Thread 33542585

How do you live with the fact that you let down people who you looked up to?

>>33542585 (OP)
You do better retard

>>33542585 (OP)
I won't read how to cope threads because you just know that OP is hopelessly incapable of taking any of the advice that could be offered; he just wants attention.

>>33542585 (OP)
I also have this question. I don't know the answer. So far I've coped by not looking up to anyone else IRL other than artists, writers, and philosophers I can admire from afar.

>>33542585 (OP)
in what way

>>33544159
Let’s just say I was on a training course with a lot of high standards. I revealed something about me that caused me to be suspended from that course. The reason why I disclosed it was because I had to get it off my chest and it felt disingenuous if I didn’t reveal it.
During this I was put on a bespoke course by a supervisor(s) who I didn't want to let down by dropping out or myself and then I did because the pressure of being suspended got to me.
Since that day I haven’t seen nor spoken to him or anyone from that course which is a shame because Im not that kind of person who would do that and I miss my trainers. I didn’t want things to end the way they did. But they did and I got to live with that.

>>33545789
And it wasn’t just my trainers that I miss, but also my new cohort that I was with. They were miles above my original cohort and I felt like I could develop some real close friendships with them and also help them out. But thats gone now and I let them down too. That was my chance and I fucked it. I fucked up. I should've just kept my mouth shut and quietly resign from the fucking thing. It would’ve been better that way.

>>33545789
You are you. If they truly cared about you they'd reach out onto you despite your failures.

You owe them nothing. All they do is for the reputation they care about, nothing to do with you after that.

>>33545808
Stay away from them already. It's already done. You let them down but so what? They didn't help you recover back so what's the point? Move on with this fucks who doesn't give a shit about you right at the start til the very end.