How do I cope with the fact that I will die alone? Seeing couples IRL hurts me, and I feel like porn just makes it worse but I can't stop using it.

>>33414513 (OP)
>How do I cope with the fact that I will die alone?
by using the same coping mechanisms that everyone else uses: masturbate, play video games, smoke weed, watch a movie, build a toy model, scroll 4chan, watch tiktok, whatever hits your dopamine receptors hard works
your ""issue"" is not original, a tale as old as the history of humankind, plenty of great literature written about it, being an incel is just a state of mind, it's all in your head

>>33414537
>masturbate
That's one of the things I'm trying to quit.

>>33414513 (OP)
>Fact
Not a fact
>Cant stop using it
Yes you can

Challenge your thinking and push yourself to improve anon. Cmon. Forgive yourself for the wasted time and failures and try to connect with yourself. Help yourself and root for yourself and try to move forward, one step at a time.

>>33414513 (OP)
>How do I cope with the fact that I will die alone?
With a smile on your face.
As long as you're doing whats right, you have nothing to worry about, you have no reason to feel indifference.
Quitting porn is extremely hard, but not impossible, what's harder is not engaging in lustful thoughts even mentally, but once can hope to overcome this through prayer.
There are millions of people like you, millions who are morally, spiritually and psychologically shattered, like you and me, but you will not see the one who will give you a new life if your whole existance is fulfilling that life of getting sexually satisfied.
>“Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

>>33414513 (OP)
I won't read threads that start with a foregone conclusion.

>>33414597
Thanks, I've been trying. Managed to last a week without it, which isn't much, but considered how addicted I am, it's a huge step.
>>33414606
I'm really trying... the urges are the worst. Pushing the thoughts away with something else worked pretty well, but the urges...
How are you doing?
>>33414680
The "alone" part is true, nothing I can do about it at this point.

>>33414680
nigger faggot kys

>>33414513 (OP)
>How do I cope with the fact that I will die alone?
What makes you think that this is the case, anon?

>>33414785
I'm undesirable to women. I just wanna get rid of the "need" to be with someone.

Getting older helps. I'm assuming you're in your early 20s or something, it naturally starts to become less of a bother in your 30s. Survive until then and you'll be fine. Try your best to not even look in the direction of women outside, you'll avoid certain "triggers" that will set you off

>>33415217
>I'm undesirable to women.
I guarantee you're not that undesirable and that there are things you can change about yourself.

>>33415534
It honestly feels 100 times worse in my 30s than it does in my 20s. There's so much shame and self-hatred. The thought of being so far behind and inexperienced at this age. I even own a house and make good money but it doesn't matter
t. 34 year old virgin

>>33416212
First of all, it does matter that you have those things, anon, and second, you're not "behind." I didn't date from high school until I was 27, and then after that I didn't date other than to get laid, and it was shitty and I slept with women that I didn't even like just for the gratification. I'm the same age as you. You know what you need to socially develop? Nothing. That shit is inside you already. You already know how to talk to people. Women are people, so start talking to them and realize that it's not over until you die. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, you fucking pussy.

>>33416212
While not a virgin, I'm 32 and single. I have my parents and only like 2 good friends. Unfortunately many many men are now experiencing high levels of loneliness, and while being a virgin a 34 is uncommon, it's becoming less so. What I'm getting at, is you are not alone in you struggles, but you cannot become someone who wallows in them. There will be no guarantee of getting you a gf or anything like that, but I can guarantee your life will become better as you shed yourself of bad habits, engage in self-care and self-improvement, and put yourself in situations that scare you.

For example, in the past month, I've flushed most of my drugs, quit porn (hope I can keep it that way), forced myself out of the house and to events (movie festivals, live music, etc.), and am finally learning to drive (lifetime phobia). All of these things hurt, all of these things take constant effort, but compared to just a month ago, I am living more, and enjoying more of what I have.

