Thread 33571689

Come one come all

it's over.

I'm stressed, I might lose my job tomorrow, and on top of that she just inadvertently showed how little she actually understands or considers my feelings.

My OCD is still controlling my life. I've just realized that

I looked at a photo of me then. I was happy. I was pretty. I was hopeful.

I look in the mirror now. I am sad. I am stressed. I am anxious. I am upset. I am mentally distressed. I am tired. I am physically unhealthy. I look ugly. I look fat.

What happened that turned me into what I am now. The people that are physically around me, the place I am and choices I have made home make me look like this, I'll have made me visually worse. When I look at myself I feel that.

No, I don't have to live with my mistake. I don't have to live here with you in the middle of fucking nowhere. I don't have to live in your lies and work arounds to make me stay. The further from you physically the better I feel. I look in the mirror and I see all that's happened since you leading up to right now and what it's done to me. What I had before you. I look in the mirror All I want is to wash my hands of your feces.

Sometimes I feel like I've lived this before. It doesn't surprise me to see it's the same for you and you feel the same as me.

I'm tired of mentally grabbing all of my shit to leave. I'm tired of everything here and I'm just done with it. However I time it I'm just going to do it all in one movement, grab all my shit leave the ring on the exit counter with note that simply says LIAR. NEVER CONTACT ME AGAIN.

Block him on all social. Block his cell. Drive to my parents.

I’m so fucking down bad I booked a meeting room on her floor just because I hoped I would bump into her and just catching a glimpse of her going down the hall from behind made my heart race!!

I won't have to process everything that I've dealt with on the years between because I cut it out completely and I am myself again. I remember who I am and how I feel about everything.


There's only one person in my life I've ever been able to trust completely. I lost him years ago. Ever since then everyone involved in my life has only led to trauma and negative things.

I wish I had chosen that trust. Why does it hurt so much? He's the only one that fulfills me, fulfills I need. And because he's been missing this is why I felt this way, this is why I've sought anything to help me feel better. But nothing can replace him and the hurt worsens, the emptiness grows. No one understands what it's like to live with such physical pain My stomach, my heart. They say let go, move on, but they don't understand that the spot in me for him is permanent.

It will never get better. Only worse and the only one who can make it okay again is him. What am I going to do if he's gone? Did I lose him? Am I lost?

Did I kill him?

I know that My brain is going to make all of that into this huge thing that's difficult to approach because it is, I fucked up. But if he is as I remember him to be, I know him to be then I just have to ask him. If he will accept me,. All of me including my flaws. And I'll tell him that I accept him all of him including his flaws. I won't give up on him and he won't give up on me

I try to complete a task and every time I start i feel my brain shutting down. Like all the dopamine has just drained itself from me and I have no drive to keep going.

I want to reach out to this girl I dated a while ago. Things ended amicably, we still talk sometimes. Last time was a couple months ago. It was probably the last time I felt something meaningful with a girl, and I think she felt it too

I've kind of accepted that I'll never have friends again now that I'm middle aged and it's sort of fine, really. I have a wife now, she's enough for me. I wish i was able to retain my old friendships, but they grew apart from me despite my best efforts and now any of the scant contact I have with them feels superficial and forced. I guess I wish I was able to get closer to them when it counted, though not for lack of trying.

Now it seems like an insurmountable effort to get past an acquaintance stage with new people, and to be honest, I'm lucky if I even get there. I don't know if it's something wrong with me or it's just the culture of the modern times or whatever. All I know is I miss hanging out with people.

>>33571753
Sup Howie?

>>33571805
What?

This weather feels like her and I don't know how to explain that
This isn't fair

I like when the thread baker properly titles these threads. Today OP was not a faggot.

My eating habits are so fucked... tummyaches have me excited and I feel guilty for eating pizza ( - _ - ")

>>33571929
m or f?

