Thread 33463091

me and my boyfriend have been together now for almost a year, but due to my sheer social retardness that about 5 years before we started even speaking regularly I knew his full address, every single social of his and his family, all of his family by name, his hobbies, every one of his friends, all of his interests and medical history and used to follow him home semi-regularly when he got off the bus? I fear he’s going to ask me someday when I started liking him and I fear I won’t be able to keep it secret much longer just how much I knew about his life beforehand. Every time he introduces me to a family member I have to act like I don’t know a ridiculous amount about them and every time he shows me an old picture I have to pretend like I haven’t already seen it millions of times. I don’t even know if this really counts as ‘stalking’ since ive heard a lot of other women do get really into looking through their crush’s socials and stuff, but I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to tell him about how often I used to find out where he was going or follow him home since that does seem slightly more intimidating. I also don’t know if I should ever tell him I curated myself to be exactly his type physically or found my way into the lives of his friends and family before speaking to him just to get closer in proximity. Am I that much of a freak for this? Do other people act the same way when they like someone? Am I fucking stupid for considering bringing it up and would he break up with me because of it? I don’t know if I’m risking too much by saying anything

>>33463091 (OP)
>Should I ever tell my long term boyfriend that I stalked him for years
Sry didnt read the whole paregrph. long story short: if you want to be his partner for really long time you better be honest no matter how much it hurts.

>>33463091 (OP)
you're a girl, and for some reason it's ok for girls to be complete psychos so no, none of this should be a big deal at all. If he's cool then he'll think it's cute and like you even more for it. If he doesn't like it, well then you just did all that for someone that doesn't even like you. For no reason. Just make sure whoever this guy is he's worth all that cause it'll really hurt if he doesn't like you the same and you realize you did all that for no nothing. Be with someone who acts like that for you, or someone who doesn't make you literally stalk them for years just to prove that you like them.

"I had a secret crush on you for years"
And leave it at that.

>>33463118
he does love me a lot and has not treated me badly at all since we’ve been together. Hes talked pretty often about the idea of marrying me some day and having children, so I’d be under the assumption he’d let a few things slide if it meant staying together. He’s very introverted and from a completely seperate circle of people to me, hence why we didn’t speak at all before the last year. I think it might be worth the risk in saying if it means he doesn’t discover this years down the line. Thanks anon

>>33463091 (OP)
The biggest problem will be that you simply cannot handle, on a basic neuro-biological level, the possibility of him not liking you.
Given that, it's better to lie than take the chance.

>>33463091 (OP)
i wouldn't believe this because it sounds so insane but just today at work i had a girl tell me she found my address because i didn't clear the timeclock after i clocked out and she saw my last name on there and googled me, yeah you should tell him. some people would probably find it endearing

>>33463091 (OP)
I am also an autistic e-stalker so I understand. From my perspective as a man, I dont think this would turn me off. But Im not sure if its simply because I also have these traits. It would probably make me like you more. If your guy is a normie probably best to leave it vague

Hahaha, no worries girl, I have a "crush" or at least a boy from whom I crave attention from I know all his social media, and a lot of other stuff blah blah blah it's actually very common that girls get obsessed it's just that almost nobody talk about it

>>33463091 (OP)
that's so fucking hot

>>33463091 (OP)
>Am I that much of a freak for this?
Yes.
>Do other people act the same way when they like someone?
No.
>Am I fucking stupid for considering bringing it up
Yes.
>and would he break up with me because of it?
Yes.
>I don’t know if I’m risking too much by saying anything
Yes.

But honestly, he'll eventually figure out how insane you are and dump you anyway, so maybe you should accelerate the process?

>>33463091 (OP)
He will probably find it hot

>>33463091 (OP)
This shit is only sweet and impressive to a guy if you’re the first girl to do that to him. But if he’s dealt with stalker insane psycho girls before, he wont like it. He’ll immediately bail.

>>33463091 (OP)
>Am I that much of a freak for this?

In my opinion, no. It’s predatory behaviour. But that’s life. Humans come in two forms: Prey and predator. Prey humans are domesticated, fully socialised, completely oblivious. Predators, like you, you’re not so domesticated. Partly or fully unsocialised. You weren’t raised, you were dragged up. You developed cunning and you developed foresight, you developed a predator’s mind. And naturally, you are attracted to your opposite, the prey. Your man. Opposites attract and all that.

So long as you use those predatory skills for his benefit, his safety, his well-being, and you serve him faithfully out of love, then its fine. Dont be abusive or crazy or search for anyone else. You got your prize now, so hang up the predatory mindset and settle down.

>>33463091 (OP)
where do I find a batshit insane gf?

You are so real for that! Literally any guy I have EVER liked I literally stalked, both online and in person, some of them got creeped out and left me :< but i say dont just dump it all on him at once.. just like slowly ease the details in! Best of luck to uu :3

>>33463091 (OP)
Just tell him:
"I'm a girl. I'm wearing girls clothes and I'm taking pills to turn me into a girl
And now I'm growing breasts
When did my penis fall off and now I have a pussy?
It used to be I had a cock and I could stand up when I pissed
Not anymore, not if the democrats have their way.
What is going on?
Imagine you're peeing and your penis falls off and then you have to sit down to finish the pee, sounds crazy? Nope. It's real. Happened to me this morning.
Don't believe me? Take a look"

>>33468059
damn I can't believe OP stalked a guy and trooned out to date him

>>33463091 (OP)
Yeah I'm not reading all alla dat

>>33463091 (OP)
I stalked mine for 3years and he got a gf the same time I was going approach him lmao TAKE THE WIN FOR THE GIRLIES.

>>33468059
Schizoposting I see I see

>>33469860
that sucks ass oml, keeping this going as long as possible in honour

>>33468002
Look behind you

>>33463091 (OP)
yeah who cares

women are women and are celebrated for being such

no one cares about men genuinely

>>33463091 (OP)
>Should I ever tell my long term boyfriend that I stalked him for years
I am not reading the rest of the post.
If it weighs heavily on you and you feel as though you need to do it then do it.
However, it is fucking weird. I would probably leave you (assuming your boyfriend isnt a complete loser).

I encourage you not to do things like this because the best part about being with someone you love is learning things about them from them. There's so many things I want to share with my person but I have not because I want to do it in person and it's the same with knowing things about her because I want to hear them from her

Tldr either but like

The hell was so good about him?
Ur a loser

If ur unable to tell him then
Ain't real love buv

Surely he's a boring fuck now that you're with him rite, his grand mystical appeal all gone once u actually get to know him
Sounds easy af, How'd U even infiltrate and engineer or whatever to become his gf? How'd it do? Tell us the story

He sounds like a mad NPC putting his whole ass stupid life details online, even his medical history lol? Maybe you should've stalked someone better