Of the couples I do know, the vast majority pretty much only have each-other, and are themselves still wracked by loneliness. One of my good friends is in such a state right now, and confided his depression to me about a week ago. A gf will not cure your depression, as it has not cured his. Instead, little by little, strive to better yourself and connect to people of all types. Give love to others in small ways, even through the common courtesies of daily life, and also, you must begin to forgive and love yourself.

I'll say three Hail Mary's for you.

>>33416249
I really don't think it matters. It doesn't make me feel any better about myself because deep down I know I'm inferior. And yes I am massively behind. I have no idea how to talk or connect with people. I have 0 friends. Any time I try to talk with people it goes nowhere. I just seem to make people uncomfortable or I'm just too socially retarded to achieve anything. At work everything is surface level and doesn't matter. I don't talk to my co-workers unless I absolutely have to. I'm 5'5 as well and not very attractive so I have 0 confidence in myself

>>33414513 (OP)
>I'll die alone... because I just will, okay?
Stop speaking in absolutes first OP, extremes never help in any circumstance. It's not like you'll know what the future will have in store for you but when you act like it's over then it will INDEED be over. Loved ones don't arrive on a silver platter, you have to work for it and make that shit yourself like a man.

>>33416345
>Hail Mary's
Hail Marys*
It's been a long day, my orthography is slipping.

listen to Purple Mountains by David Berman
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2y5msfAClU

>>33416345
I try to self-improve but constantly fail. Nothing I try to do makes me feel better about myself. I have so much anxiety around people I find it impossible to leave my house. I can't even try and walk down the street. I just feel more and more hopeless as I get older. I have no hope for myself and I'm very suicidal. I don't have anyone really I'm completely isolated. I own guns and it's honestly so tempting to blow my head off and know I can end it all in 5 seconds

>>33416357
>I know I'm inferior.
How do you know this? Have people told you? You have objective facts to back this up? Or are you just coping because you won't try?
>I have no idea how to talk or connect with people. I have 0 friends. Any time I try to talk with people it goes nowhere.
Then keep doing it, anon. I'm the same age as you, probably far more sheltered and I even had a phase where I locked myself in my room for almost a year. I know what it's like not to have social skills, but you aren't going to get them hiding away at home or at work. You need to get out there. This is also for your own good. You will make friends, and you will get a woman. This is something every single one of your ancestors achieved, and you aren't going to be the exception unless you let yourself become that. I'm not saying you're going to get a 10/10 18 y/o virgin that does ass to mouth. That's not it, anon, but you can get someone, and you can definitely make friends. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. There are guys uglier and shorter than you with tons of friends and girlfriends. What do they have that you don't have? Experience. So go out and start grinding, you fucking faggot. Even if you never get a gf, you will make friends, and I assure you that your existence will be less lonely.

>>33416512
>I try to self-improve but constantly fail.
Self-improvement is never a one time thing, it cannot be "failed" or "succeeded" in a typical, discrete period of time. Rather it is a habit, process, and discipline. Every other day I must still go to the gym, everyday I must fast despite the protests of my stomach, everyday I avert my eyes from the libidinal. I have not "succeeded" in these things, there are no trophies on my shelf for them, like a finished race, because the race will never be over. Instead I have only made them routine. When I fail at some moment to hold to that routine, I do not abandon the whole thing. I single missed day of the gym will not invalidate my progress. Instead, the next day we pick the habit back up and return to the path.
>Nothing I try to do makes me feel better about myself.
It is unfortunate, but appreciation of what one has, and self love, are themselves disciplines to be kept. These too must be maintained.
>I have so much anxiety around people I find it impossible to leave my house. I can't even try and walk down the street.
I'd like you to try and take a walk. At the moment of pain, dwell on it for a second, then try and push through. Tell your legs to keep moving. You may not succeed the first time, but it will get easier in a sense. You will become more comfortable with the uncomfortable, which, again, is a habit to be tended and maintained for ever.

As for the rest, I grieve for your pain, but you must face it.