Anonymous
7/17/2025, 2:55:43 PM No.33376869
okay been seeing this guy for like four years.
super incompatible but i have BPD so my ass was dedicated. lot of back and forth cheating after he cheated on me while i was on a psych ward, yeah? i had a bender on /b a while back which i think really screwed w him, lexapro is a bitch.
i’d been doing better on my health, journaling, art, whatever cope i needed. he helped me with everything, took me to the ocean, always tried his best to comfort me when he thought i was a psychotic bitch. and usually only used me for whatever fetish he wanted to pursue.
but he had a problem with loving femboys, and t-girls, i even went nonbinary for a while to be more like a boy. all my friends thought he was terrible cuz he hit me a couple times but i he also has some issues with emotional regulation so i tried not to hold it against him.
he broke up with me after telling me he’d been having an affair with some 40 year old funeral director(married)
i’m 23, for context, and he’s six months younger. (made sure to rub in how she wasn’t skinny too)
he left me, and i agreed because i’m worn tf down. he’d always do things out of spite, and was a bit condescending.
but now that he’s actually gone after four years it’s like? should i have stayed? should i have waited for him to stop smoking weed?
i feel like i’m going insane, maybe it’s my bpd being too attached to him, or maybe i fucked up something that could’ve been really good.
like i’m honestly just conflicted, kind of wanna text him though
super incompatible but i have BPD so my ass was dedicated. lot of back and forth cheating after he cheated on me while i was on a psych ward, yeah? i had a bender on /b a while back which i think really screwed w him, lexapro is a bitch.
i’d been doing better on my health, journaling, art, whatever cope i needed. he helped me with everything, took me to the ocean, always tried his best to comfort me when he thought i was a psychotic bitch. and usually only used me for whatever fetish he wanted to pursue.
but he had a problem with loving femboys, and t-girls, i even went nonbinary for a while to be more like a boy. all my friends thought he was terrible cuz he hit me a couple times but i he also has some issues with emotional regulation so i tried not to hold it against him.
he broke up with me after telling me he’d been having an affair with some 40 year old funeral director(married)
i’m 23, for context, and he’s six months younger. (made sure to rub in how she wasn’t skinny too)
he left me, and i agreed because i’m worn tf down. he’d always do things out of spite, and was a bit condescending.
but now that he’s actually gone after four years it’s like? should i have stayed? should i have waited for him to stop smoking weed?
i feel like i’m going insane, maybe it’s my bpd being too attached to him, or maybe i fucked up something that could’ve been really good.
like i’m honestly just conflicted, kind of wanna text him though
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