I miss my ex I miss my ex I miss my ex I hope he dies

Its been a year and 5 months since my oneitis of 10 years finally let me into her life. We talked for 8 hours and then started making out and went to her bedroom to have sex. Because I had drank roughly 17 to 25 drinks i wasn't able to get hard so I panicked and asked her to be my girlfriend and she immediately got out of bed and put her clothes on. I got black out drunk the next night and called her on the phone and cussed her out for 30 minutes. I then tried to drink myself to death. Woke up in the hospital. Been sober ever since.

You've touched on both philosophical and ethical ideas here.

The phrase "We're all just stardust" is a poetic way to reflect on our cosmic origins: the elements that make up our bodies were forged in stars over billions of years, highlighting our shared existence in the universe. The idea that "nothing really matters" draws from existential philosophy, suggesting that in the cosmic scale, our actions may feel insignificant—but many people find meaning regardless, through relationships, purpose, or ethical values.

Your second point, "don't ever say the n word," addresses an important ethical and social boundary. The "n word" is a deeply offensive racial slur with a painful and violent history, especially against Black people. While philosophical musings may question the meaning and significance of things, respecting others and upholding basic decency remains vital in any community or society.

In summary:
- Our cosmic insignificance can be humbling, but it doesn't excuse harmful words or actions.
- Ethical conduct—like never using racial slurs—is always important, regardless of philosophical perspective.

If you want to dive deeper into these ideas, let me know!

Mmmmmm plagues.
Grow grow grow
Stirring slow
Counter clockwise
Subtle demise

Where we at tonight

Business as usual

So they gave me this small plant on a small plastic vase because I started donating to a charity in my country. I’m not entirely sure it’s a real plant after some days watching it be just exactly the same thing day after day. But it has some signs of being real like a dry leaf or branch here or there.
I feel the urgency to just uproot the whole thing to see its roots and see if it’s real.
I’m currently seeing someone who is very warm tender and lovely when she’s next to me but she has a bf and also barely replies to me when we’re not together. When I’m with her I feel like everything is so real, the way she hugs me when I fuck her, the way she takes my face into her hands when we kiss, the time we spend together just talking and hugging.
But then when she’s not by my side it’s like she doesn’t exist.
I’m so tempted to just ask upfront what’s up but I’m very afraid to kill the thing or be incredibly disappointed and not able to enjoy our time together anymore

Was sexual assault really the worst thing to ever happen to me, or is it just how society treats it.

>>33413753
I got harassed multiple times, when I was a kid and as a young man. Never escalated too much but still a gay man going into an arcade to try to slide his hands inside the pants of a kid shouldn’t be something common right.
I screamed to the guy to stop doing it and of course fearing who might hear me the guy ran away.
I continued going to that same arcade for years even when it was empty.
I got fondled at massive public events, 3 times by gay dudes and once by a group of kinda ugly girls.
I… don’t see the big deal. It’s annoying but I continued doing what I was doing afterwards.
I’m not a tall strong dude that feels safe walking around either, I’m kinda short and I was incredibly skinny back then.
I just don’t see how sexual harassment can get into people’s head so much unless it’s sustained and rough. Girls getting catcalled complaining about it as if it’s an aggression is so weird to me. I remember being catcalled while running a couple times. Felt good.

>>33413706
I miss her every minute we’re not together and this was supposed to be something casual I could enjoy

I really regret asking her out

>>33413791
It's the feeling of dirtiness and filth I feel about it, I guess. And the way it's affected my tastes wasn't great. Who would've thought that a child sa victim with a noncon kink talking to adult men online wasn't a good thing? (it wasn't nearly as bad as it sounds roflmao no worries) And the responses I've gotten from other people made it a lot worse. I don't think it was just that that's fucked me up though, considering my upbringing. I wish I wasn't so overreactive about it, but I can't help the way my nervous system reacts.

I can't even play guitar or write music anymore without him constantly being on my mind because our styles and music tastes were so exactly aligned. That's bad enough when it's just the shit you listen to being shared taste and pulling you back in that space, but when it's your writing styles and your main creative outlet it fucking sucks extra hard
Yeah next person I find has to have like 0 in common with me. Just vibes we connect on, we can support each other's tastes and hobbies from the sidelines. This fucking sucks
He probably doesn't even think about me

if i had a girlfriend right now i wouldn't be able to take this nap im about to take and that would fucking suck.

