>>33336646 (OP)Botched suicides will leave you retarded, crippled, or otherwise a blight on your relatives. Immediately liquidate all assets and go to Mexico and hit on 4'9 latinas that were malnourished as children. Your reasons for wanting to commit sudoku will shift to getting away from latina insanity after a year or two of crazy sex, instead of whatever you have going on now.
Suicidal ideation is a license to whatever you have been wanting to do with zero regard for consequences. If it doesn't work out and you still hate life, at least you crossed some bucket list items off.