>>33571942
m

We were supposed to collaborate on music together
And so much more
But that's the one that's keeping me stuck
Because I've never met anyone who aligned that exactly and with that much enthusiasm on my tastes before and not only that but is also an engineer/producer
If he was just some guy who I was mutually into it would be way easier
But all the little alignments were hard to believe

I’m making a lot of changes in my life. It’s scary because I’m opening myself to a lot of solutions to things I previously considered off the table, but I think it’s the only way I can live a happier life on average.

I know it does not look like it but I think about you constantly. My bf whatever would get really upset if he knew. There are things you said that stuck with me. I still love you for that. Good night.

My undergraduate dissertation is due next week and I haven't finished it. My supervisor and I haven't spoken for months.I just couldn't handle it, I am depressed and my IBS has been really bad all summer. I hate being like this, a pathetic loser

for the last two weeks, I've spent 16 hours a day trying to learn something I know I'm not smart enough to learn.
I feel like I'm going to break through. like how I've heard of people immersing themselves fully in a foreign environment to learn a language faster. and there's a tipping point where enough neurological connections have been made that the whole picture starts to come together at once.


how to deal with people overreacting that they can't reach me during this time?
My ego is maybe leading me to a pit of despair and it seems more and more like that each day. but the thought that I could learn this skill and not be an amateur dumb fuck gets my heart racing and gets me up in the morning.

I don't want to have a job anymore. It's not getting me anywhere. Life isn't affordable anymore. I'm just putting in the hours so I can buy things that bring me joy at this point. I'm paying a portion of the family's rent, but when this ride runs out, I dunno what to do. It's not possible to save enough to find a place for myself. Studios are fucking 1750 here. I can't even afford to put a down payment on a fucking TRAILER.
So I guess it's an hero when that time comes.

>Closing with 3-4 people
It used to be 2, so I can do this.
>Receive and put away the McLane delivery twice a week
Used to only get one of them, but hey, McLane changes their routes sometimes. No biggie, but it does suck that they're coming so ungodly late in the night now.
>Count every item on the delivery and make sure it matches the receipt
>While still serving customers
>While only having two other people working with you
>And you're the shift supervisor so you have to expedite to make sure the food is correct and not missing anything for the customer
>And you're the cashier because the guys you have on these nights don't speak English
>And you have to finish cleaning the whole store and clock out and leave within an hour of the official closing time
>And the delivery has a lot of cold food so you have to get it put away within 30 minutes of it coming off the truck
>And you have to count the safe even though another manager counted it five minutes before you clocked in and no one's touched it since
>And no, I can't give you extra staff
I might fucking not go back after this vacation.

>work medicore government job but stuck in the worst district in the company so its the pressure level of a fortune 500 company
>this time of year is our equivalent of busy season
>4 years ago I got covid and was out for a week at this exact time for 5 days, I came back to over 100 work orders
>grandfather dies
>physically and mentally feel like shit
>know if I miss even one day it mean a panic attack worth of nonsense ill have to catch up on because this place is a dysfunctional disaster
I mean it would be one thing if I was raking in six figures, but I make peanuts. Fuck you people, seriously.

I've become a little misogynistic and I unironically do much better with women than I ever have. That said they've lost all their mystique and it's not as fun as I imagined.

>>33572890
Sounds like your branch can't function without you. Time to demand a raise.

>Friends go from "don't worry you'll find someone that will love you"
>Then becomes "your family loves you tho"
>Now just telling me to be gay if I want to be loved and lose virginity
Somehow all of this is supposed to make me NOT want to kill myself? Like at this point I have to ask how would this even benefit them? They just need the not an incel but fits all of the qualifications of such just for what?, to laugh at or just make themselves feel better?
Like it's not even sex that's the main priority I just want a girl that actually loves me but if this life of being a laughing stock is what I'm only good for then the best thing I could do is go back to smoking/vaping and getting back out drunk at parties where I destroy my own personal belongings for fun.