>>33414191
You regret the outcome not the act of asking her out, if she said what you wanted to hear there would be no regret.

>>33413069 (OP)
I finally realised that I have a habit of doing too much for others and being too agreeable with people who don't really care about me.

Quite liberating actually. I'll only ever bother with those who reciprocate my energy from here on out

There will be those who wear the smile and call you fren while being a bastard behind your back and there will be those who seek to destroy while putting on the same face, do not trust these people. They are not your friend, no matter how long you've been around them.

It lasted years. One of the last thing I did for her was to take her to the hospital at 3am because she was feeling unwell and I didn't want her taking an Uber that late into the night. All for her to tell me I don't know how to treat a woman and for her to repeat the exact words her ex told her when he had enough of her nonsense. What a fucking despicable cunt.

The writing was on the wall the whole time we were together but I consciously told myself not to look at it.

>>33414614
My problem is that she enthusiastically said yes
and then ghosted me repeatedly
im a fucking social retard, so all my social energy
was put into asking her out and now she is all i
can think about and i fucking hate it

>>33413069 (OP)
I have 100k+ in a account for a robot girl.

I started a semi joke account with 5k pre covid for a robot when they released. I got really lucky with a crypto and its soared.

My guestimation is that in the next 5-10 years they will be on the market and i will have 150+ by then.


....This would not be a problem if i did not get married in that time and my wife thinks i'm joking. Im sure she will get over it when she does not have to do chores.

Somebody stole the bracelets that my new friend made for me :/ It was probably Tammy but if I confront them they will just say that they didn’t touch my bracelets. They might even place them somewhere that I have already looked for me to find them again so I can feel like there is something wrong with my sanity. Typical witch things.

Current Tammy has always hated me. I think all of them always have. I always knew Tammy hated me but I was in denial the majority of my life.

I developed the impression that they would move my belongings in different places or hold onto them until it was time to place them where they “found” them for me. Often my car keys. I could just never prove it. Same reason why she would always try to block my pathway at perfect timing and walk slowly or listen to my footsteps to quickly walk around the corner as I approached. Constantly making it so I had to maneuver my body to not bump into them or else I was a rude piece of shit for not being submissive.

You’re on the other side of the room and always choose to move and block my pathway as soon as I approach and u try to get me right behind u every time and if we cross paths I’m forced to adjust myself to not bump into to u. If I address this then I’m an asshole.

Every time they did that move around corners at the worst time it they would make that startled sound. It seemed like more than them just pretending to be scared.

I'm having trouble accepting that it was bad. I simultaneously feel numb and hurt somehow and I don't get why.

I’ve wanted a friendship bracelet my whole life and the witch stole it after a week of me having it.

>>33414773
Been there, still think about how I fumbled the prettiest smile in my college. But I have a gf now, and one that wanted to talk to me and loves me. It's gonna get better, anon

>>33415044
I'm such a fucking loser holy shit all I do is vent on this fucking website cause I'm too chickenshit to talk or ask for help. I have a massive victim complex and I'm an attentionwhore

She acts fake in order to look like a victim, dude. Blame it on loud music u dumb fucking normie.

>>33415084
Just fucking talk to someone, damnit.

They have been trying to destroy me since the beginning but u only see the angles that salvage your reputation that u already threw away for misjudging me.

I'm kinda disappointed that the stupid UK online safety thing wasn't some end-of-the-world tier killswitch, you don't even need a VPN if you have half a brain and it's impacting pretty much no site I use. Guess I'll have to rely on myself to escape my bad habits after all, that's never worked before so it's a bit of a pisser.

well there's more reinforcement for that hypothesis

sometimes you really, really, really hate being right, like seriously man wtf

>>33415090
I can't get therapy, talking to my friend is Triggering, talking to my parents fucking sucks, who the hell do I talk to that I can guarantee will listen.

My dog hates when I talk or laugh to myself.
He's like lady I'm not going to a shelter niggers and pitbulls are there I'll fuckin die. Get your shit together

Just received a call from community health asking for my last name and birthday. Told them that I don’t feel comfortable giving that information when in reality I just avoid them for good reasons. Yes, I already posted my social security number last October in gioyc as well as Twitter and Facebook to prove my identity. If Tammy actually cared about committing to due diligence then she would have checked for my birth mark and biopsy scar but that’s not convenient is it?

