Thread 33487747

any advice for someone who just hates life in general to the point of wanting to commit suicide :(

>>33487747 (OP)
I'm in the same mental place right now. I have strong belief this suicide is only hated because people have to clean up after the dead body, something literally no one wants to deal with. Calling it chicken shit, or whatever is not very effective. What actually does help make the feeling go away from me is introspection about why they're present in the first place, these feelings. Recently I discovered I was afraid of women because at a very young age my big brother sexually assaulted me, and since then I had developed a behaviour which made me the way I am. And after realising the fact I started to remind myself I'm safe now, it's not dangerous, I can do what I want. My life is a complete mess, but for now it's easy to breath and try to get myself together.

>>33487747 (OP)
Read Boundless by Ben Greenfield and do everything in the book.

>>33487791
>self help
im just going to fucking kill myself, fuck it.

>>33487794
It's not Tony Robbins shit. It's just a list of health practices that change your brain.

>>33487747 (OP)
I hope anons that say stuff like this either just weather the storm (it does get better trust me) or swallow their pride and take ssri. But if they really want to just rope please murder some politician pieces of shit or lobbyists or anyone like that. It would really redeem you in the eyes of God

>>33487747 (OP)
pity bump

Commit suicide by doing an intense workout and going through a therapy session and taking your medication, and you'd be like, "oh my depressive side died so now my happy side is alive."

>>33487747 (OP)
Kind of related to this topic. I've fucked my life up big time recently. Fucked a 17 year old (consent is 16 in my state but this is socially irrelevant) and now I'm basically a pariah in my immediate social circle. The only saving grace here is that I have literally zero social media presence my entire life and practically no pictures of me exist. If you looked me up you couldn't find anything on me, visually at least. If I move to another state and basically start over I can almost certainly "reset" my life without having to deal with this forever right?

>>33490797
Anon i have done that stuff many times prior, it doesnt help, are you even human?? NONE OF THAT HELPS!!

>>33487747 (OP)
Kill the man you are now by changing your habits, mindset and your ways. It's a slow death, but the good ones usually are.

I wanted to die when I was in my teens, any that version of me is dead now. I got into better shape, cut back on drinking, met a nice girl, put myself through school and made a serious effort to be the kind of person I wished would have helped me, rather than the person I was who needed that help.

It's the best death I can think of honestly.

>>33490826
But i already have all the habits i want man. I read, i excersise, i work, its not helping. Nothing is helping

I find just being easy on myself helps
most of my problems are either internal in the sense of internalized expectations of others, sometimes these are just my presumptions or perceived pressure that may not even be real, and even if they were, why should i give a fuck? but i DO, or external in the sense of being around people I dont like or things that piss me off - so not being around people is typically good
just taking it easy and thinking 'yeah, i'm going to just chill and sleep' is good for me
similarly, telling myself 'I decide to do this' whatever it is has helped me massively - whether thats being on 4chan, watching porn, smoking, alcohol, drugs, being lazy, whatever - just saying 'I choose to do this' makes life easier, I don't feel bad for any of those things any more because I choose to do them, likewise if I choose to not do something it is my choice and not some external force
avoiding binging laptop, phone, tv is typically good for me
st johns wort has helped me i think, so has mirtazapine, neither do i take regularly
going on a hike and just sleeping somewhere quiet and nice
cultivating plants or mushrooms or coding or making music or a language but only as a hobby/ something to do/ fun is good
basically less pressure = good
suicidal thoughts for me are all to do with the pressure of life, finding everything too much and wanting it to be over, but really there are some things that are nice and enjoyable, like bananas or maple syrup, or the smell of roses or jasmine, or growing mushrooms, or good music, or 'getting' something like a concept or a trick

>>33487747 (OP)
if you do it nobody will care. I found a hanger once, people who knew him and the police joked all the time while he was being pulled down

>>33490948
i already dont care about others opinions. Its not that. I dont feel guilt from rest, i just dont like it at all, any part of life. I want out. I dont find anything interesting not plants nor animala, nothing in nature, i dont like real things or objects or creatures, none of them, i HATE them, fuck, i cant help it, I HATE PLANTS AND ANIMALS AND NATURE, FUCK I HATE LOOKING AT THE SKY, I HATE IT ALL

>>33490955
Ok? Why do you think i care weather people care or not? Are you stupid? You may asa well post
>Hey! If you kill yourself, ILL PAINT MY CAR BLUE!!!
Like...what? Huh? So what? that makes no sense, what are you saying?

