>me and my best friend engaged in cocsa when i was 10 and he was 11 in 2015
>60% him 40% me
>he taught me how to masturbate and essentially had anal sex with me
>for context, we both watched porn at a young age, he showed me it
>mom learned that we watched porn (not the deets) from his mom
>i got grounded for a month, he didnt get grounded
>all blamed on me
ffw 6 years later
>talking to cute girl in class
>we hit it off instantly
>she is in school of rock band with him
>open up to her
>says she will "look out" just in case
>for context she isnt a model citizen, apparently was emotionally cheating on her bf while i was talking to her
ffw 1 year later
>she is dating a new guy
>out of curiosity (not jealously, im over her) ask who it is
>give bullshit name of a band member she likes
>call her out
>she leaves me on read
>learn its him
>whatthefuck.png
>both block me, i forget about it
ffw 3 years later
>i see them in work and in public
>nearly have a panic attack every time i see them
>she is in a college club im in too
>my old friend's mom is also best friends with my mom
>my mom mentions how he has a new gf and she is "super nice"
>bro wtf
>for extra context, i told my mom the details of what happened a year ago, she said (in a nice way) to get over it
>also asked my gf, she said we were both young and didnt know better
any advice /adv/?

You know what you have to do, anon.

>>33403739
i dont

You should cut the later bullshit and make doujin out of the first early part of the story. Then reclaim ur husbando, snatch him off her, and have nasty sex and maybe make a sequel doujin of that bullshit. YW

>>33403833
Come to terms with the fact neither of you knew enough to make a good decisions as preteens and that while that doesn’t forgive everything that happened it is not an unnatural thing for children coming into puberty to experiment with their friends and there was no ill intent - the opposite actually. Take it as an experiment that exposed that you don’t enjoy butt sex.

>>33403385 (OP)
What exactly do you want to happen? What advice are you looking for?
I'm sorry that you feel bad but you were both preteens fooling around in a seemingly reciprocal way.