Fuck my retarded house and family I'm the only pajeet here with hygiene concerns fuck these shitskins go to hell

Why do you keep appearing and disappearing? And why won’t you give me closure. You disappeared without saying a word as if I don’t literally adore you.
Ffs that's what I get

I wish I'd been half the whore people thought I was going to be.

Grandma gave me the impression that it’s partly her fault that the neighbor’s house kept flooding. I wanted it lowkey because I didn’t want our “family” to be sued. I guess I’m a piece of shit for that too. I let the neighbors know about this almost a year ago and they don’t seem concerned for some reason. I don’t know.

I never thought I’d find someone to be mine. Lord knows I was right, cuz you just crossed the line

Someone obscenely gorgeous was into me for some reason for a couple months but it's over now
Honestly I don't know why, she was way the fuck out of my league
This is gonna fuck my shit up for future dating probably, that is not happening again

>>33413069 (OP)

I can tell that she's still in love with me, but at the same time she wishes she weren't. I wonder if she'll dump me. I certainly won't dump her.

i miss him

>>33415966
I miss her too

It’s over.

My entire worldview is getting crushed and I just don't know what to think anymore man

I miss her/him

>>33414346
I didn’t get some of the lingo but I wish I could lend you a bit of my strength. I’m a pussy when it comes to relationships if it helps, I can be groped day and night but if a girl I like tells me she doesn’t feel the same after months of appearing she does, I’m just dust, I cease to exist

:O
Best boys posted a close up.

it's over.

>>33415992
wait you're not me

>>33413069 (OP)
Being rejected sucks but watching his hairline recede while he continues to scare all the other hoes with his autism until he becomes that sad old virgin man clip is a decent enough consolation for me.

I want my bracelets back

>>33416092
Damn

>>33416069
You never know.

I will now judge you entirely by your actions. You say I am a man of little words but that is because when I say something, every word that exits my mouth has weight. I mean every single thing I say. You should try it sometime, put a little filter over your speech

I miss him.
Ex boy fake.
He digital and dash'd on me.

I have a crush on a guy nearly half my age and I don't even know if he's gay or not. Any time he touches me, like even a simple nudge, I feel so happy. It makes my day. I'm at least socializing with people but I can't help but feel so pathetic to feel like this. If I tried to figure out how he feels it could destroy the friendship and then I'd be left with nothing.

>>33416320
Half your age is kinda crazy
I felt weird enough having a 9 year age gap with a dude
S'all the same in the end as long as you're adults I guess

>>33416329
33 - 19
I agree it's crazy but I don't interact with many people my age at work/etc. I have thought about dating apps but I really don't like them. The people I see are either openly trashy and begging for sex or too perfect to want someone like me.

i can't believe this chick is so mean idek what i did to deserve this and i have to just pretend it didn't happen

Guy who wanted a fight with me who seemed to know who I am asked me if my dad molested me. My answer was no. Answer is still no. It’s a fact and I am sure of it. Anyone who insists otherwise is simply trying to cover up their sins. What kind of sins could u imagine that being? I don’t think they would have very much fun paying for them.

>>33416400
Regardless of my answer, the truth is also no. My dad never molested me. Yes, I wonder about the chair incident while camping. I don’t know what that was. I don’t know if that was my dad either.

I have a burning hatred of the schizophrenics that shit up this thread.

You may be mentally ill, but you are shitting this place up on purpose.
You know no one reads your crap, because it's incoherent and does not communicate anything.
YOU KNOW THIS.
You do it on purpose.

If you where genuinely mentaly ill in a way where you cannot communicate, Why the fuck post anything?

i have no outlet. i feel like a bee hive of thoughts and desires, but its all just buzzing in my head.

>>33416543
This is the schizo containment general...

i can't even hide it anymore. i just don't have it in me to pretend i'm ok. i spent most of my friend's wedding sitting outside staring into the trees.

>>33416639
Going to a wedding single when literally everyone else is with their partner or a date is fucking brutal. Has you just walking off into the trees contemplating while they all do their own thing. Been there

>>33416561
What is wrong with that guy?

