If you keep finding reasons you can't do something, you are not trying to help yourself, you are unknowningly whining afraid of trying with what you have. If you are at the point people have given you the best advice you can get that is as though it is imprevious to tanks, you need to start relying on yourself from now on. There are people in this world who are more foolish than you who take responsibility for themselves knowing they got to try their best, and they do with less advice than you. My point is, now is the time to give yourself advice not bother people for advice.