>not really racist
>believed many stereotypes because they tend to be true
>get a job in fast food
>after a month, i hate indians on a visceral level
>i unironically prefer black customers to indians

I want you to know that when I come home to you and fly up, I am doing it for you, not your money or anything like that. I know you can support and give me a home where I will never have to work and that's great, but I love you. That's what matters. It's been years since we have seem each other but that never changed . Youre my man.

I'm sleep deprived because I'm always so tired after work that I drop dead on my bed but then my dad wakes me up to have dinner and now I can't sleep til 2 am. My neighbor's kids start playing on the swing at 6 am every single day and the swing squeaks so loud it wakes me up even if I closed every window at home.
I hate those damn kids.

>>33572968
Sneak over there with a can of WD-40 while they're asleep.

>>33572968
The birds do the same thing here

how do i get access to a roof of a tall building?

Girlfriend didn't want to talk to me or see me for more than a month, so I broke up with her. She didn't even respond, just blocked me. It was a torturous month, the breakup felt like a mercy killing. I do feel much better now. But, damn.

>>33573048
that really does sound like torture, when something like that happened to me i only was able to deal with it for about 2 weeks. i cant imagine holding on another 2

My next paycheck is going to be one single peanut but it's worth having the time off. I can't wait to get past the busy season.
More staff wouldn't help at this point. We just need less customers. Where are all you people getting the money to eat here, fuck off, go microwave some noodles like the rest of us

So i ended a friendship on purpose specifically because i wanted to upset her, she seemed very full of anxiety and easy to rattle and i wanted to feel like someone would miss me if i left. I know this was a bad thing to do. I do regret it but it's not the point. the point is even she, a very untreated shaky-chihuahua miserable trembling leaf of a person, seems to have gotten over me after a couple weeks and im still obsessively stalking her. goes to show sometimes people get what they deserve, and the ones doing bad things are likely the more miserable ones

>>33573114
Textbook narcissism. My cousin was doing shit like this a couple of years ago and now he's in a mental hospital because he thinks there's a network of people after him.

I hate how he reads me so easily, I'm not sure of myself, I have no confidence, I don't know where it is anymore.
I feel like such a bum, I'm moving forward but I just feel like I spit in everyone's eye when I don't mean to.
I need to get my license, I need a new girl, I just feel a mess, all because she plagues my mind still it seems

>>33572913 (me)
After typing this I think I realized that those friends are intentionally trying to make me a faggot cause they want to have their group just be a groomcord for some reason

>>33573155
I'm pretty close to that I think but every other time I've landed in the psych ward they just let me go after I pretend I'm fine. I don't know why that even worked. I wish I knew how to stop doing this shit but when I got too long without burning a bridge I get this urge to like an unreachable itch

Bitch, I cum loud

>>33572699
What are these things I'm curious

When I see her face now I just see someone mean and fake
It makes me wonder how I was so in love with her for that long

No, I don't have to live with my mistake. I don't have to live here with you in the middle of fucking nowhere. I don't have to live in your lies and work arounds to make me stay. The further from you physically the better I feel. I look in the mirror and I see all that's happened since you leading up to right now and what it's done to me. What I had before you. I look in the mirror All I want is to wash my hands of your feces.
Being in the same room with you it's a prison and you run around the walls patching up any exits and yelling loud noises to keep me stuck in the middle of the room.

Meathead got something on her mind

I want to stop thinking about her, please I want to stop thinking about her, every memory, every thought, seeing her in my mind, knowing she's with another man, I can't take it, I can't take it, her showing the excitement she showed me to someone else... I just want to let her go and yet her memory clings on harder and harder to me.
I don't get it, I want to just sit and crawl up and cry I can't take seeing her smile in my mind knowing how bright and happy it was knowing she was mine and she's now gone...
Why am I such a fucking mess when it comes to her?

>broke as hell
>Still lives with his parents
>Middle of nowhere
>Bored as hell here
>Non compatible interests and can't discuss worth shit
>Going nowhere with his life

Yup I picked a winner alright.