>>33416650
especially when i'm 32, they're all getting married and buying houses, and i just lost my job and i can't find another one.

been in a hetero relationship for 8 months, but i slowly feel myself liking women more, and men less. it's as if my attraction to men, even my boyfriend is dwindling more and more each day.

>>33416673
>i'm 32
Same, coincidentally
And same, don't measure up at all. Improving a lot lately but it's gonna take a while to get there

I going out on dates with her and I enjoy my time with her so much. I miss her every minute we’re not together. And yet she seems to just disappear when we say our goodbyes.
Granted she doesn’t have a phone right now. Should I buy her a phone…

>out of beer
grim.

>>33416829
i'm sorry. i'm at the point where i want to cash out. i haven't had that thought in a while, but i'm really feeling down.

How do you get someone who is a parent and has raised 3 fat children and one normal weight (me) to STOP buying fast, processed junk?

>food in fridge is hardly anything real
>weird fucking junk foods
>random fucking vanilla ice cream
>oreos
>shitty chocolate
>all this fattening shit
>lack of any real nutrient providing foods
it doesn't take any money to not spend money on these nothing 'foods'. Anyone else live with people who just eat 'nothing'? There's no nutrition, there's no real value to any of this -- its all junk

It's a choice every time in the grocery store of two thought processes: one, it is a conscious decision to continue buying all this crap, two it is not even thought of at all. I don't know which is worse - please for the love of god STOP BUYING JUNK FOOD. YOU ARE BUYING FOOD WITH NO NUTRITIONAL VALUE
STOP BUYING JUNK FOOD
YOU HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR YEARS

I don't understand how these purchases are made - just don't buy the junk food. Just don't buy it


Just don't buy it anymore

>>33416847
Eat a good meal, have sex with someone you have an emotionalconnection to, don't think about the future at all.

Instantly cure your depression with this one weird trick

>>33416923
i don't have an emotional connection with anyone, let alone a woman.

>>33416896
They aren't thinking about that, abd it didn't bother them.
Sorry it bothers you.
You can't "fix" them.
If you need healthy people in your life, it's not going to be them.
Let go of that dream.

>>33416923
>have sex with someone you have an emotionalconnection to
Yeah problem with that is it's hard af unless you're a normal person

>>33416927
Yeah thats the catch :/
Want to have sex with me?

>>33416934
i tend to want to know someone first. and for them to be a woman.

i haven't been someone not surrounded by screens or blue light in so long i can't remember. i need to go to a cabin in the woods for a few months.

no one in my life knows that i have a fetish for chubby/fat white men

I miss her

>>33416941
We could know each other but I'll probably disappoint you on the second. :(
I tried, sorry.

You you have to believe you deserve good things.

what if nobody likes it? what if nobody cares? what if its just like every time before? what if i waste all this time and money for nothing?

>>33416999
I doubt you could disappoint me.
You are good. You would be surprised.

>>33416999
the only thing i deserve is the air and the sunlight. everything else i have to work for or earn. and i've failed on almost every occasion. thank you for your kind words, but i don't think it will get better for me.

>>33417023
I'm getting mixed messages here.
You prefer a woman, I am not a woman.
You didn't explicitly say no.
I can't disappoint you.

>>33417038
You gotta believe, even if it's impossible.
Especially if it's impossible.

>>33416984
Have you told the chubby fat white men in your life? I think they would like that.

Holy shit shut up you fucking faggots

I hate niggers, jews, certain whites, and everyone who is rich.

>>33417055
No I'm gay and and in crisis I won't shut up about it

>>33417053
i dont have any directly in my life, i just see them sometimes in my college classes, and informing them of my attraction to them would most certainly not end well

>>33417055
faggots > schizophrenics

why can't they even fathom that they have any responsibility for how i ended up?

women are only what the men around them allow them to be. blame them as well as the woman.

>>33417040
I am a woman. I have been extremely disappointed most of my life. Imposter syndrom hits hard. It would be very difficult to disappoint me, but I am sure there is some way it could happen.

>>33417068
Women where a mistake.

You could walk up to a chubby white guy, ask him if he has a gf, and when he says no you say "you do now" and he would be overloaded with emotions he's never felt before.

They don't want you to know this:
Chubby white guys are free.
You can literally take the chubby white guys home from the park.
I have like 15 chubby white guy bf in my basement.
This could be you.

