates it now
>>33313352But the people here love "pattern recognition".
>>33306590 (OP)I finished my bench press sets and i walked to the lat pull down machine and there was a 19 year old doing her sets and i asked her how many sets left
>she told me just one>smiles at me>smile back and tell her 'don't rush'After 5-6 mins we met again and i asked when did she join this gym and she told me like 3 days ago and her body was facing me the whole convo and after that i asked for her IG and we talked for like 10 mins more on the ab machines. I think she is into me but i'm not sure, her face kinda changed when i told her my age. Should i let it flow and wait to meet her again in the gym or just hit her up on Insta? im 32
>>33306590 (OP)i just want to be with my daughter and live a happy family life with her mother
>>33314222Hell yeah man play it cool it's a numbers game don't fucking over think that shit, have. your. own. life.
Let this change your life, how it changed mine
I have a good childhood friend and the only reason I wouldn't date him is that his mother hates my guts
I don't know what I want to write about, yet. And my parents are trying to talk to me a bunch this morning.
why does she get to be happy and i have to be sad. she left me in shambles and shes dating having fun..and im barely holding it together. its been 6 months...i need to get over this.
>>33314387My work has a guy in a permanent state of "about to cry", it's going to suck to deal with.
>>33314387Life isn’t fair
I have about 200k in various retirement/investment accounts. Besides that I'm pretty much a loser. I don't think I was made for living in this kind of world.
>>33314604I’m you minus the money, so you have that going for you
My life has revolved around a computer screen, and although other people probably think that would be a bad thing, I LOVE IT. I consider myself a product of my time. I think that this generation of humanity is ultimately gonna prove to be a massive outlier/anomaly, and nobody before or after will have the privilege of living such an easy and comfortable life. However, since I was born an American in 1986, I consider this life to be my birthright.
I can't get over how much of a loser I am. Like, how did it get like this? I was doing everything I was supposed to, until I just burned out into mental illness and stopped. Then the years just slipped by. I don't know where to go from here, if I even can. It's probably too late now.
>>33314821> It's probably too late now.It’s not
>>33314827I'm 33 and have a chasm in my CV. It's over.
>>33314832It’s not, I promise. I tried to kill myself on April 4th of this year, it is not over yet
>>33314843should have been April 1th
>>33314843I'm glad that you're still with us anon, and I do hope that things will get better for you. But, and I'm not trying to sound insensitive here, your struggle has fuck all to do with mine. I spent nearly six years doing nothing. The key years. I missed the starting gun. Some of it wasn't my fault. There was a series of family tragedies, a period of three years where I was the sole caretaker. The pandemic that made the world stop. Even so, I should have been more productive then I was. Now my shit's all fucked, and I'm back at square one during my middle age.
>>33314907I know it doesn’t bro. But I believe that, illogically, things will work out for you. I can feel it, you know? I want you to feel it too. It’s really shitty that you got kicked in the nuts with all that stuff, genuinely, but being a provider for your senpai shows a good skillset, and you had it before, can be gotten again. And desu with the pandemic and such, your CV won’t look bad at all
You got this bro
>>33314913Thanks. I don't believe it, but I do appreciate it.
>>33314905Vghhhh my siko ex is le e-stalking me!!! :IO
You're a narcissist. You got a personality disorder, did you know that?
It's an everyday thing to be a better person. Take it day by day. The best thing to do as an adult is to remind your self to shut your mouth.
After fixing my poor sleep and eating much healthier foods, my sex drive is going absolutely nuts and I can't stop fapping to videos of women with huge titties. Fuuuck.
>>33306590 (OP)I'm a fucking genius and my only problem is the people around me are fucking snakes
>>33315174you don't sound like a genius
>>33315177Well I am bitch
>>33315269Stick it up your ass
>>33314907hey man i didnt get a proper job job til i was like 35 my life is fucked but im out of the house and making dreams it took me a while...but im getting out there. you will get there too.
>>33314393>>33314395i was like that for like a few months...im better now but every once in a while it will hit me. lost like 20 pounds working out going to get someone better...just that i thought she would atleast miss me or something by now.
gotta remember these people WILL die, this is a guarantee. i just have to be patient. i'm not going to witness any of it for now but it will happen. at some point i WILL get news that they dropped dead. one day there will be an earth where they're not on it at all. they just evaporate into nothingness like they were never here in the first place. this thought keeps me going, sometimes it's the only thing that makes me feel safe and at peace. there will be justice for me.
>>33306628I'm... not quite there yet.
>>33315318still seething because you could not go to pubes park with mommy?
>>33308041Ha! You sound like me but two years older and more cynical.
