Biggest issue 2014 (and earlier) = not being at same table as friends; parents being strict Asian controlling parents who don't give me password to iPad and make me play piano and do Chinese HW; wanting independence

Biggest issue 2015 = not being in same class as friends; parents

Biggest issue 2016 = getting expelled from middle school for being too tarded; parents

Biggest issue 2017-2018 = being the only smart Asian kid in tard school with dumb curriculum and 0 electives

Biggest issue 2019 = adjusting back to regular school for HS, including making friends and even getting GF; not seeming like a failure

Biggest issue 2020 = not only COVID, but covidian parents (for context they once forced me to wear a mask on a HIKING TRAIL)

Biggest issue 2021 = COVID; college prep

Biggest issue 2022 = college prep; getting GF; adjusting to college

Biggest issue 2023 = adjusting to college; body dysmorphia; getting GF; applying to internships

Biggest issue 2024 = coursework; applying to internships; not seeming like a failure

Biggest issue 2025 = applying to internships and then FT jobs; wanting independence; power tripping parents who want to restrain me and ruin my life; not seeming like a failure

Economy-wise, things look so shit. Not gonna "live in the high-tech city" like I've often thought of doing, with how sky high rent is these days. Feel like ANY job is out of reach, even "QA tester in bumfuck nowhere transportation agency". I land interviews, but none convert.

I wanted to travel to Europe or Japan instead of my parents lugging me to China or Maryland.

I wanted to marry, have kids, buy an actual house rather than some townhouse, and join a country club to become a wine dad.

I'm Chinese, too, which makes me feel like I don't deserve any of this. Sorry if I'm being too negative, but the longer life goes on the less hope I retain. I feel like I'm about to break down.

You're too young for the hopeless phase
You can still travel to those places
You need to put more effort into relationships and dating if you want results there
As you get older the stakes get higher, which makes things feel harder. However you successes also begin to stack and cascade. Be sure to not discount what you have in life. A townhouse is still great. An education. A supportive family, trips to China.
Keep buildinv towards things, skills etc that will add to your life over time and help offset accumulated negatives.

>>33463741 (OP)
AI post.

>>33463741 (OP)
you just left college you haven't even started really living yet what lol welcome to reality buddy

I just feel that everyone I compete with is better than me.

They get the jobs, I get the rejections.

They get the nice apartment vouchers, I get the shitty apartment vouchers.

They get the girlfriends, I get Mr. Sock.

They get the fraternity bids, I get like 2-3 Chinese Christian groups.

They get the Paris and Rome vacations, I get Niagara Falls and some bumfuck fishing village in China that claims to have invented the upright piano or something.

They get to live on their own in shitty frat houses or glitzy apartments, I get the "privilege" of commuting an hour in my dad's brown 2009 minivan.

They feast on roast beef Wellington, I feast on cabbage and potatoes.

They get chocolate bars, I get a rock.

>>33464085
You could literally kill me and put a bot in my place and no one would miss my soul.

(And before you sell your religion and evangelism to me, lemme tell you I'm a fag.)

>>33464197
Also, I still have one more year left of college. But it's gonna be a really depressing one.

I could've lived in this cool frathouse with cool white kids, and at least drunk / partied my sorrows away to cope, if my parents hadn't royally fucked over my life.

And it hurts that I feel as if I'm the same or even worse compared to myself last year. Last year I was dreading an impending internship grind, fearing every company whose programs I applied to would toss me out the window. I had thought I'd be more prepared compared to the year before since I had more experience, and I actually did get a few interviews in, but sadly none panned out.

And this year (a fall co-op grind proving equally humiliating) I'm too old for most internships actually. I have to apply to full-time or new-grad jobs, and if internships were this challenging, full-time is going to be an absolute bloodbath.

Job-finding literally makes me feel like one of those Asian kids from those old videos of the British royal family visiting Asia and throwing pennies at them like they would seeds to sparrows.

To be honest I'm starting to despise CS, SWE, coding projects, and everything. The bar is so fucking high and literally everyone else is better than me. AI doesn't lower the bar, it raises it, now you have to be better than the AI at everything, and I am NOT better than the AI at everything. I hate this, I really fucking hate it. All I want is to be able to afford my own life and place to live, and make some money, and work in an office.

I've heard other countries might have things a bit better, and that's why so many losers run to Japan and Thailand. I actually know someone 1 year older than me in my school who's using money he accumulated from a retail job of several years to book it to Japan. But I'm not sure my parents would even let me. I'm too financially dependent on them to cut them off, and they sure know it. They even talked me out of studying abroad.

I fucking hate everything.

>money and career
Join the military

>>33464589
>I'm too old for most internships actually
this isn't a real thing

>>33466466
Lmao fuck off, there was a reddit thread about it literally today
https://old.reddit.com/r/cscareerquestions/comments/1mj9cjj/is_it_too_late_to_do_internships_after_graduating/

>>33466897
That guy is from India and in a completely different school/job placement system than you in the US. Nobody is too old for internships. I got one after finishing undergrad at 26 at a startup. Also that subreddit is negative and retarded.

>>33467063
Yes, it and r/CsMajors are retarded, but not in the way you think.

The advice given there is oftentimes too optimistic, actually.