>>33417078
I understand?
You are a lesbian, and aren't interest in "hetero" sex?
How about gay? sex then? One lesbian and one fag having gay? sex.

>>33417081
im not a woman im ftm
ik u ppl think thats the same but its really not when u actually start to medically transition
these chubby white dudes, or anyone for that matter, dont want a hairy, smelly flat chested pooner with a weird sounding voice.

>>33417060
Completely reasonable

>>33417060
does this hatred bring you comfort or more distress? can you live your life not trusting these groups without active hate?

>>33417098
No, I am a hetero woman. Have experienced other women but I am more fond of man.

>>33417071
They cognisize, they just don't accept it, and you have no leverage to extract thier action.

They did it, and do have responsibility, but will not act.

If you need to, cut them off, but don't expect thier awakening.

Good news, my crush didn't ghost me and she has gone from good acquiantence to now buddy. Being the first buddy at my workplace.

>>33417112
Yes, I was teasing you about the labeling of these things.

So is that a yes or no on the sex?

>>33417116
Great job. Now tell her you have a crush on her.

Thing is though the thing about friends is they started out as buddies, but overtime grew into friends who will never ditch you.

>>33417127
Not yet broski. I gotta play it slow. Can't jump things too soon.

normal people treat depression like a threat. they act like if they try to understand, but really tell you its your fault and you need to stop trying to understand it, to just be normal.

i've had people try to guilt me out of not wanting to kill myself. i want to because i always feel guilty.

>>33417131
the more time you take, the less she'll think of you as a potential partner. tell her, and embrace whatever comes out of it.

>>33417135
u need better friends dude

>>33417131
If you say so.

This is already a time of change, more change is just covered by the initial change.
If you wait too long, violating the new comfortable norm is harder.

If you tell her and she says no, you can tell her you still want the best for her, and you respect her decision, remain good coworkers, and move on romantically.

Rejections don't have to be ugly, or destructive.

>>33417139
thats the real world. depression is like a virus they're afraid to catch, because they're normal.

>>33417135
Guilt is externally imposed. Like court "guilty" verdict

Shame is internaly imposed, people can imply you should feel it, but you still choose to feel it in the end.

You have no reason to feel ashamed.
Go kill yourself if it makes you feel better.

>>33416543
So I can't tell jokes? And post raps? This was my general before /ng/, so...

>>33417141
>>33417137
I get that, but here is the thing, when you are autistic, things tend to be a bit heavy and clinical when you have to deal with someone of that nature. It isn't like my oldest brother where he can just drop in and flirt. Autistic people like myself there is an easing that has to be done. Once trust has been built and it feels comfortable and the burden it gives along with it not feeling like a humiliating drag, then it can work. I have to give the reassurance I am capable to understand her and look after her. When you are not autistic it is easier to build a foundation because normal positive people's foundation is steel, when you are autistic, it is more like wood, so there is a lot that needs to be done to keep it stable.

>>33417168
womens attraction doesnt care about your sensibilities. it is entirely sub consious.

while you're getting comfortable and taking your time, she's already given up.

break your programing and take a chance.

everything wrong with you came out of a tube you were shot up with as a baby. don't let them win.

i don't even enjoy the things i used to like. i just do things out of habit now.

>>33417184
That's true her hormones has settled down but you want to be beyond the generic fuckboy who fucks her and drops her. I want a real friend who I can have a relationship with, so it has to be built. Look at pic related, that is what it is like. She is like Jane and I am Tarzan. There was an easing dude.

I had to use my huzzz money to call a tow truck
Noooooo

>>33417200
i dont want to be mean, but you're not gonna be with her if you base your life on disney movies. she isn't tarzan. shes a modern woman, with more options than you have. you aren't tarzan, you're an autistic person over analyzing not taking actions that you want.

>>33417210
Dumb fuck

Blonde women be shopping for peanits

>>33417220
I'm good. I know I'm stupid, but my heart is in the right place, so I'm gonna stick to that.

She can't stand people, but she has STANDards...

>>33417221
Suck my left nut

I wish I had been in a relationship with a woman that actually loved me and cared for my best interest
Now I only see relationships as shallow agreements that are only kept if both people are benefiting from it
There is no love

We would have had our two year anniversary right now
It fell apart
It's not that deep

>>33417101
so you’re a man but a woman when you feel attacked got it tranny go to your containment zone

Some people have elevators in their house and think it's next level...