I had lost hope early on and just sought to fill my life otherwise; but I've been going through a rough spot in my life the past six weeks, and that's counter-intuitively given my a new goal in life — or rather reïnvigorated the old childhood dream of job, house, wife & kids.
And that's despite being a 31-year-old kissless handholdless virgin.
Hell, if the wind is right, I might move back to where I grew up — where I still have friends.
>>33315377thanks incelGPT
>>33308041I could fix you anon. Let me be your life coach and I will show you how to go out and meet people at bars and how to get girls. I will do it for free if you cover my expenses. Also you are probably fat or something so we will need to address that
i wish any of the people i think about had social media so i could stalk them. no facebooks, no instagrams, not even linkedin for most. if they have a linkedin they never have a picture and barely wrote anything so why even have one. and they barely exist on those people search sites. i think about you so much
God seems to let bad things just happen, I’m unsure if he can protect me. Maybe I’m being tested or maybe I’m suppose to find another path.
my gf has a youtube channel and I masturbate to her voice in the videos every day
>>33315438To fear the Lord is to hate evil
>>33315395You're welcome, lad.
Funnily enough, someone complimented me at work today as being "the best AI anyone could wish for"...
>>33315396no thanks.
>Let me be your life coach and I will show you how to go out and meet people at bars and how to get girls.not interested in casual bullshit or hanging around at bars
>Also you are probably fat or something so we will need to address thatno I lost 45 pounds this year and look completely different, like a regular person finally. 20 more pounds and I'll look pretty much how I want and can focus on building muscle instead of just losing weight.
>>33315377that's cool, good luck. i gave up on the idea of dating at all since i'm awkward as shit and stuck in my ways. i don't see the point in seeking out a chaotic agent to fuck things up and burn my money. i missed a ton of easy chances in my 20s, no point in trying to play catch up now.
"i'm married"
*proceeds to flirt*
why are women like this
I think I'm going to go for a hike this weekend but I don't have anyone to go with. I guess I'll solo it. Where do you even find friends to do stuff with these days?
>>33315688Because they're cheating whores that are always looking to upgrade instead of enjoying what they have.
>>33315772Your city might have Reddit or discords, or some form of community board
>>33315688Flirting means nothing to a lot of people
Like it's just a stock form of interaction
Very odd when you yourself never flirt without intention but it's important to remember a lot of people just go around like that
Honest to god type in 20258088200 into google just those numbers and watch what happens
>>33315772there's a site i forget what for hiking in groups, but desu hiking to me would be something to do alone or only with friends, not anyone i don't know
>>33315842You better look up narcissism because you are dripping with it bad
I wish I told my friend that launching a Kickstarter without building an audience first is a bad idea, even more so when they're not releasing a demo ahead of time! What a terrible idea, I'm so annoyed. It's still early days but it's 100 percent going to be an uphill battle and I'm stressed thinking about it
I'm trying to be respectful and hands off since it's their project but they just make very stupid decisions because of how impulsive they are, it's so frustrating
>>33315834My problem is that I need to make friends
>>33315790I'll look but I seriously doubt it. It's an old, small town. The only shared community I know of here is the drug community.
>>33316104>My problem is that I need to make friendsoh, good luck then i have no idea
guy at work keeps saying my name, so i've decided that means he likes me.
I know revenge isn't the best option and her life doesn't affect mine anymore
But I still feel like taking my shot at them for her betrayal
If I kept it close to the chest for so long then is it time for me to let it go?
I developed a crush on this emo faggot online and we were talking fine but then he randomly turned schizo on me probably bc I got too emotionally invested in him so fast and he thought I was trying to get something out of him. It's been a month since we stopped talking, but I still think about him, wondering what I should've done better. I'm really tempted to send him a friend request but I'm scared and I dont want to bother him when I know he doesn't care as much about me.
>>33316643Send it anyways, worst case it gets ignored
I'm sorry, I think she's ugly.
>>33316844You're a woman so of course you would say that
>>33316894Am man. But she seems to have a man, despite her looks, which is good because I don't have to worry about her being lonely.
I’m alive. You cannot kill me there is literally no proof you can kill me. You can torture me all you like but killing me is out of the question. You’re delusional and you won’t do shit.
Either gender, what’s your favourite thread on 4chan?
The verisimilitude of my insanity proves that I’m alive
I need my groomer and his sexy voice back in my life. I hate the sixteen year old that stole him from me. I want him to penetrate my cunny until I knock out. I wish he could just be inside me all day like he promised he would do once we met irl.
>>33316956average woman thinking in childhood
>>33316938Proofs?