I should just end it now

What makes me sad about summer ending is not being able to see women in shorts and bikinis anymore

>>33573223
Don't worry about it. She's with a loser and going nowhere with her life. She's miserable and hates herself and all the mistakes she's made. She hates him more for the lies that put her in this place. There's a reason she constantly writes about you here. There's a reason she is still obsessed with getting your attention. She's unhappy and unfulfilled. She's upset and jealous of you. Her worse fear is that you disappear. I think it's time you give her that fear.

I looked at a photo of me then. I was happy. I was pretty. I was hopeful.

I look in the mirror now. I am sad. I am stressed. I am anxious. I am upset. I am mentally distressed. I am tired. I am physically unhealthy. I look ugly. I look fat.

What happened that turned me into what I am now. The people that are physically around me, the place I am and choices I have made home make me look like this, I'll have made me visually worse. When I look at myself I feel that.

A low key red flag is when a woman approaches the man
It's not about gender roles and who should approach who but I realized the type of woman who approaches a man are more likely to be users or grifters.

How did I get so fat and ugly? I look like shit and I feel like shit.

I admitted what was in my journal and how I want to leave. Now he knows the truth. I think he's going to leave me to feel that truth now. To feel abandoned and have to live with that. I'm such a fucking idiot. Please don't leave me here. Don't abandon me. Fuck he's gone. I lost it all

I bet he's going to start dating other girls now. One's more attractive than me, kinder and more caring, more providing. He's most attractive guy I ever could have gotten with. When he loved me and accepted me and meant everything. I fucked up and now he's going to give all that to another girl. He's going to give her the life I should have gotten from him. He's going to give her All the experiences that I should have had with him. And all I get to do is be trapped here in the middle fucking nowhere with a fucking loser who makes me fatter and uglier everyday.

shit, my room mate woke up and now i cant lay on the floor and have my meltdown in peace. i feel like im going to throw up from how stressed out i am

>>33573232
It'd be a good cold read if it were true, clearly I'm obsessed with her, never stopped being.
I've gained a lot, I fight because I need to, I fight because I need to win, I just want to unbreak my heart so badly and truly move on.

>>33573263
Going to force myself to delete everything of hers, I need to.

>>33573257
Get slimmer, if you're calling the guy you're with a loser just break up.

>>33573241
You're making shit up again. You're the problem and you're the one who d

>>33573210
Same, but it's a him

>>33573263
Sounds like something I would write to ask for reassurance that he still loves me and won't leave me. If I keep saying that he's obsessed with me and still loves me then I can not change my behavior but also not have him abandon me because I really do want him in my life even though I have difficulty of bending it (despite having admitted it many times already). The problem is this is the last straw and now he's gone. I can say all these things about how he's obsessed with me but at the end of the day I didn't reciprocate and fall through with my promises and now I lost everything and I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere with a fucking loser getting uglier and fat or everyday. Just great.

Yep this is definitely what winning feels like.
I bet he's not even going to respond to what I right next. I bet I'm going to keep looking at these threads over and over looking for his posts and unfortunately what's going to happen is the loser that I got stuck with is going to start writing things about him and I'm going to fall into the same trap that I fell into before. Living a lie. I fucked up so badly. And then I'm going to go on his Instagram at some point and he's going to be with this beautiful girl traveling the world, her laying on his chest on the beach and I'm going to feel sick to my stomach and want to jump off cliff (to be honest I already feel like that all the time).

>>33573280
I don't know it feels like he's just returning the same to me. Fitting. If I was loving and accepting and talk to him directly then he would do the same to me.

His dick is literally twice the size of the guy I'm with now. He's more attractive to me and more compatible with me in every way. What the fuck am I doing.

