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She didn't accuse me of that but I'm pretty sure she would dissociate during sex because she had a weird squeak noise like a broken toy that she would make and she limited us to once per day.
She completely ruined our relationship though, EVEN THOUGH SHE LOVED ME AND WENT INSANE WHEN IT ENDED. She just could not stop doing that would mess with my emotions and mind in ways I didn't even know possible. For example, did you know you can run out of emotion? It actually happened to me where I had no emotion whatsoever one day and I couldn't do anything. Apparently there was always a reserve of a small amount of emotion that I'd been using my whole life to take any sort of action physically, and I took it for granted. Well whatever that emotion tank is, it can go completely empty and that's what happens when it does. It was BIZARRE. I can't explain which sequence of messed up events caused that, but it happened