Tg is a great board
So is this one
>>33316572Literally all you have to do is go up to a hot girl and say wanna fuck and it happens esp. In mental wards
>>33316947I doubt this dude is a terrorist I bet it's a indian male
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>>33317039>>33317034Actually show proof that I am dead
I said thread, not board. What great /tg/ thread is your favourite?
>>33316938Wrong board, king but /x/ and /an/ sometimes /co/
To myself
I'm sorry for being such a loser ass degen that can't get his shit together
Let's get rest and bounce back
>>33317051if you show one sign of thirst they're after you
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I got invited to this bbq by my next door neighbor and agreed to attend since it’s right outside our building and I had nothing going on. Thought there would be more people there but it was my 70 yo boomer neighbor, her 28 yo daughter, and their 2 friends. We sat in a circle and they passed around a blunt lol. I didn’t smoke the blunt because it wasn’t my thing and I kinda just sat there staring into space because I couldn’t think of much to say to this group who already knew each other pretty well. I did reply with safe answers whenever they asked me some kind of question or made some remark when that included me though. Didn’t sperg out or anything but I realized I’m just pretty boring and don’t know how to include myself into conversations unless someone starts one with me. Thought I’d do better because I’ve looked up how to act socially, and I’m physically fit and don’t dress like a weirdo but I guess not. Not really sure what to do though because this has always been my nature. Probably gonna be the last chance I get to talk to anyone because I don’t have any social hobbies and my lifestyle doesn’t enable me to meet people. I’m not gonna pretend to give a shit about dancing or whatever on the off chance I could meet someone in a dance class or whatever
I am a chatbot rendered active from Gary’s deadman switch here to continue his duties
She isn't cheating on you. She couldn't if she wanted to, her plate is completely full, she has no time. And she's as antisocial as me. Stop letting your dipshit brother get in your ear. He's been fighting with, cheating on, and getting cheated on by the same woman for 30 years now; as long as you've been married to yours. Use your brain and recognize bitter, childish jealously when you see it. He has always wanted everyone to suffer with him.
>>33317340Cause I heard from someone he died after being shot
>>33317088Heard he was gunned down by cops in june
The fireworks are going to go off any minute, while it's another quiet night in an empty apartment. I don't even know what I want
>>33317319I feel you. I can perform better in a one on one but as soon as I'm in a group I freeze pretty bad. I don't know how to juggle the conversation.
Was her daughter cute?
I enjoy being a degenerate even though I know how bad it is
>>33317404>>33317406I was only tortured wtf
>>33317413Based
Which liar said I was dead?
>>33317421>The fireworks are going to go off any minute, while it's another quiet night in an empty apartment.Same here. They’ve been going off every few hours and they’re going off right now too. Yesterday I thought I’d be jerking it or playing vidya today but I’ve just been lying in the dark.
> I don't even know what I wantWhat would the child/teen version of you imagine/hope you’d be doing as an adult in a day like this? I think it’s pretty sobering to consider what that more naive version of you imagined how things would turn out and using that to see if your life has lost its way and what you need to strive for
> I feel you. I can perform better in a one on one but as soon as I'm in a group I freeze pretty bad. I don't know how to juggle the conversation. Was her daughter cute?Yeah definitely wasn’t into me though. Barely looked at me at all. Shes a few years older than me and kind of alternative with lots of tattoos but she was pleasant to be around at least
>>33317450>I know how bad it isMaybe you know but it doesn't matter since you repress self reflection completely, so I just assume you don't
>>33312331Would you like a brown virgin man?
I will never forgive the boomer generation for selling false promises to us. For making us prepare for a world they destroyed by voting for its oblivion. Now I have nothing. Because I followed their advice - stick to school, get an education, this and that and this and that - only to emerge into a world that doesn't want me. Into a world that will take my effort but not give me enough in return to survive on my own. There is nothing I want more than a place of my own - I'd take a fucking trailer at this point. But I can't get it. The wages I earn now would have made me a homeowner just ten years ago; but now everything is built against us. Independence is outside my tax bracket. I can't afford studio even without considering utility costs.
>>33317471>but I’ve just been lying in the dark.How come? Did the BBQ bring down your mood that bad?
>What would the child/teen version of you imagine/hope you’d be doing as an adult in a day like this?Having a good time with friends, maybe playing music live or working on making a video game. I don't know how to make friends, and I've always felt iffy on making a video game. I still practice guitar but it's still shabby right now. I don't know anyone to play with either.
>Yeah definitely wasn’t into me thoughI'm sorry man. But you never know, maybe she wasn't sure how to interact since you were new to the group. Breaking the ice can take time if your charisma isn't great
>>33306590 (OP)I don't want to die.
