I gooned to femboy porn again and I hate myself. There's an absolute dearth of quality content, and in browsing for something having some semblance of quality I'm forced to witness mountains of low-quality disgusting porn that makes me want to gouge my eyeballs out. It makes me feel sick to my stomach and like I'm a irredeemable freak, and it makes me hate humanity for having produced such abhorrent monstrosities. Despite this I keep coming back, partly because I want to "end on a good note" so to speak, and partly because to quit is to shut off the fantasy of becoming and dating a femboy forever. How do I move on and resolve this dilemma?