I have tremendous difficulty accepting that something I did got my little sister murdered.
I taught her all about gun safety. Taught her to respect people. Taught her that there’s something good in everyone. That you just need to put yourself in their shoes.
At the gun range she made a mistake and dragged the barrel across a crowd, and I flipped out on her. She had never done something that retarded before in her life. It made her cry with rage.
Well, a few years ago, but soon after that event she got robbed and hesitated pulling the trigger. It got her killed. They murdered her. Is it my fault? Did me admonishing her get her smoked?
Guilt. That’s the word I’m thinking. It makes me sick to my stomach, man. I don’t know what to think here.

>That you just need to put yourself in their shoes.
did you put yourself in the shoes of your sister back then, when you flipped on her, before she got killed?
>It made her cry with rage.
did you apologise afterwards to her and hopefully hugged her?
>she got robbed and hesitated pulling the trigger
how would you know if she hesitated?
>They murdered her. Is it my fault?
no, they murdered her. it is their fault.
>Did me admonishing her get her smoked?
ultimatively, everybody is responsible for their own actions. you for yours and she for hers.

there really isnt anything to think here anon. it is sad yes, but you should wrap up the past and live/move on. do it for your sister.
(imagine it was the other way around, you got killed and your sister made this thread, i would tell her the same stuff and she prob would agree to move on, because it would be what her brother wanted her to do) not to wallow in self pity and be miserable, even throw their life away.
maybe try to pray to God a little, He normally always listens.

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>did u apologize
No. I went way too hard on her.
>maybe you did kill her
Gosh. It’s soooo bad. It makes me feel weird. Might be that I really got someone killed like that for real. Her legacy is permanently attached to that.
>she would want me to move on
I think that’s exactly right. She would want me to be happy. Probably she would be super stoked that I’m asking 4chan about her. I will never stop, I think.

They caught the killers. I’ve been thinking that since she was so important to my life I should be there for every step of the case. Even mundane stuff. I don’t actually have to be, you know. Let me know what ya think guys.

gj