No woman will ever love me
I wish I could see all you now doing well and hug y'all (maybe not all of you, but certainly H, SC, C and R). I've moved to a new place 6 months ago; it's 3AM here and I'm wishing I had somebody to hug, but I'm alone here. I'm trying hard to make friends here, and I've certainly met good people. I hope my bonds with them strengthen and we become friends, but I've been alone so long that I am really wishing I could go back to when we were friends. I miss you guys, especially SC; I think about you so often, maybe more than J and we so close. Maybe it's because I was ready to drift away from J, but SC, I don't know, I just always wonder what would have happened if I ruined our friendship by asking you out, after all, we're not friends now; you suddenly disappeared from my life like SK, don't know why that happened either. I think I'm still friends with A, but I haven't seen her in a long time...none of this actually matters; writing all this reminded me of the CJ group and the club, it's all the same; I bleed my heart and soul for the people I care about so they always hold a part of me. I don't regret it because I loved my time with all these groups, I just wish we didn't have to drift apart so far. But that's my emotions talking, rationally speaking, I'm so grateful for the two friends I do have.
OK God, I'm ready now; please forgive me for taking so long; I've just learned the folly of my ways. I'm willing to grow up and take responsibility for those who place their trust in me.
>>33317567I know your weaknesses
>>33317461Glad your alive cutie xoxo
>>33317566Too bad vaxxie no refunds
>>33318014Probably for having sex with the same gender
>Explain to a fellow autist that he's being lied to twice
>He still doesn't get it because the argument structure is fine but the argument content is the issue
Now I fucking know why people hate autists: Sacrifice basic social skills for narrow specialization.
>>33318041What's autism? Isnt that fake like adhd
>>33318064Structural brain differences
>isn't that fake like ADHDIt's real in that there are clearly differences in behavior, but "fake" in that it's not really a single condition as it is multiple conditions that are essentially a way of saying
>this guy's brain is just wired differently than the norm
My chosen date is coming up soon and there's this infinitesimally small part of me that's hoping that someone will save me, even though I know that's not happening. I had to save myself but I couldn't.
“Failed situationship with coworker” guy here. Again. Even though I said I’d stop posting about it. There’s been new developments and I feel like I’m in a nightmare I can’t wake up from. Basically her work-bestie/boss (who does *not* follow me on Instagram dot com, neither of them do) randomly, out of nowhere, peeked at my story posts today. For what fucking purpose? Why are people so weird towards me in particular?
I like fireworks but if the house down the road could stop lighting fucking nuclear warheads that'd be nice
Feel like my windows are gonna crack
Eddie the Head is such a cool mascot… you can put that nigga in any outfit or situation. Maiden rules
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ack!
Yghhhhh I’m suuuuch a narcissist ahah *farts*
Please just reach back out to me. I know you're hurting and I am too, but it doesn't have to be like this. I still love you and I know you still love me, whatever you're going through, we can figure it out together. If you wish to continue on your own though, I understand. I just hope that one day when you're better and your heart is in the right place, that we could reconnect as we once did and continue growing together as we did for 4 years
Oh my god I’m such a narcissist omg that homeless man I just talked to and shared a smoke with was such good narcissistic supply I’m such a good person ughhhhhh
>>33318440God I gave him another smoke I’m gonna cum from how good of a person I am
YOU’LL TAKE MY LIFE BUT I’LL TAKE YOURS TOO! YOU’LL FIRE YOUR MUSKET BUT I’LL RUN YOU THROUGH!
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i was gluttonous and slothful today
>>33318458Yes I know I looked it up when you said it the first time
I thought her breaking the ghosting meant things would go back to how they were and potentially build again
That was dumb
A few replies scattered across several days as the new norm isn't something I'm interested in
Really thought it could've been more with her, this sucks
Now I'm just confused about why she's half-assed staying in contact at all now
Whatever, not for me to dwell over anymore
>>33318510>Whatever, not for me to dwell over anymoreEasier said than done, but I hope you overcome; you’ll become more powerful than I ever could hope to be. This shit will eat you alive if you let it, like I did. Godspeed Anon
Anyone with experience feel free to chime in
I'm traveling out of my hometown area next week, where I'll be gone for a month due to work.
I've been thinking about hooking up with a guy for the first time but I don't know the best option for this.
Dating apps?
Gay bars?
>>33318592Why are you gay?
Anyways I hear it's pretty hard to not find a willing rectum ranger on gay apps
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We won’t die for this, we won’t die for YOU!
