Background: I'm a 25m indian American from the US and grew up in the bay area, as you can probably tell from this site I am also most likely mentally ill, I was also bullied as a kid due to being extremely short (5'6) and ended up a blackpill loser for my college years. I eventually stopped being a faggot during covid and just improved myself and met my current girlfriend through japanese class, she is a 28f from Germany (though ethnically vietnamese). We have been dating for the past 4 years, and last year moved to japan together. I currently take care of her here as I didn't want her to due anything with her previous job (it was with chemistry and working with chemicals) and I want her to pursue her dream of being a musician here (she likes japanese music). Also I think it's my job to take care of her if I want her to be the future mother of my kids. I make enough money that everyone here would call me a larp anyway (although I am mentally a poorfag due to indian parent brainwashing). Anyway I am thinking of marrying her soon but a couple things hold me back:
1. I still have retarded blackpill beliefs that severely hinder my ability to communicate and trust her
2. She is pretty different than me obviously, I have le epic based conservative/schizo views while she is a generally blase liberal type (also standard europoor beliefs etc)
3. She is the angry one during arguments and yells and screams while I just don't say anything, probably because this is how to deal with my conflict when my dad with anger issues screamed for everything, but it makes me not feel like I can trust her even though it's just her personality style

>>33343201 (OP)
. I sometimes feel like because of our differences she should find someone else (e.g. I tell her the holocaust is a lie and as someone who is german she starts bawling and telling me I'm insane etc, also global warming is fake and she gets upset and it ruins our entire day, she also is like trump bad etc when i just think hes a jewish puppet)
5. She has ocd and it generally affects my life and I am somewhat annoyed by having to make sure things are clean and not sit at places or touch stuff
6. It's my first relationship and idk jackshit due to having no father figure and being raised by retards on the internet
Aside from these hiccups she is perfectly nice, kind,definitely loves me as she cooks and cleans etc but I have no idea if I'm making the right choice as the fights are pretty bad although we make up quickly, so I would like advice
When incels post in this thread just reply with "a 70iq 5'4 jeet got laid and you didn't LMAO kys"

>>33343209
how do you figure from cooking and cleaning that she loves you

>>33343212
I generally just mean she is supportive and helps me with things around the house and also does errands in addition to managing some of the budget/expense/planning stuff, also when she is not enraged she is generally pretty loving. Again I have no experience with this shit but afaict it seems to be the case
I also am generally an annoying condescending piece of shit so when she makes a mistake I sometimes think she is stupid and incompetent and I should be kinder to her

>>33343201 (OP)
Why do you have to get married?
Marriage is a bad proposition for men nowadays.
Men take all of the risk and none of the benefits.
Watch some Terrence Popp Popp Culture on marriage.
Aaron Clarey is good too.
Ask yourself: What's in it for me?

>>33343226
I want kids and I'm not wasting her time
I know every blackpill/redpill garbage thing out there, post your shitty infographic/Eurasian tiger comic and gtfo

>>33343201 (OP)
Return to shitland and marry one of your cousins. You'll have to, eventually, anyway, once ZOG collapses and isn't there to enforce "tolerance" on us. Problem solved.

>>33343377
a 70iq 5'4 jeet makes 6 figs and you dont LMAO kys

>>33343209
>I sometimes feel like because of our differences she should find someone else (e.g. I tell her the holocaust is a lie and as someone who is german she starts bawling and telling me I'm insane etc, also global warming is fake and she gets upset and it ruins our entire day, she also is like trump bad etc when i just think hes a jewish puppet)
I think she should find ANYONE else, preferably someone sane.

>>33343684
Post nose