Thread 33562503

>Start work
>act friendly
>people are toxic and take this as a sign of weakness
>start spreading shit like i'm gay, a pedo, a psychopath, special needs, abuse woman, etc.
>taking anything minor i do and making it to a shitstorm
>people start avoiding me more and more, even those that were nice to me
>develop trauma from threats, doxxing, ostracisation, glares and feeling unsafe in general
>report this to HR after a while
>get told nothing is being done about it as i need witnesses and dates
>almost everybody was doing this, so almost everybody would be fired i guess, if HR was competant.
>get told to see doctor and fired shortly after as i now have poor work performance when i never did before
>doctors don't believe me
>get put in a mental ward for 3 days as they think i'm crazy and don't even bother looking at texts i got
>life gets worse and worse
>start getting gang stalked
>think it's people that think i'm faking for fraud or my workplace hired them to see if i'll puruse litigation

I can't live like this, I did get a lawyer but it's not worth dealing with this

It's been almost a year and these people won't leave me alone.
I don't care about money i want to heal.
I got meds from a psych but he thinks i'm crazy instead of traumatised so i assume it's the wrong drugs

What are some easy ways to kill myself?
Was thinking of jumping on a highway but i might survive and they may put me back in the mental ward for my safety and give me wrong drugs again.
nobody believes me, nobody wants me to take action and would rather ruin my laugh make me crazy than face accountability.

make an exit bag

>>33562504
any good guides?

also I feel like my phone is compomised as when i used to talk to suicide prevention lines cars used to pull up to my house, and the dude would just stare at me, not getting out.

I genuinely believe that they believe i'm faking my trauma for money or something, even made up health issues to go to a mental ward.

i can't live like this, places like the gym that i used to go to, i see these same people record me and try to play it off. regulars avoid me now too, when they never did before.

>>33562508
get a nitrous oxide container
get a large trash bag
open the nitrous container so it lets out nitrous at a satisfactory rate
put head in bag
let air out of bag
put nitrous in bag
tape around neck
die

>>33562511
thanks, now i just have to get nitrous oxide without tiping people off, i think i'm on some suicide watch list

>>33562503 (OP)
Solution: get a new job
Looks like the environment you've gotten in is just retarded. Don't blame it on yourself

>>33562532
>Solution: get a new job

i want to recover but i can't because of my gangstalkers.
I can't go to the gym without people just avoiding me now or treating me like shit, same with other places.
I will never be treated normally agin unless i leave my suburb and even then, these fuckers will follow me there.

I think they genuinely believe they did nothing wrong and want to prove that i'm faking my trauma.

>>33562541
>>33562532
also my brain is just fried with ongoing stress, it's hard to think, function, i hear voices a lot now.

I'll never recover

>>33562541
>>33562546
aw fuq. I wanna believe there is a solution, because kysing will mean that these retards won

How exactly do these gangstalkers stalk you, is it a real deal or is it just your overreaction/stress?

>>33562503 (OP)
Fuck the normies live out of spite

>>33562503 (OP)
you can do it anon,i believe in you. get better to spite them, dont kill yourself over other peoples actions.

Seppuku
Get a big knife (a large kitchen knife would likely do, but make sure it's sharp) and cut your belly open with a cross. Then, thrust the knife upward, where if you're lucky you can pierce your heart. Either way, since your entrails are largely unreplaceable, the main reason of seppuku is to ensure that a doctor can't save you in case your suicide is reported.
Or you can just go to sleep on some train tracks. That works too.

>>33562562
>>33562562
>come by and bump me
>push open doors i'm leaning on and make me fall
>if i'm stressed and my head is in my hands they just come up and mimic me like to make fun of my trauma or show me it's no big deal
>if i'm at the gym and feel and look like shit, i guess it looks bad and they can't have that, so they just send somebody over to get me off the machine or get me to hurry up off of it, even if there's multiple same machines around
>if i try to ignore them they just throw shit in front me hard like keys or a bottle but make it look like they dropped it even though they both fall in the same spot right infront of me
>they come by and record me i've noticed this like 4 times now.
>if i go to the doctor or chemist they send somebody over to tail me around, they even bring their kid along or something and the kid just glares at me, sticks their tongue out at me and just other weird shit


there a quite a few other things
i told my lawyer this stuff, it may come up in trial, but it's getting to me, i really can't take it anymore.