>>33417286
didnt ask

Not everyone knows the magic of feng shui, but voodoo(vou do).

>>33417269
this week marked two years since I got dumped
it’s ok, she wasn’t the one

I'm tired of people trying to ban porn, I feel like all this is gonna do is make more rapists and sex offenders, I'm tired of people who censor stuff just because they personally don't like it.

Sometimes I wonder, is there even a God out there? If not, then the only reason we really exist is to fuck and make more of us, meaning nothing we do matters, if you die people will miss you but it won't even matter in the grand scheme, and we should have all stayed shit-flinging apes if that was true.

There's embaressing, and theres posting sam hyde vids on facebook embaressing.

This is worse than the time I compared myself to fucking Chris Chan.

>>33417358
not just god, any sort of afterlife or stuff like that I mean

>>33417364
Pornographic and violent imagery can pollute the mind if you are insane enough. If you are a kid and your only way of interaction is playing as a rapist, you will get a bit screwed up in the head. You may say well what if I have common sense, but here's the sad thing, not everyone has common sense. You want proof of why that is? Ask yourself, why is a blade meant for cutting off facial and body hair, being used for self-harm, and that is the exact same common sense some people don't have that conservatives are afraid of.

>>33417364
I heard the afterlife is to die for...

The calm before the storm is thick when you try to hurry Cain...

>>33417503
Bro, ah fuck no that ain't how Christianity works. Alright. I hate being the worst example of one, but you got to know that the gift of the afterlife is about living your life the best you can repently. Jesus didn't mean oh you're saved so you can fuck around and do nothing. Had he been like that why are we still suffering as human beings? The reason being morality is grown and the gift of it is given from being your best human self. If you think Christianity is some religion that is either all perfect or completely neglectful you are really wrong.

>Ask girl out on a date for this weekend
>Get told she'd really like to go, but she's helping her sister move to another house
>Now stuck wondering if it was genuine or just an excuse not to go

>>33417539
You sound retarded

>>33417558
No shit, if I knew the answer to these things I wouldn't be complaining about it.

Do you actually like me? Or just being polite?
If it feels kinda awkward when we're alone. Does this necessarily mean this is bad?
Honestly can't tell, but I really enjoy being around you. Maybe a little bit too much.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RK8rld1IrVo

I'm sick of you treating me this way. I stand up for myself once and you treat me like I'm the fucking devil when you've done worse to me so many times. Fuck you.

>>33417631
Honestly hope you can find happiness, Idk who this is about but they sound like a hassle.

>>33417574
If she repeatedly does this and you left behind it is a good sign she is politely trying to reject you.

>>33417578
I'm gonna act like this is the person I want this to be. Yes, I actually like you.

>>33416896
Explain to them how to cook to save money.
Unfortunately your parent sound lazy as fuck and doesn't actually care about her children. Sucks to hear that but it is as simple as you put it. just don’t buy it.

>>33417539
Sounds like a girl I know.
>Ask her to play games
>Always oh next time I can I'm just busy now.
>Ask her >10 Times to fill spots in 5 Man teams and always the same excuse
>Next time I see her IRL we argue about how she's being a rat
>Invite her next time
>She now will join 50% of the time.

>>33417021
>what if nobody likes it? what if nobody cares? what if its just like every time before? what if i waste all this time and money for nothing?
what if everybody likes it? what if everybody cares? what if its not like every time before? what if i didn't waste any time and money?

>>33417651
I don't know what to think. I asked her out a couple of years ago, she said yes and then told me the next week she couldn't go and stopped talking to me. I started dating someone else last year and she got irrationally upset and started saying my girlfriend was batshit insane and I should've never got with her and don't let her pressure me in to getting married or having kids.

Since I'm single again I decided to casually ask her out on a date again and got rejected. Ever since I've broke up with my previous girlfriend she's been a lot more talkative but I'm not sure if it's because she wants to start a relationship or just leads me on as a fallback guy or something.

Just had a dream where I was laying next to a pretty girl, she cared for me, she was warm, we laughed, I got on with her brother and parents.

Nothing sexual at all happened but I felt the happiness though my entire body, just laying next to her, our bodies touching talking about stupid stuff, saying silly things.