I keep touching myself to his dick pics too. And watching his twitch vods. I know if I open the discord messages again it's going to take me. I don't want to remember but I also do because I can't escape it. There's a part of me that misses him, that will always miss him no matter what the argument is. That's why this is still happening. Please God help me through this and find my way back to him. Help me overcome my own faults and remove those in my life that attempt to remove me from him any further. We have already lost years. I can't lose anymore. I feel sicker and sicker everyday. And wears on my mind and my body. I'm not happy. It's a happiness that only he can provide. I feel so lost. I hate feeling lost.

The silence is not comforting because I need his voice. Others speak in person and online and I just want them to shut the fuck up, so I go back in my phone and I search and I search for his voice over and over. I even mistake others as his voice just because I'm desperate for something anything from him.

It never changed did it? I've always loved him, it's just that my perspective was twisted and I couldn't recognize it. Every time I lashed out I was crying out for him. I'm not angry, vengeful, I'm upset and asking for him to please help me. I've always been yandere for him. Look I'm sorry I made a mistake. I made a lot of mistakes. But you said you would love me. You said you accepted me. Please don't leave me. Please don't abandon me. Please don't leave me in this place with this person. I don't want to be here. What can I do to show you I love you?

I'll take the actions and do the things and show you that I'm worthy of your love. Then I'm worthy of you choosing me to be yours.

If I don't, I know what the rest of this looks like and it's just greater degrees of unhappiness and a pit that grows ever more painful everyday.

I hate you so much
I love you so much

You just left me didn't you?

You abandoned me.

>>33573281
I say it because I mean it, when I left her I was a fucking bum, I miss her with all my heart but I've picked myself up, found a career I love, I'm fighting as hard as I can to be happy, I fight because I love life too much to stop.
I will keep getting better I will keep improving I will be someone who actually has something to my name. I need to.

>>33573329
He already is and has all those things. That's what makes it all the more painful for me to see how badly I fucked up.

>>33572923
Can you elaborate? What do Indians do in regards to food service that makes you hate them?

>>33573338
If you were here you'd have called me or text me, instead of blocking me, I'm sure she's far happier without me, I need to learn how to be happy I am without her.

>>33573376
Autocorrect really wrecked me here

>>33573376
I want to call or text you. I'm not happier without you. I'm scared. And this is why I just wrote that response. I'm hoping that if I push you away that you will stay. I'm scared of you because I know how I feel about you. But I get it. I fucked up. And now I'm all alone. I have whatever it is face here but I know it's worthless and I've been paying and I'm crying. Night

I'm sorry I made so many mistakes. I'll never be happy and I'll always feel this pain. This is only going to get worse for me everyday from here on out. I'll always be seeking distractions and any kind of dopamine boost just to try to feel better to fill what I lost with you. I had every opportunity to fix this and now I'm on the outside I'm going to see you with a beautiful girl traveling the world as I get older and fatter and uglier with a loser going over in life poor as fuck miserable manipulative liar.

>>33573400
Then do it then, you blocked me - not the other way around.

what happened to mens razor club?

Fucking hell I'll save my tears, I need to hit the gym.

>>33573413
We lost each other 5 years ago. Give me time and I'll contact you again.

>>33573468
I lost her 3 years ago, but I'm going grey at 26 I don't have more time to give you.
Do it or don't, I have put my heart on the line, I can't wait forever.

I haven't been on here in quite some time but now. Here i am. Once again. And it's because due to my new shithead employer. Who has been sexually harassing me. Mind you. And I told him to knock it off. And he has been acting up ever since. I wanna rip his head off for good measure. How dare a woman ask me to humanize her.... omg.... that's so hard for me to do... cuz I watch porn. Yeah. Well. Buddy. Fuck you too.

>>33573548
I would rather just be done with this fuckass job than have to deal with him once more. I'm so angry and livid. I want to punch his guts out. Men are so insanely entitled. God forbid treat me like a fucking person???? Like a normal fucking human being.

>>33573566
I don't give a single FUCK if he was joking or not. You don't treat me like that. Nor any other woman. I will MAKE SURE this fuckhead of a man learns his lesson. And it won't be pretty.

