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So I'm torn about this girl at work.
Most of the advice I got leans toward a cynical worldview where I just have to ask her out, deal with a no and move to the next one like it's a numbers game or something.
But it's not like that. It's a crush unlike any other. I haven't felt anything like this since high school. All the girls I've come across until now, I would think of them as pretty, prettier, great-looking but never considered going out of my way to chase them. But this is different. And I kept wondering myself why. What's so special about this girl? There wasn't anything overtly sexual that struck when I met her. I had to pick something from front desk and she was fumbling around trying to find it. Instead of being annoyed, I was mesmerized by her clumsiness, I know it doesn't make any sense. And there's more, her name. In high school, I had a crush whom I've never dared to ask out or tell her I like her. All those years I kept waiting for the perfect moment, but that moment never came. And now, after almost 20 years, guess what. The girl I like has the same name (first name, I mean) as my high school crush. So I keep thinking, what if it's fate ? What if this is a second chance and fate's way of telling me "don't screw up this time". What relevance has all this talk about signals, moving on when it's about fate ?
Most of the advice I got leans toward a cynical worldview where I just have to ask her out, deal with a no and move to the next one like it's a numbers game or something.
But it's not like that. It's a crush unlike any other. I haven't felt anything like this since high school. All the girls I've come across until now, I would think of them as pretty, prettier, great-looking but never considered going out of my way to chase them. But this is different. And I kept wondering myself why. What's so special about this girl? There wasn't anything overtly sexual that struck when I met her. I had to pick something from front desk and she was fumbling around trying to find it. Instead of being annoyed, I was mesmerized by her clumsiness, I know it doesn't make any sense. And there's more, her name. In high school, I had a crush whom I've never dared to ask out or tell her I like her. All those years I kept waiting for the perfect moment, but that moment never came. And now, after almost 20 years, guess what. The girl I like has the same name (first name, I mean) as my high school crush. So I keep thinking, what if it's fate ? What if this is a second chance and fate's way of telling me "don't screw up this time". What relevance has all this talk about signals, moving on when it's about fate ?
