How badly did I fuck up, is it over?
I don't even know what kind of advice I could get for this, but I need to say it somewhere, and I don't like airing out relationship issues with personal friends or family, but I am just going nuts in my own mind right now, it feels so dramatic and so pathetic.
I started dating a girl about half a year ago, up until this point I haven't dated in well over 10 years and I was fine with that, I had no interest in dating but she approached me, romantically interested, I resisted at first but eventually she pulled me in and I had some of the best months of my life, it all seemed to happen so soon but I genuinely fell in love with her in a way I never expected to feel again in my life.
Things were going fine until she suddenly started to change up a bit, nothing drastic or drama but the affection from her definitely began to feel like it was waning, which I get is normal, the honeymoon phase and all that, logically I am aware of that but emotionally it made me really concerned, I became hyper sensitive to things she said or did (or didn't do) and I would bring them up. We are very good at communicating with each other and promised to always be up front if we were having issues. This is a double edged sword because perhaps I should have just swallowed some shit and went through it. Over the last month we've been having lots of heated/emotionally discussions, nothing cruel, no big blow type things, but definitely emotionally tense. A lot of things she said to be early in the relationship she began to go back on, I began to become very jealous of her relationship with her male best friend, feeling like he was getting more attention than me.
About a day ago we had another emotional talk, and it ended with her essentially going "Everything you're saying is fair, I would also be upset if I were in your shoes, but I'm starting to think I am just not cut out for relationships" and....
I started dating a girl about half a year ago, up until this point I haven't dated in well over 10 years and I was fine with that, I had no interest in dating but she approached me, romantically interested, I resisted at first but eventually she pulled me in and I had some of the best months of my life, it all seemed to happen so soon but I genuinely fell in love with her in a way I never expected to feel again in my life.
Things were going fine until she suddenly started to change up a bit, nothing drastic or drama but the affection from her definitely began to feel like it was waning, which I get is normal, the honeymoon phase and all that, logically I am aware of that but emotionally it made me really concerned, I became hyper sensitive to things she said or did (or didn't do) and I would bring them up. We are very good at communicating with each other and promised to always be up front if we were having issues. This is a double edged sword because perhaps I should have just swallowed some shit and went through it. Over the last month we've been having lots of heated/emotionally discussions, nothing cruel, no big blow type things, but definitely emotionally tense. A lot of things she said to be early in the relationship she began to go back on, I began to become very jealous of her relationship with her male best friend, feeling like he was getting more attention than me.
About a day ago we had another emotional talk, and it ended with her essentially going "Everything you're saying is fair, I would also be upset if I were in your shoes, but I'm starting to think I am just not cut out for relationships" and....