Thread 33541265

I feel so derealized.
I work remotely and have barely few human connections. I don't feel a part of anything, I don't really care about anything. I do meet with people on the weekends but I don't really feel like a part of this world anymore. I exist, take care of myself, try to have fun by all means but my existence is so empty and soulless I don't know. I have zero objective problems like money, health but can't enjoy this world too well. I don't even remember when I cared about anything like even playing vidya, going to school and still thinking about it sounds abstract to my current self and I used to do that. I have become a soulless man.

I don't really think about it when I'm not alone so I guess I should just pursue relatonship and friends but I don't even have an easy time talking to people as I don't know about what. I can joke around all day and be ironic motherfucker but I feel like the emptiest man alive inside.

>>33541265 (OP)
Life doesn't matter anymore and it has become very obvious everywhere you go.
You can feel it when you are out in public, no one gives a fuck about anything anymore. Even normies are blackpilled husks now.
I go to work and basically just do nothing. I don't give a shit if they fire me, it literally doesn't matter at this point. I'm poor if I'm NEETing and poor if I work full time. This society is pointless.
No community, no property, no families, no future.

>>33541265 (OP)
Take a 2 week vacation to get away from your current situation.

>>33541275
When I'm out in public I like to yell at random people for fun. They won't do anything about it. I should go buy more food.

>>33541275
I wonder if I made a child. Would I feel better? Would my life stop being pointless If I just started caring about the little guy? Or would I just make both his and my life miserable?
I'm to smart to become a drug addict but I don't see myself enjoying this world for another 40 years or so sober. I wish I had more feelings than just this numbness of mine.

>>33541297
I was in greece for two weeks just a month ago. It was decent. But on some days I felt like a retard just walking around and getting drunk with no idea what to do. I couldn't enjoy myself too well.
I'm not too good with relaxing. I can't just lie on the beach without feeling like the life makes no point. I don't even know what i'm trying to say now.
My mind has gone numb and rarely feels alive. I can't seem to enjoy anything but exercise, drugs or sex. The moments when I can't really think too much.

>>33541265 (OP)
i feel you. Its all these vices
let them go and focus all your skillpoints on social events. I started doing bachata this week, and joined a choir and we're starting next week. next I'm going to join an acting group.
these are all very expressive activities and will help you feel value due to performing and being acknowledged. it really does work this way. and people are attracted to that which feeds the loop

>>33541265 (OP)
You’re just smart
Too smart
Or mentally ill (fine line between them).

>>33541421
fucking bachata anon mentioning bachata in every goddamn reply XD
I see you everywhere mf

>>33541324
Do not fucking inflict your dumb ass and it's consequences on a child.

>>33542797
Indeed, it's a 4chan phase, in a couple weeks I will receed again for a couple of years.. buut for now I'm procrastinating

>>33542797
The red pill is that Salsa is superior.