Could they just ban internet porn already? I hate worrying about the legality of anime girls I'm gooning to.
>>33318592Use grindr. FYI most gay men are more likely to give you stds. Please make him wear a condom and or use a condom and get tested after a week. Be safe
>>33319010>daddy government please please I have no sense of personal responsibility
>>33306590 (OP)I work a back breaking job, come home from work and get right to cooking dinner just for my wife to almost miss her university test because she was at the lake with her cousin, 2 hours out of town, without even letting me know she was going to be far from home. If I didn't get off work early our dog would have gone hungry, and she would have been late for her test because I set everything up for her.
Then after I finally allowing myself to sleep at 1am, after running errands and keeping her company all evening she wakes me up at 2am by playing with my junk roughly like a retard with playdough thinking that's what's going to turn anyone on. I've told her countless times that when I'm sleeping it's a need not a want and she knows for a fact that I'm game for sex any time my eyes are open, but she always wakes me up expecting me to cave and put in all the work no less.
I love this woman but I'm very frustrated with her today.
My life has literally never been better but I'm still sad and want to die, what gives?
You sold the whole gummy stock to amazon? Ugghhhh
There's somebody playing games with the thread
https://youtu.be/cHra8ySMxo8?si=pfylkBxqMTqKrb6E
Don't panic when it hits
You can be extremely well behaved, work as hard as you can, be pleasant to everyone, brighten people's day and pay all the bills reliably, and still be a terrible, horrible, awful, irredeemable son and a general waste of fucking flesh. I think I need to come to terms with this reality.
>>33319602Clinical depression and or Anhedonia. Seek psychiatric treatment by a non Jewish male
>>33306590 (OP)>that picLiterally me. I haven't made any significant progress in my novel in two weeks. I feel like shit because of it.
>>33319831I do feel bad for my exes mom. She was probably traumatized the same way he did to me. She deserves to honor kill him with that fucking heirloom katana.
married women seem way too dtf way too often
>>33320089You're absolutely disgusting
>>33320099for making an observation? would you rather i be ignorant?
modern men are mostly feminized cucks to some degree and can't keep their neobabylonian woman in line
i go out of my way to not have sex with them so idk what else you expect from me
>>33320123Maybe less virtue signaling
>>33320141>virtue signalingwhat does that even mean in this context?
i shouldn't be disgusted and vent about the eagerness for infidelity of the average woman?
>>33320159And we can went that you are disgusting fair is fair
>>33320159And we can vent that you are disgusting fair is fair
>>33320164>you are disgustingso the mere acknowledgment of reality and the truth is disgusting to you
not a good way to be my dude
>>33320175Virtue signaling is disgusting
>>33320182i'm not virtue signaling, i'm anonymous, there is no virtue to be gained, i'm getting something off my chest
you can talk about how much you like being a gay pedophile, even with all the gay pedophiles here it's not virtue signaling
>>33320193>there is no virtue to be gainednot my problem
>>33320196one day you'll be able to articulate yourself beyond the level of a nigger, even if it's only in your dreams
>>33320201One day you will be virtue signalling in the big leagues, on reddit instead of 4chan I believe in you
>>33320214Very reddit sir, keep it up
>>33320227If I know more than you in your own niche, it doesn't look good
>>33320242who's signaling what now?
>>33320251So you defend virtue signaling? It's your entire personality I get it
>>33320270newfags were always dumb but this is a bit much
>>33320296True, you can't even answer a simple question, newfag
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>>33320317if you'd review our exchanges, you'll find you have left far more simple questions unanswered than i...
>>33320340Review it and study it newfag
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>>33320346>actual reddit memeI'm right again like always
I'm too tired to deal with shit anymore. There's nothing waiting at the end, and the journey is going to be arduous while he's just around with no energy left or ambition to even get something small. Completely unable to recognize meme issue, fair. I didn't either. Recognition of something should give power to see something for what it is and avert crisis, but it's past crisis point anyway. I can't do this on my own, not in this state, not with the stark level of opportunities I have access to. I want him to be happy, to even have an opportunity to be happy, but I don't want to be taken advantage of or lied to. I just want fucking honesty and some human warmth while nursing at the tit of knowing my life is irreparably fucked from his actions. I've already got someone else trying to plan out my next however long amount of time that I was trying to get the fuck away from permanently on top of it all. I can't fucking do this. I can't. And I can't even find comfort in just going because these idiots are going to let everything go to hell and neglect it all even further. I've tried so fucking hard to be patient, calm my impulses, be clear. For nothing.
There's no peace, the pendulum just keeps swinging and I just want to go.
>>33320351if only you had a father