I've worked every conceivable job I could get as a HS graduate with no degrees or certs: fast food, gas stations, grocery stores, hotels, factories, workshops, warehouses.. I was even a government employee for a brief time. Every single one of these jobs fucking sucked.

I could describe in egregious detail exactly how and why these jobs nearly destroyed my soul, but I'm sure you already know. I know everybody *has* to work (except women) and I know nobody likes it (except faggots). But as someone with no debt, no family, no property or assets, or really any stake in the world whatsoever... I'm having a hard time justifying this headache to myself.

I don't even care about my life outside of work. I have no friends, no real hobbies, not even video games and anime appeal to me anymore. Porn is getting old too. (Inb4 you tell me to be a real man and take up wood carving or something equally retarded)

Basically I just don't know what to do now. I don't know how I'm supposed to make money to support myself, and even in general I just don't know what to do with myself. I hate going outside and I hate staying inside, I hate work and I hate play. The only things I seem to enjoy are walking and complaining. I have no faith in this country, this planet, my fellow human beings. My efforts all feel wasted.
>I'm too sissy to just be Sisyphus

I have younger brothers who are already emotionally stinted plus cats I take care of so I can't neck myself or I would've already

Come serve me then

>>33380286
Where?

>>33380188 (OP)
A proportion of people, maybe most, inherently know what to do with their lives, whether it is just to marry and have a family or to pursue something grand like being a writer, astronaut, soldier and so on. Then there's the people who don't inherently know, like me. Such people need to literally create a reason for their life, as though life is a canvas and they are the artist. Simply adopting that frame will give you direction, which you seem clueless about right now.

>>33380188 (OP)
Sincerely, engage spirituality, because that's the one case when it's rational. I'd recommend something with a history, not New Age shit cobbled together haphazardly, and something with a culture for mendicants like Buddhism or Hinduism just in case you need to fall back on that. There's good stuff there aside from that. Intention-setting psychotechnologies like the Bodhisattva vow are tailor made for your situation. Christianity will be most common in the West but ultimately that means you have to sort through a lot more traps to find something right.

>>33382499
>Trips and dubs
Shit, I might actually have to take this advice seriously. I've never actively sought out spirituality, actually from a young age I've been convinced it was all bullshit. I read the Bible a few times to see if it might open my eyes, but it just became clearer to me that Christianity should have stayed in the middle ages. God telling me to invade my enemies, be fruitful, and merciful to my slaves just doesn't seem to have much merit in the 21st century. Maybe I'm not reading between the lines or whatever.

Since the path I choose seems superfluous to you
>Buddhism or Hinduism or maybe Christianity
I'm assuming you don't actually believe in it right? I don't even believe people when they tell me to have a good day, how am I supposed to take religion seriously especially when it doesn't matter which one I choose

>>33382499
>New Age shit cobbled together haphazardly
That's exactly what all three so-called Abrahamic religions are: the New Age religion of their time created from a mish-mash of borrowed ideas. In the case of Christianity, read Caesar's Messiah to understand how it was created.

>>33381744
Post contact
Throwaway email, discord, whatever

>>33382585
It's not that it doesn't matter which one. It's that I'm not going to tell you which one because it's yours to figure out. If you need something to consider to get you going, I'll say this: You do have blessings, even if it's just things like the ability to read or think. All are susceptible to loss, even if it's just that everyone eventually dies. It can definitely seem like the just world inherently sucks. But for every cause there is an effect, even if you don't know what it is.

>>33380188 (OP)
>I have no friends, no real hobbies, not even video games and anime appeal to me anymore. Porn is getting old too
So relatable. I'm about to turn 31 and find myself in the same situation. I also don't want to leave now because of my cats. My family would surely just dump on the street first chance they get.

>>33380286
Whatchu mean? not OP but interested.

>>33384486
Ok my discord is "lonesomelover"

>>33380188 (OP)
Yes

>>33385280
>>33385262
We starting an underground resistance collective movement uprising counter-revolution with this one... Discord farm here we go round em up

>>33380188 (OP)
Nice to see someone else in the same boat. I feel like there's zero incentive for myself to continue participating in life or to integrate into society.
>I'm having a hard time justifying this headache to myself.
>My efforts all feel wasted.
>I can't neck myself or I would've already
What keeps me from cashing in my chips is my faith, and there is potential in that for something beautiful to sprout. The world hasn't really given me anything desirable to seek after. No real temptations other than to just fall into a carnal state of security and self destruct.

>>33382585
>I don't even believe people when they tell me to have a good day

I don't have much faith in people. Faith is a necessary tool to interact with the world. We have faith in our senses that they don't deceive us, faith in architects so we can inhabit houses and not think they'll soon collapse, etc. I've had to start from scratch and entertain the possibility that God can really know or care about me even if no one else does. To try the experiment and exercise the smallest morsel of faith. These scriptures comes to mind: Alma 32:24–33; Ether 12.

>>33380188 (OP)
Yes