Also, I think you missed the part where someone clarified they were referring to the US:
>It’s possible there are some rare edge cases that I am personally unaware of, but at least in the United States the answer is yes, it is too late. An engineer in India would probably have a better, more informed take on your local situation.
>The reason for this is that the entire purpose of internships is to capture the graduating class of top engineering schools. They want those students to apply to their company. That’s why they give them internships. Once the student has graduated, there’s no more reason for an internship.
>Internships in tech are different from in other fields, where the purpose of an internship is to bring on an inexperienced hire you will train in exchange for low cost labor. You aren’t trained in anything with a tech internship, you’re just doing the actual job. Many interns command what are effectively six figure salaries.

>startup
Those don't fucking count. Unless it's one of those super hyper Y-Combinator seed money startups, and landing something at one of those is oftentimes even more difficult than landing something at FAANG (whether intern or full-time).

Now if you graduated 2023 or earlier, things might be a little better for you. Lucky you. But I'm graduating next year. I've sometimes contemplated delaying graduation so I can have one last shot, but it'd be a really high-cost endeavor, and what if I fail to pan something out even then?

I know there's also grad school. But how am I to convince some grad school to take me in for some data science or machine learning program? I have 0 research portfolio. To the profs of the classes I've taken, I'm just another name on the roster. If I struggle landing undergrad research I'll def struggle grad school. And again, what if THAT doesn't land me anything?

>>33466317
Alas I'm too autistic to. You can't join the military if you're autistic

>>33466466
>>33467063
Yes it is... look at almost any internship application on job boards, the next season of recruiting is kicking off again so there are a bunch of them

And this whole shit might even be moot, since even with versions of my resume I've tried fudging my grad date on with a generic "2026" instead of specifying a season, I keep getting auto-rejections, nary a single opportunity to speak to a real human.

Maybe I should just kms quickly and painlessly. A future where I'm forced to work behind a shop counter, mopping between store aisles, or waiting tables in a restaurant for pennies while living with my parents seems like a truly awful, but realistic one to me. I evidently offer very little value to the world, and no one would miss me. My bus factor is 0.00.

In fact, I'm pretty sure so many people I know hate me so much that I offer negative net value to the world. If I vanish things could actually improve.

>>33468729
>Yes it is... look at almost any internship application on job boards, the next season of recruiting is kicking off again so there are a bunch of them
I'm literally late 30s and doing a summer tech internship right now, retard. there might be some that have age limits but there are more than enough to find one for older people than 20-21

>>33467446
>Also, I think you missed the part where someone clarified they were referring to the US:
>>It’s possible there are some rare edge cases that I am personally unaware of, but at least in the United States the answer is yes, it is too late. An engineer in India would probably have a better, more informed take on your local situation.
>>The reason for this is that the entire purpose of internships is to capture the graduating class of top engineering schools. They want those students to apply to their company. That’s why they give them internships. Once the student has graduated, there’s no more reason for an internship.
you can be any age and in a bachelor's degree program and totally appropriate for internships

>>33469154
Retard

By aging out I mean being too far in my degree, next year will be my last year in my bach program

>>33469158
I've worked internships that i didn't meet the gpa they asked for and wasn't the right year for. none of it matters unless you're obsessed with overinterpreting the letter of the law so you can feel doomed about it

>>33464554
You can be a fag and a christian at the same time. You just have to stop pounding your poopy anus and sucking on male genitals.

>>33469237
You clearly haven't graduated 2023 or later. Maybe that was your experience, but not mine. It's gotten really rough out there. These days you literally have to be the perfect candidate to even have a 5% chance of passing the fucking resume screen. You could send out hundreds of resumes for all sorts of roles, and still manage to get no or single-digit responses.

And on the rare occasions you DO get a response, you'd have to go through what could be several rounds of interviews, involving lots of leetcoding and lots of explaining. You basically have to show HR and corpo that you're the best person out of the 20 or so applicants who do make it to the interview round.

Apparently it wasn't always this awful due to COVID-era overhiring and field saturation. But now it pretty much is.

SWE or SWE-adjacent, FAANG or nobody, Fortune 100 or Fortune 1000, local or 10 states away. Doesn't matter, they all think you're unqualified and worthless.

Which I effectively am, no matter how much all the Pollyanna retards in my life (including in this fucking thread) try to convince me otherwise of. Platitudes don't matter when you have an idiotic conservative family to escape, food to eat, and bills to pay.

>>33469325
And become a repressed normie volcel the rest of my life? Sounds like a fucking depressing way to live. If you want me to join a monastery or something I'd rather kms. Religion can fuck off.

There was one guy in another thread I made a while back griping about my mom, who was trying to sell me Buddhism or some shit. Hope he doesn't read this lol.

Oh yeah almost forgot the government in every country is actively trying to implement internet censorship

I fucking HATE this timeline

I wonder if this is a Chinese parent thing or me being a cuck

Not this retard again

Didn't read but

Go get a job at McD's you fagtard whitey wannabe office cuckery worshipper so you can finally stop leeching off your pare-pares.

>>33474578
Nice name btw

>>33473797
U being a cuck

>>33474578
literally elliot rodger vibes

>>33463741 (OP)
I feel like every year someone will make an excuse to why they've not done anything.

Get a grip.