>>33437274 (OP)
Saw your thread today, just got a chance to reply.
>Still not sure if it’s the right choice, but since everything’s already fucked, I’m doing it anyway.
You already know it's not the right thing to abort. You deeply know in the depths of your being that it's not what's right. You are only struggling to confirm this because you are focused on what is easy. An abortion is the easy way out. It's easy and is over with in a day plus a week or two of shaking off after effects. Vs. 9 months of pregnancy + raising a life from nothing.
So you feel every temptation to abort, especially because you are alone and struggling. No shit you feel tempted to abort. Anyone would in your shoes.
But that doesn't mean you should abort. Especially because you know the hard thing is the best thing to do. Because it forces you to be responsible and take care of a child. It forces you to push through hard pain to endure and find a way to thrive. It forces you to start caring about yourself so that you have the means to care for something that isn't (you). Only good can come of that. Even though it's hard, it will add to your life, not take things away.
Those who tell you to abort don't believe in you. They don't believe you can make something good of yourself and for the kid. Is that what you truly wish to believe of yourself? Especially since there's so many ways to care for a child?
Think about it. People can afford multiple subscriptions for Netflix, YouTube, gaming apps, fast food. Pure soulless shit. Yet some of these same people tell you to abort, that you cannot afford $50 - 100 a month for a baby? (Yes, that's how little it can cost if you shop wisely).
You can be a mother and a half decent one too, nothing is stopping you. And if you can't believe that of yourself, let the baby prove it to you when it looks to you and smiles at seeing their mothers face. Because to that baby, you are the most important person in its life.