Having someone who wants to be with you all the time, who is EXCITED about being with you, wants to feel your touch and be intimate with you, loves you the way you are, feels happiness when she sees you, etc.

I cannot fathom what it would be like. I'm a 29yo kissless handholdless virgin and It is all foreign to me. Otherwordly, something I'll never have. I cannot even grasp it, on a metaphysical level even. In 30 years no woman has ever shown interest in me.

I will never get a gf.

If you know you're never getting a gf, why are you so fixated on it? I mean, I suffer from the same as you. I'm also a ">tfw no gf" guy. Why can't we just move on to a more productive activicty than daydreaming about having a 10/10 gf?

>>33355070
because I'm lonely and due to loneliness I became fixated on the idea of having someone that values me and cares about me

I once had a girl hug me (because she saw me as a good partner) and it was easily the best thing i've felt in my whole life

>>33355091
What actions are you taking on order to maxx your chances of getting a gf? Do you think you'll become empty once you finally get one?

>>33355003 (OP)
>Having someone who wants to be with you all the time, who is EXCITED about being with you, wants to feel your touch and be intimate with you, loves you the way you are, feels happiness when she sees you, etc.
That's not what it's like all the time. Particularly with some married couples, I've never seen males who have looked more cucked in my life.

>>33355096
I have a career I'm focusing on. I dress well, change my appearance twice, clean shave every two days. I asked many women out: some as friends, some as possible gfs. Every time they say No. I tried going to church group (for 5 years, where I've been rejected by almost every member), the gym, at three different unis, at work, etc. I'm just unlikeable and unattractive. There is no other way to spin it.

I've followed the self improve guide. I got fit (now I've gained 12 kilos due to depression), focused on faith, started to read, etc. I'm still uninteresting and people find me even repulsive.

I'm a diagnosed schizoid (schizoid personality disorder) and have been diagnosed with paranoid intrusive thoughts.

>>33355003 (OP)

>>33355070
This is good advice. Besides, ur more likely to get a girl if you're not so focused on it. You won't be content even with someone else, if you don't learn to be comfortable in your own skin first.

never understood why people cared so much about having friends or a girlfriend beyond sex. literally what is fun about some girl sitting next to you forcing you to talk to her or take her out. annoying you 24/7 invading your private space. and then theres a chance that when u cum in her she gets pregnant and refused to get an abortion even though u work for minimum wage and now you’re atuck paying for her and the baby for 18 years and likely beyond the eay this economy is going. constantly in her presence constantly with someone. you will never see privacy again if u have a long term relationship and if you have kids? You will never have freedom again. i get wanting sex and cuddles. but thats it. nothing else about a relationship is in anyway appealing to me.

Hi anon. I'm turning 33 soon and I'm the exact same way. Idk what to tell you, but you're not alone.
I don't even fantasize about having a girlfriend because I have no idea what it would be like and I can't imagine that anyone would ever want to be with me.
I feel like I came out of the factory wrong. I'm just not compatible with the rest of humanity.

>>33355003 (OP)
You're 29 and I get the impression you are sooo ready to simp like an adolescent if given the chance which is fucken pathetic.
I'm 31 and I've never had a relationship, but at least 2 are because I refused to start one, essentially because of what this implies >>33355101 which is that the idea of a GF/wife is infinitely better than the reality of it. You should know exactly what type of person you want and will be compatible with your lifestyle - keeping in mind the compromises you'll have to make. For me a prenup is non-negotiable and 1 girl I stopped seeing after like the 5th or so date because the topic came up and she thought prenups were a patriarchal way to keep women imprisoned in a relationship or some dumb shit lol.
I feel the loneliness too, but I will never in a million years ruin my comfort just to get my dick wet or be a w*man's toy.
Just put yourself out there. Its risky (I accidentally asked a married girl out which was embarrassing) but if you don't seek you won't find.
What you think you're missing out on is a fantasy- not reality. There's a reason so many relationships and marriages fail nowadays...

>>33355003 (OP)
>Having someone who wants to be with you all the time, who is EXCITED about being with you, wants to feel your touch and be intimate with you, loves you the way you are, feels happiness when she sees you, etc.
It's sort of like yout mother, except that you get to fuck her.

>>33355003 (OP)
>who is EXCITED about being with you
Only happens to bluepilled, extroverted, and happy-go-lucky normies. If you are even slightly redpilled, never mind actually blackpilled, about the world this won't happen to you. There is nothing more revolting to a woman than the truth, they do not want to heart anything even close to the truth about anything in general. So when you Chuds open your mouth about the true nature of reality and this world, the pussy dries up and she starts to get very UNEXCITED about you.
Women are agents of the matrix and if you disturb their matrix with your redpills, blackpills and other painful truths, they will not only reject you obviously but they want to see you dead and suffering.

Gotta level up your stats bro. Even my friend who spends most of his time at home uses a treadmill everyday because of that.

>>33355003 (OP)
>I will never get a gf
This is your problem. Your own beliefs quite literally create your reality. See yourself as the quantum probability wave you are. Your body is an arrangement of atoms of 99% empty space, the same atoms that were around when the universe was exalted into being.

Consider meditation or dabble in psychedelics to let go of limiting beliefs. You are an eternal soul anon, you write the script to your life.

>>33355003 (OP)
>I will never get a gf.
Not with that attitude.

>>33355003 (OP)
I won't read vent threads on an advice board.

>>33356551
>>33356539
You guys don't seem to understand that the attitude is a result of their circumstance up to this point
He didn't start as a defeatist but at some point you gotta face the truth