My greatest weakness is that I look at others and their paths in life and think 'why didn't I do that?'. I'll look at a famous Hollywood director and think "why didn't I try filming my own movies?"
An videogame designer and think "why didn't I push myself to learn to code?"
I've even looked at Jeffrey fucking Epstein and thought "What should I do to be what he was" (Minus the pedo shit).

I barely have any direction in life to the point where I don't know where my passions lie anymore. I also find myself lacking the motivation to explore. It's like that freshly out of highschool self with aspirations and dreams died right after covid hit and I haven't been the same since. Now all I do is look at the success of others and jump to "why haven't I done what they have done?"

My immediate plan is to first catch up with most other people in life; get a drivers license, build up discipline, fix my mental state of mind. I just feel sad that its taken me this long to finally give myself the wakeup call to change

>>33373377 (OP)
>My immediate plan is to first catch up with most other people in life
That is not a plan. The creation of a long-term plan is a top-down operation. For career planning and life planning I recommend that you read:
Succeeding by John T. Reid
What Color is Your Parachute? by Bolles

If, as it seems, you are distracted by minutia, and idle daydreaming then you might benefit from 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Covey.

>>33373377 (OP)
That's not weakness. Weakness is letting it destroy you instead of motivate you to get something for yourself. You have needs, you have goals. "Purpose" is something that you find along the way. Motivation is the conduit to get there.

>>33373377 (OP)
video game designers are usually not programmers though
they are more like system analysts