>>33472368Nta here but it doesn't work like that. When Jesus shunned the Pharisees for blaspheming the holy spirit, this was during the time when they were claiming he was a prophet of satan and he was exorcising demons with the power of satan. They failed to change their hearts or realized the error of their ways.
The fact you DO recognize that means you're not beyond saving, your heart isn't fully hardened yet so don't lose hope :)