Thread 33510319

I have a retarded hangup/obsession I have no clue how to get rid of:
>meet cute autistic NEET girl (literal diagnosed aspergers)
>I'm 28 she's 32, known her since I was 21 and she was 25
>she's the only female I've ever felt comfortable being myself around and confiding to
>develop huge crush on her
>she returns her feelings back
>after talking about past experiences, she admitted to drunkenly sleeping with two guys at 19
>says did so because she had a severe oneitis/crush on a dude who got a gf leading her to have an episode of sorts
>see one of the two guys, he is mad ugly and looks like a literal basedjak, I am objectively out of his league
>however still don't know the second guy, imagination starting to run wild that he's some turbo-chad railing her for some reason which makes me feel insane
>still love her and told her it was no big deal, I slept with one obese uggo at 22
>still can't get over it
I cannot tell if it's the fact that her "body count" is higher than me, or if she lost her virginity at a younger age or if its the fact my imagination is running wild. I fully acknowledge that I'm hypocritical and getting hung up over something potentially silly but cannot shake this feeling. I would give my life for her and she feels highly ashamed talking about those events. I know logically at her age she wouldn't have been a virgin but I was blindsided by the recent revelation. Anyway roast me if you would like I guess but not sure how to cope or process.

>>33510319 (OP)
It sounds like it is just a you being insecure thing. Can't be sure, but my guess is you secretly have some fear you're not good enough or that she'd leave you for this chad she slept with and it's driving you nuts. Anyway, way to deal with that is acknowledging that the line of thought is stupid and that she chose you and that you get to choose to be happy with her

>>33510319 (OP)
Someone only having had sex with 2 people is basically nothing and in your late 20s may as well be zero. You shouldn’t let this fuck things up for you. I have a best friend who was a virgin I think until he was like 28 or something and he had this delusion he could hold out for a “Virgin” but obviously at that age it wasn’t going to happen and I think he ended up losing it to some MILF like a decade older than him. So he was like late 20s and she was pushing 40 or something.
when I had my very first gf years and year ago, (this was in HS) I remember being all upset and shit that after we had sex I realized I had lost my virginity to someone but they weren’t a virgin and it was a whole thing that bugged me for a month or two and then I didn’t care anymore. I think I cared because I had some foolish idea that I would marry this person so everything had to be Disney tier perfect. Obviously that relationship didn’t ever last either so it wouldn’t have mattered anyway.


don’t get so hung up on it. Shit dude I have had sex with like 30 women or so maybe less but somewhere close to that and now I’m the one that is starting to worry if a woman finds out they might have a problem dating me because I have fucked to me other women. Supposedly the lifetime average of sex partners is less than a dozen. I have never used a dating website or anything and I wonder either those if the average for a woman for lifetime sex partners will be like 50 soon. Who fucking knows I hear it’s pretty’s bad now in the dating market.