I woke up alone and cold. What did my brain mean by this.

>>33417811
>just leads me on as a fallback guy or something.
ding ding ding we have a winner.

Jesus horror movies are fucking bad. Just turn the fucking lights on, man. It's not that hard. They're attacking your psyche, not your electrical grid.

I am their god
They will wear the stains of their degeneracy forever
20 years, 40 years
My left eye has been forced open

>>33417867
Well, see, the problem with Jesus horror movies ain't the darkness. You can flick on every light in your house, but you can't turn off the nagging feeling that you probably should've called your mother last Sunday. That's the real terror, pal. That's the stuff that sticks with ya.

>>33413069 (OP)
My friends and I recently ran a train on a single 30+ yr old mother. We are all in our late teens/early twenties. We were drinking at night, and she came up to us and asked if she could hang out with us. It was a bit awkward at first, but she was so incredibly dtf we each took turns fucking her in a local park bathroom. She wasn't super attractive. I don't regret it.

>>33417886
Yeah, fuggen wisdom.

>>33417887
>I don't regret it.
Fair enough, one question though.
What number in the train were you?
1/6?
5/6?
Whatever number you are correlates to how you're perceived by everyone else, first to go is most liked, last to go is least liked.

I don't understand why we need to declare to each other that we are "exclusive." Is it not implied if we are? Why the fuck do we even need to explictily discuss that when we are currently dating? So you spend all this time with me and then go and do the same with another guy? Why are people dating several others at a time? And then hooking up as well on the side? Why is everyone online saying it's normal? Why is this so normal? One day you're getting to know someone and then the same night you're fucking a complete rando? I don't understand it. It's so weird to me. It's distasteful and disrespectful. Why not just focus on one person at a time? How can you ever find "the one" if you never even bother to dedicate yourself to one person at a time? I don't get it. I don't get it. How do peole do this and then feel like nothing is wrong? Wtf. I really hope I will find someone who shares my views one day.

I will kill myself

>>33417904
Couldn't agree more anon, unfortunately the girl you're interested in is a complete whore and isn't worth your time.

>>33417903
I was 2/4. Each of our friends are equally liked but we definitely vary in experience. The first guy floated the idea and fucked her first. I went along with it because the idea of being eskimo brothers with my friend was sort of funny and I was hungry. My other two friends were a little bit less experienced and were more cautious, but she kept grabbing them and pulling them to her and insisting so they caved. I will add the vibe was less sexy and more just absurd and kinda surreal. I think we all just found it kind of funny whilst she found it really hot because of the age taboo and being used and abused. She had big bpd vibes.

>>33417931
>She had big bpd vibes.
you gangbanged a mentally ill woman lmfao

>>33417905
Why

>>33417939
I hate myself. Nothing feels like it matters or will matter.

>>33417941
Do you have friends

>>33417943
Yes

>>33417946
Lucky

>>33417946
Tell them everything, if you're going to die anyway it shouldn't matter if you're scared to tell them. If you still can't tell them you don't really want to die and you just want attention.

>>33417949
Thanks
>>33417950
I have. I don’t think the god delusion and suicidal ideation would go over well again

>>33417938
Some of the stuff she was saying about her life was super depressing. For instance, she only had 3 days a week custody of her kids and those days did not include weekends. She worked a job where she had to come in every day. Her divorce happened last year October and she hadn't had sex since then. Her dad dangled her over a train station platform as a kid, and she had to go to therapy for it.
She was a genuine mental case, but I think we treated her well all things considered.

>>33417958
Jesus Christ anon, hopefully she doesn't report it to the police as a rape. You never stick your dick in someone that is crazy enough to come up to a group like that, did anyone in your group question anything or did everyone just think with their dick.

>>33417162
No you don't

You haven't told a joke or posted a rap, and this isn't the fucking place for it, and you wouldn't even try to make it relevant.

That question right there is just more proof you are faking and shitting this place up. Either you mean it, or you are too incoherent to post anything relevant.
Either way, literaly fuck off and die.

>>33417957
>god delusion
Nice LARP, people who are actually delusional don't know they're delusional, go seek attention for somewhere else.