>>33563918
>>33562562
also the glaring and they tell people at the places i frequent, shit about me, now normal people just avoid me a lot, i don't have a normal life anymore.

I also suspect they hackked my socials or my phone as they seem to know what i watch, and play that same stuff loudly around me, like as if to mock me and make me mentally unstable or unwell.

they already send me to the mental ward next, they just have to keep this up and they can prove they did nothing wrong, and i imagined it all.

>>33562503 (OP)
>What are some easy ways to kill myself?
There aren't any.

I'm not kidding: there really aren't. EVERY possible way to kill yourself is either agonisingly painful, or has a high risk of leaving you alive but brain damaged. Often both

>>33563918
>>33563936
Is there a chance you could be schizophrenic? This isn't something real anon, it's in your head.

>>33562503 (OP)
I'll say what I see rationally. It's like a group of omniscient beings are harassing you? I also see that everything is conspiring against you.
This is strange. Okay, I'll believe there's a group of people who can be this evil, since human evil knows no bounds, but I doubt they have the ability to hack into your networks.
I feel like your mind is playing tricks on you, perhaps at the same time they're harassing you. Do you need to talk about something? Perhaps it's loneliness?
Don't commit suicide, that's sad.

Who is funding all of this gang-stalking anon? time is money, that shit sounds expensive. Are you sure you're not just having a psychotic episode? Did something specific kick this off, a specific event?

You need to live with the fact that the truth never gets discovered and be okay with it, because I swear to god if you don't you're going to be more and more miserable. Yes you faced abuse, but you are also a gen z. Had you been a silent generation dealing with a fist fight in high school, you would have walked off the bruises and shook hands with your bully the next day. You got to do that, and I know it is the hardest fucking thing in the world to do, but if you forgive yourself and them not go into entitlement mode, things will be easy.

>>33565571
NTA Yes, OP likely is paranoid schizophrenic.

>>33562503 (OP)
If you decide to go, I'm sorry that everything negative happened to you. I understand your deep pain. I don't know you but I don't believe you're crazy either based on just what you wrote. I saw a giant silent black triangle that was semi-see through fly over my ex friend's apartment building just as she went inside to take a pee. No one believes me yet she believes in God and goes to church. A literal make believe fairy tale. Thing is, I found out there is a book called Triangular UFOs - An Estimate of the Situation by David Marler, John B. Alexander with hundreds of similar accounts inside it going back into the 1800's, so that was my "I'm not crazy" salvation. Though the accounts in it aren't exactly perfect to what I saw, they are damn close enough to know that others saw it too and I didn't make the fucking thing up.

Anyhow, I am telling you that because I don't think you're crazy. You just are seen as an easy mark to be bullied for some reason and that's a shame.

I am sad your cry for help has to be so pronounced here on this shitty forum too rather than finding some resource that listens and cares about you and gives you the inner strength to keep on going in this life. You won the race to be here remember...you were the sperm and egg that won out of all the others for some reason. Same for me. What is the purpose of this life I have yet to figure it out. Doesn't matter how nice you are to people, someone, somewhere will always bring you down because they're just shitty people.

I wish you could find some good people to bring back your confidence. Leave that job environment today if you haven't already. Just take your shit and walk out. You can always go to a temp agency for work. But if you kill yourself, you never get a chance to climb out from this hole and flourish.

Regardless, thanks for sharing your story. I hope you think twice about your decision to end it all.

>>33562503 (OP)
Anon do you want a friend? I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with this for so long, that all sounds so horrendous and hard to cope with, I know seeing a therapist and mental health care can be pricy, this was really sad to read, would you like to chat? Whenever you’re feeling suicidal I’d love to occupy you from those thoughts, maybe play some video games with you, do you have any socials?

Dude, if someone is actually ganstalking you, you need to call the police. Maybe consider getting a second phone or a house phone or something and placing your current phone in another room inside your house when you make a call.

>>33562503 (OP)
>>start getting gang stalked
you had me until this part lol