I wanna cheat on my bf. It pains me, I wish I didn’t have these impulses. I pride myself on being as loyal as a dog, however, whenever I get this weird feeling he doesn’t love me, my brain IMMEDIATELY wants to GTFO and fuck someone else so I can have a back-up. My heart does not want to be broken again, it wants to flee and prevent damage.

The only thing stopping me from doing this is thinking about him and how special he is to me.
You see, I’m incredibly autistic (diagnosed), and normie men disgusts me, I hate them. It was always my dream to get a slightly edgy 4chan bf.
I don’t go outside, I have no human contact except online people and him. In the past, whenever I wanted to feel human connection I would whore myself out on the internet.

However, ever since he’s been taking these SSRI’s, he’s not himself anymore. He’s become a boring safe normie. But more importantly, his love for me has muted. He isn’t horny anymore, doesn’t compliment me, doesn’t wanna fuck. I feel entirely worthless while I KNOW that I’m very pretty & desired. I want nothing more than to sit this out, wait while he’s off that poison and resume our love. But for what it’s worth, I want to cheat. I want to cheat because my brain wants to be safe

What do?

Murder-Suicide. Next question.

>>33307860 (OP)
Not cheat, how is making everyone think you are a whore and ruining your relationship making you "safe." It's making you unsafe.

>>33307860 (OP)
I won't read cheaters' threads.

>>33307888
That way I can still feel some facsimile of love.
>>33307943
Haven’t cheated yet

>>33307970
You're considering it. You're a fucking cheater. You''re for the fucking streets bitch.

>>33307860 (OP)
If you're going to cheat, just break up with him, dumb bitch

>>33307860 (OP)
Arre, behen, dil ka dard samajh. You love that 4chan boy, your dream guy, but SSRI medicine makes him boring, na? No love, no romance, no compliments. You feel bad, useless, but you're beautiful, everyone knows. Cheating tempts for feeling safe, but heart says stay loyal. Tough with autism too.
Don’t cheat, okay? Short fun, then pain. He's special, fight for him. Medicine's not his fault. Talk, tell him, "I feel alone, I need love." Maybe he doesn’t know your hurt. Truth can help, maybe doctor changes medicine.
No bad stuff online, behen. Old ways, no more. Try new, talk to online friends, do hobbies, join autistic groups. Stay busy, no cheating thoughts.
Waiting for SSRI to stop is hard, but you’re strong. Ask him what he feels. If he doesn’t listen, think, is this relationship right? No running, no cheating now. You’re loyal, like a dog, haan? That’s your power.
Too hard? Talk to therapist who gets autism.

>>33307860 (OP)
You being stupid acting like a monkey. Every time you act by emotions/impulses, your'e no more than a animal at this time. You will not be safer cheating and the guy who you will cheat with will not value you later, no man respect a woman who is cheating her partner with him. Stop being stupid and talk to your boyfriend about it. if he doesn't change, end this relationship and find another one. Cheating is stupid and not safe at all

>>33307943
Rare "I won't read" guy W

Hmm you are asking for external validation for your decisions. Even when they are important ones about your personal relationships, which are especially important. Maybe if you had asked for help in how NOT to cheat, that would make sense. But you're asking people to tell you whether or not to cheat which means you are not really capable of making big life decisions yourself. I think you are a lost cause anyway, so you might as well cheat. Preferably with me.

>>33307860 (OP)
Are these just random intrusive thoughts?
Or is there a guy you have your mind on?

>>33307860 (OP)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lobotomy
Special treatment for U <3 :333333

>>33307860 (OP)
>It was always my dream to get a slightly edgy 4chan bf.
Nice bait.

Honestly, the way this is written makes me think you might have moral OCD. Google it, it seems to hit the nail on the head. You can treat OCD with meditation and therapy. Best of luck.

>>33307860 (OP)
gay thread excellent pic
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