>be me
>haven’t been in a relationship in 5 years go on vacation to escape the rut
>decide to hit a club, just for fun
>meet this insanely hot girl
>she works there — kind of like a bar girl / lap dance girl
>lets you touch, flirts, dances on you, but no sex
>not a full prostitute, just built to make lonely guys feel something
>end up spending way too much money on her
>she laughs at my jokes, makes me feel seen
>for the first time in years I feel wanted
>next day I can’t stop thinking about her
>crave that fake intimacy
>go back to the club again like an addict
>she acts happy to see me, more touchy this time
>feel even more hooked
>spend even more money like a complete degen
>convince myself there’s something real behind her eyes
>next morning I have to fly back
>now I’m home, in my room, cold reality
>but I still feel her in my head every song, every thought, everything brings her back
>know she was just doing her job
>know it was all fake
>but it felt real
>and now I feel more alone than I did before
>someone tell me she wasn’t real
>someone tell me I’m not going crazy
>halp

pic related, she took it herself

>>33327483 (OP)
Silly little paypig, she's just manipulaitng you by pulling your emotional strings in just the right way to empty your wallet. Right now she's cleanign Chad's spunk off her face and they're both laughing about you, lol.

>>33327483 (OP)
What the fuck is that a picture of?

>>33327483 (OP)
Now that you've ignited (or reignited) your taste for it, go out in search of the real thing. Let this, as pathetic as it may have been, be the motivator to find a real girlfriend

>>33327724
My hand on her thighs

>>33327604
That's not the point. I can afford it.
I just want advice on how to handle these emotions!

>>33327725
Thank you, I think that's a good way to put it. Definitely reignited and feel more motivated to get back into a relationship!

>>33327787
Just your balls hijacking your brain, nature's trick to get mammals to reproduce

>>33327787
It's an addiction you can quit cold turkey, just delete the pics and don't go to see her again.

>>33327787
>>33327994
Time will heal, just keep her off your world. She can't give you anything you truly want anyway

>>33327483 (OP)
After a scientific study, someone phrased it like this:
"The opposite of addiction is not abstinence. The opposite of addiction is connection."

That's what you're seeking. Connection.
There's countless ways to feel it in ways that are more real.
Even going out on a date, enjoying your time together, but it not working out by the end can give you a bit of it. Two people trying to find connections. That's the element that most people don't realize as they seek connection. The other person is too. Even if they're rejecting you, they're still just a lonely individual seeking a connection they lack.

So go out build positive connections with others. In every way.
Be one of a barista's favorite customers. Be a good friend to acquaintances. Meet new people and cherish the good ones.
Seek out women you might connect with and do your best to enjoy trying to connect.

>>33327483 (OP)
fuck ur hand is hot af

>>33327483 (OP)
What kind of rat ass club were you at where the go go dancers don't even wax or shave their legs?
I'd turn away a girl who was fucking me for free with that fur.

>>33328030
Yes, i think this is what I am missing from my life. I am definitely gonna try and be more social and definitely try to get back into a relationship!

>>33327798
Yup maybe it's time I got back to dating. I haven't been wanting to jerk off since I got back from the vacation. I used to jerk off like once a day minimum, but now not porn does not turn me on!

Mf did she hard reset me?

>>33328140
thought I was going insane with how nobody was acknowledging it, this

>>33328140
oh come on! She was completely shaved, it's just my camera's flash that seems to pick up a lot of the details. You wouldn't be able to see it in person even if you looked for it.

>crave that fake intimacy
Just play some visual novels, they create better emotions and are cheaper.
>>33328030
>That's what you're seeking. Connection.
>There's countless ways to feel it in ways that are more real.
Also this

>>33328140
My guess is that OP was too drunk that didn't notice the hair in the club darkness. You can see it in the pic only because of the flash.

>>33327998
I agree, thank you!