Thread 33523564

Zoomer thread for those who were in highschool during the covid years and how it affected you

Can’t speak for others but the 2020-2021 school year no one talked. Shit was depressing

>>33523564 (OP)
Probably would’ve ended up a loser neet regardless but being in school during that time didn’t help

I took my GED in 2018 so I was an adult by the time covid19 came around. Unfortunately my parents homeschooled me so I didn't get to enjoy my high school years anyway. They were extremely depressing and basically nothing happened. I was in lockdown before all of you. All I did was watch pornography, watch youtube, browse 4chan and obsessively listen to music. My early 20s were not much better but at least I worked for 3 out of those 5 years.

Things are looking better now but yeah now I have to contend with the fact that a decade of my life was for the most part marked by meaningless, aimless, purposeless suffering. You can't wait around for someone to save you, it never happens. Pretty much the only way anything good ever happens is if you make it happen.

>>33523564 (OP)
As someone who as online too much growing up was surreal watching peers who were previously very normie talk about things only the most terminally online used to know about

>>33523564 (OP)
it was honestly some of the best years of my life
I struggle with in person communication, and when in person classes went back I immediately ended up in a downward spiral that concluded with me basically getting kicked out/resigning from my high school and having to be homeschooled for my senior year

Lost last 2 years of hs right when I had my glow up. Went from skinny outcast to strong well liked guy. Did everything in my power to force my classmates to socialize, and made some good friends who I still hang with and check up on every once inna while. The isolation wasnt too different than what I had before, but I knew that it was unhealthy and that I had to work on myself so I just lifted as much as possible and spent a ton of time on forums. I went from 120lbs to 170lbs lean. When i got to college i was way behind academically compared to other kids my age. My school was small so I was at the top of my class but i barely learned anything the last 2 years of virtual slideshow classes. I already was having trouble with adhd but lockdown made it way worse. At least i got gains and learned how to take care of myself. I was already chronically online on here and IF so it was wierd watching people my age get the same way and go through all the same phases.

I'm 21, all but finished up college now, and I really feel like I've missed out profoundly on something. Still never dated, not part of a community, feel like I should've learned more, and it just feels like everything is stagnant.

Life was honestly starting to look up for me around 2019, since I got myself back into in person school after struggling mentally for a while. my junior year, got cut short because of COVID and my senior year as well (I was missing credits from previous years too) so I had to drop out. Really felt like a big fuck you from the universe, as soon as I made a really difficult decision for myself to go back to in person public school to develop socially, it all got shut down lol

Now I'm 22 and feel genuinely worthless as everyone else my age and even younger have stable jobs, cars, moved out of their parents house, and don't need someone to come and save them from a situation so horrible I can't escape it on my own

>>33523564 (OP)
If you were born post-2000, you are a faggot

Im stuck in a loop of uneasiness as long as I can remember. I do not have suicidal tendencies but sometimes I wish if I was not born and would be at peace in the complete nothingness.

Let's head back to grade 7. From grade 7 to 9 were probably the peak years of my school life. After that COVID came and all went down. I was the class representative, good in sports, good in academics, popular in my class. People wanted my attention & I thought all this was normal. Downfall started from the beginning of lockdown. Completely isolated. I didn't have any friends near my house. School was my only place for social interaction and personality growth. I became chronically online, exploring niche communities, making online friends, fapping daily etc etc. Now in Grade 12 when the new session started I started observing that no one was behaving the same way with me they behaving back then.

My health had also been down, skinny 6ft guy, looking like a complete loser. My belief system completely shattered and EVER SINCE I am not the same I was. I know that nostalgia is a scam and it wasn't all that good that I may think about the past but I wasn't so much in my head.

Hadn't had a girlfriend till now. The girls I used to ignore back then, even they had started treating me like shit.
Im always in search of a messiah now. Reading books, watching yt videos, asking suggestions/advices which will get me back to my happy self but now I've realised that I was chasing an illusion.

I've did and also doing so much. I have built a decent physique. Im smarter now. I read books. I meditate. Trying to do shadow work etc etc. but nothing seems to fill the void inside.

Im 20 now. In 3rd year of college. I have 4 backlogs (fucked up my college too). Now I'm always wondering how different things could've been. Im indulged in Maladaptive Daydreaming, Overthinking, self hating, perfectionism, & what not. Been trying to quit this victim mentality too but nothing seems to help.

i was a pretty extroverted kid and didnt spend much time online only really when playing video games with my brother or friends from school. i was also pretty good at a sport and i would have practices almost everyday so i was outside most days even after school but then during covid i got real lazy and stuck with a small group of friends who did everything online even after covid so i didnt go out much and never made many new friends. now im lazy and my life is so boring i daydream for fun. finished high school last year and took a gap year and no idea what i wanna do

>>33523564 (OP)
I'm glad I was isolated as it really made me quit my porn addiction thx to me getting blackpilled on female nature. God I wish I was blackpilled early on so I could've concentrated on shit that matters rather than on crap like gayme, simping, improoooving to impress women or any other gay stuff because it simply doesn't work on sub 6'2 subhumans like me. Incel revolution is the only solution for folks of my kind and I wish I had known about the incel phenomenon & the blackpill when I was in middleschool

>>33528420
hope you get shot you incel loser

>>33528502
let's hope you don't get raped to death for partaking in the genetic genocide of millions if not billions of men from the genepool

This thread makes me feel old as fuck. I was born in 1986.

>>33529259
lmao unc

>>33523564 (OP)
>were in high school during the covid
you lost nothing, zoomerfag, stop romanticizing the narrative

I was gonna ask the girl that was flirting with me out on a date the week lockdown started