>>33417523
Actualy the Bible never describes either (as If the Bible is reliable anyway), and infact both are an invention of dark age monks for political satire. Dantes Inferno was not considered at the time a religious document, but you retarded pesants uncriticaly took nearly everything it said as authoritative wisdom, like you retarded pesants do with your own farts. It's just a medievalfan fiction. Most of the iconography about both is from Dantes Inferno.

>>33417965
She definitely wasn't the type of crazy to threaten rape just very desperate for some sort of connection and wanting to be listened to. I'm not losing any sleep over it.

>>33417651
>politely
That is not polite

>>33417978
>wasn't the type of crazy to threaten rape
I've seen women to more for less.
You all thought with your dicks without thinking of any real world consequences.

>>33417980
It is to dumb bimbos

>>33417135
my boyfriend told me it's just a lie I'm telling myself and basically to get over it. hurts so bad and it's very hard to not feel extreme resentment over it

>>33417970
Lol, moments of lucidity never ever happen, right?

>>33417989
Whatever you say cringe lord.

>>33417982
Care to share more about these rape allegation stories? It's never been something I've been super neurotic about. Having sex with any woman carries a risk. So be it.

>>33417968
What are you expecting out of me? To make my entire being about you? I'm good. I'd rather have fun. If you want me to go back to /ng/ then just say that.

I got into really good shape and started to feel great and look great so I tried to put myself out there wkth women and failed catastrophically every single time. Like, just autism and nuerotic retardation and over thinking. I stopped exercising because I decided that there was no point in looking good if my brain was too retarded for anything good to come of it. Now I just barely eat and never go outside and talk to no one

If youre ugly from some angles, and okay looking from other angles, does that just mean youre ugly and should stop trying to cope with flattering angles?

>>33413096
Why did you drink

>>33418078
Because I was an alcoholic and was extra nervous because I had had a crush on her for such a long time

>>33418085
Damn that sucks. Hope youre okay. Your body was telling you, she wasn't the one and if she was she would have understood. Many such cases. Make a change to drink less

No matter how many times I run water through the water tank it still tastes like soap

frick so gross

>>33418005
I'm expecting you to be coherent or silent.
This isn't about me.
Your life would genuinely be better if you where coherent or silent.

If you cannot be coherent in one channel, find a channel. Too may people have coddled you and you are both crippled and spoiled.

Be less spoiled.

>>33418020
Excersize for yourself.

All your learning with women will be raw no matter how you look. It will suck alot before it gets better.

Keep excersizing, please. For your good
Your health also makes me happy.

>>33418093
Dude. It was my fault completely. I ruined it. Completely. Me. She has nothing to do with it. All the blame is mine

>>33418093
And no im not okay i fucked up with the girl of my Dreams because I was an obnoxious overly emotional drunken fucking mess . Im not recovering im getting worse

>>33418163
I kept exercising, and kept feeling worse. And then just felt dead. I look so terrible now. The body cam atrophy so rapidly if you do nothing.

>>33418165
>>33418164
Recover

>>33418020
Nah we don't really have much of a romance culture. It's not your fault. Good job developing some aspect of yourself. Try learning sheet music and math and a language on duolingo too maybe for fun if you have time.

>>33418198
I haven't left my house in 7 months and no longer talk to my lifelong friends as well

>>33418203
Well get better

>>33418203
They'll probably come back in a few years tops unless you're all really stubborn.

>>33418201
There is romance. Im just socially inept
>>33418207
Okay if I decide I deserve that one day
>>33418208
Who knows

>>33418161
Why are you acting like you know me? We've only spoken a few times and we don't have a past. We won't have a future either.

Typical Latina in the Midwest experience: she's emotionally unavailable, rebels against any male instruction because her dad was way too strict, high body count because she has low self esteem and craves validation, slept with at least one drug dealer to get money/drugs, thinks she is the prize and deserves to be spoiled, unable to have a healthy relationship because her parents had a horrible one, doesn't understand how to be a good partner because she is too self absorbed

lately, I just haven't been feeling emotions but I still experience them, it's very bizarre I don't feel any more stressed out or depressed more then usual it's been like this for months now, even actual physical pain feels very dull too, I'm not really sure if I'm having some sort of mental breakdown or there's some health problem because it doesn't feel like I'm distressed by it because I can still tell when I'm stressed but I don't feel it the same way I used to.

am I just burnt out?