>>33490829
But do you exercise properly? Most of the people I see go to the gym just fuck around for a bit, aimlessly doing whatever exercise they feel like and at whatever weight feels good in the moment. These guys progress extremely slowly to the point that they're basically wasting time.

It wasn't until I dialed in my nutrition and exercise plan and started seeing noticeable muscle gains that I began getting the mental benefits too. My anxiety and depression literally melted away and I became more confident. My testosterone levels also doubled from 350 -> 650 which is likely why I feel so much better now

>>33490965
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just saying, your overreaction is symptomatic though

>>33490974
>But do you exercise properly
ive literally fought and won in multiple boxing matches...
>>33490975
of what, of wanting to kill myself?

if you hate so much maybe you have a demon in you. real suiciders are more desperate than hateful. that demon would surely love to push you over the edge though

>>33490990
I dont beleive in any of that nonsense and if it is real then i should still kill myself because im ot living in a world with "possesion" thankfilly though i have more then 70 iq points so i dont be;eive in any of that shit

>>33490997
>suicide because I hate the sky
>me smart

ridiculous. do you even hear yourself?

>>33491005
Well anon, what am i supposed to do, pretend i dont hate the sky sun moon stars ect, no really, what do i do when i look down at this body and want to cry because im a human, a fucking animal. What am i supposed to do when i look at a tree and want to puke. Or when i look at a dog and want to smash its head with my foot because its moving, its hairy and its ugly. What do i do when i wake up and smash my head with my fists because i had a dream [i hate dreaming] and am now forced to live [i hate living]

>>33491024
you fast

>>33491024
Yeah you're mentally ill for sure, time to go to therapy or just suck it up and ropemaxxxx

>>33491026
I fasted many times throughout my life, dear god, its just MORE normie non advice. I fasted multiple times for 3 day periods and a few ties of two week periods, it didnt help me at all man

>>33491034
well therapy has made it worse all ten or so therapists i went to so fuck it, im going to have to just kill myself.

>>33491036
fast more. kill yourself by fasting

>>33491041
I......will, ok, fine, i will do that, ok.

>>33491040
Sounds right for you honestly. Some people just have fucked up brains if medication isn't helping put yourself out of your misery. You don't even sound like you have actual problems , you're brain is just borked.

>>33491046
yeah pretty much, i just cant help but fucking hate life lol

>>33487747 (OP)
>any advice for someone who just hates life in general to the point of wanting to commit suicide :(
Overdose of fentanyl injected directly into a vein.

>>33487747 (OP)
How old are you

>>33491067
24 now, why do you ask, my friend.

>>33490990
Not OP, but in a similar boat. How would I confirm that there's demonic influence?
I also have an incredible amount of hatred of myself, others, and the world as a general thing; to the point of having as much murderous fantasizing as I do suicidal ideation, both of which make up a plurality, and on some days majority, of my thoughts.

>>33491079
These thoughts either go away with the added responsibilities of adulthood, or get exponentially worse with age.
Got a job?

>>33491201
I cant work, i cant drive or pay bills and i have a learning disability with no education, literally cant work, also my grandpa shot himself and he had a family and was in the military so.......

>>33490829
What's missing? What made the void that eats at you? Lack of companionship? Lack of work fulfillment? No passions? Light me up man, when you can answer that you'll know why you're unhappy.

>>33491227
I look around at everything in life and feel uncontrolable disgust and hate. My body [which is fit, not fat or skinny] and i just WANT IT OFF. I look at animals and feel GROSS. I look at the sky and feel GROSS. I interact with others and feel nothing. I talk with anyone else, i dont care about them and i dont care if they care for me. I CANT care. I cant find anything i like. Food is too expensive. Sleep causes dreams, sometimes. Just pain pain pain gross gross gross bored bored bored... Why go through this when its clearly just not for me

>>33490984
>ive literally fought and won in multiple boxing matches...
You might have CTE, it's known to cause depression and erratic behavior

>>33490817
Gonna be hard for people to get over something like that, bit yeah over time people forget, don't know if you need to go to another state. If you did it would be easy to start over socially at least