Thread 33540110

i have always been very different from people. it is difficult for me to live in the human world. it is difficult for me to be normal. i am practically emotionless. i am tired of being normal for most people. i do not want to be normal. i lack something for a full human life. something is missing in me. but i do not know what. is this feeling similar to the feeling of envy? does this feel like jealousy? i think i miss people so much. i feel like i'm obsessed with the idea that i need people.

>>33540110 (OP)
try to take a week or so and analyze your feelings which might have different sources on top of them is childhood related, numbness is a way your brain protects itself from the overload of unprocessed emotions so ut doesn't crash out, you're not obsessed nor miss those people, you miss what they had to offer to you as in the way they make you feel about yourself and make you forget about what you lack in the human form you have, might as well consult a therapist a good one cuz they ll help you a lot with this, hope you feel better

>>33540110 (OP)
You can lead your own life or follow a different drummer if you want. It takes only a very small amount of masking to let other people (most of whom don't give a damn anyway) accept you as more-or-less normal.

i want to really become normal so that people don't think i'm weirdo

no, i need people. i need human relationships. i wrote about how much i miss it. i can’t bring myself to communicate with a real person. i prefer virtual communication to the internet, but i realized that i can’t do this anymore! i need real people. i also want to be the center of attention. i’m damn bad at everything. i’m so inconspicuous and uninteresting that people will even notice me. i really need to be better! there’s nothing special about me. i need to somehow attract attention to myself.

>>33540110 (OP)
I won't read threads that can't seem to get to the point.

>>33540323
>try to take a week
Is OP fucking royalty?

>>33540110 (OP)
That's funny. I think of myself in the same way, except i feel like everybody else is normal and I'm not

>>33540110 (OP)
I have emotions but I also have that feeling. I think I have a personality disorder (a shitty personalty really).

Being "normal" is subjective. Who cares if you're "weird"? Weird can be cool, unique etc. Don't let that stop you from being YOURSELF! That's whats most important. People go through different phases in life and thats...normal. Beat to the rhythm of your own drum and people will follow! P.s maybe go outside and take a nice walk?

>>33540110 (OP)
>i am practically emotionless
>is this feeling similar to the feeling of envy? does this feel like jealousy? i think i miss people so much. i feel like i'm obsessed with the idea that i need people.
kys

>>33540110 (OP)
We're all different and you don't lack anything, you're you, not everyone else. You're not supposed to be like everyone else. You're exactly the way you're supposed to be. Stop comparing yourself to others. The only person you need is yourself.

>>33540110 (OP)

you sound like me, it's a wild ride innit?

i would like to disappear without a trace, i regret that i often bring inconvenience to people.

i am so afraid of people. i am afraid of everything that is connected with society. i always fail to communicate with people and often fall into awkward situations. i am not like a person, i am like an alien.

i can't stand attempts at communication, i am often emotional with people, but at the same time i am usually emotionless. i often worry in front of people. i often suppress my human needs for communication and emotions. i am also a big burden for my parents. i ruin their lives. they have high hopes for me, but i will only disappoint them. i am unlikely to find a job, i am unlikely to study for a good profession. i am unlikely to take care of them. i will not be able to give them anything for the fact that they raised me

i understand when people are angry with me. i deserve it, because i let everyone down and disappointed them. i don't know who exactly i let down, except my parents.

ok, no more. thank you very much for everything, I'll figure it out myself!!! thanks

anon 1, why did you wish for kys?
anon 2, yes, i'm royalty. i always wanted to be treated like royalty.

>>33540110 (OP)
It's not like that at all. First of all, it doesn't matter whether you're human or not. Think of yourself as a blank canvas and draw on it. A canvas is a canvas, no doubt, and it doesn't matter what kind of canvas it is, or if it's not a real one, but what you paint on it matters. Don't give up on yourself; just move forward without hesitation in what you want to achieve.
courage! courage!