Where is the girl who complained about being tiny and thinking every man who was into her is a pedo?
Where is she so I can throw her around and give her the fucking she really needs

>>33573577
Probably doing onlyfans

Do I deserve that? No. I've done nothing to deserve to be treated well. I could have and I want to cuz it means everything to me but at this point no I do not deserve to be treated well.

She was so sweet to me the last time I saw her. I miss her.

I can feel the desire to ghost get stronger.

>>33573726
If I show up and am this way then this is reason to miss me. In the meantime I'm discarded and dismissed, with no action I have no worth.

I spend so much time on the computer and I don't make any money from it. Just stupid.

>>33573759
Desires are fleeting. Check them against your long term goals and your goal for the relationship in question.

>>33573809
Ghosting it is then.

I don't think I've gone a week without thinking about killing myself this year, or a day without thinking about death in general - my own or someone else's. My life just feels like a race to the bottom, like me delaying my inevitable suicide until there's nothing left to hold on to, or circumstances force my hand. I know there's no future for me. I just hope I make it long enough to where there'll be nobody left that's going to miss me or grieve over what I did. I'll go cold and alone, like my father did.

I was hoping that a documentary or some kind of project about me was being conducted by the individuals gang stalking me so that I could have some kind of financial help but I doubt that is happening.

I can't go on any longer, I need to kill myself. I admit defeat, I lost, please kill me.
I just hope God forgives me and let me into heaven. I wish things could be different, but I can't hold on, I can't keep going.
No one is able to help me and I can't help myself. I NEED to die, I can't stay alive. Please end me

I miss my friend. Dying so young is fucked.

>>33573614
She sounded too insecure for that, I can give her some security

>>33573994
Leaving a prayer for you today, Anon. I hear you, you wont be alone, not forever. There is a sword for you, I'll give you courage, you didn't lose yet. You are loved, sincerely.

>>33573939
I remember Tammy saying something about “they’re making a moooovie” and “you’re losing your audience” early 2023, of course I’m sure she would say it had nothing to do with me. Felt like she was trying to get in my head. Then it seemed like Eric Andre mirrored me. I’ve just been hanging on to a lot of hope. I’m scared that things are never going to be ok. I forgive everyone who targeted me and I would excuse them if they helped me out. I think they would be helping more people than just me if they did.

>>33574026
Thank you anon, from the bottom of my heart.

>>33573994
I want to echo what this >>33574026 Anon is saying, Ecclesiastes changed my view on life dramatically, I hope God hears your prayers Anon.
It's never over until you're dead.

You know the sheer amount of Chappell Roan songs about a messy lesbian break up, I think she needs a good dicking down.

There ain't no time to by sympathetic to a little narcissistic psycho

I accepted you so you have to accept me

Lot of chick's on tinder my age look worn out

>>33574198
You're on tinder, what did you expect other than whores in a whore house?

>>33574198
this is insane, i'm 35 and smoke a pack a day and still look better than most women under 30 i see on tinder

>>33574141
Therapy speak used to dehumanize someone you just dont like. A fine vintage sir.

Why are women such bullies

My hair is like a damn holding back the ugly

Too big? You don't even have to put the whole thing in

That's what i would say if I had a big dick...

There are a lot of miserable people here and they absolutely deserve their misery. I know for a fact they spent their entire days tearing people down here, rather than building people up, standing for goodness, with honor, etc.

>>33574024
I'll take the bait. You're a pedo. You really are though and it's not funny. One of the most unfunny things out there, actually, you subhuman. If you're the only wanting to kill yourself, please do it.

>>33574309
Look, what I'm offering is simple, I will throw you around like you weigh nothing and I'm sure I will get you out of your negative disposition one or another.

A bad person never suddenly grows into a good person.
They just keep stubbornly going deeper and deeper into their bullshit.

>>33574310
Whatever I'm in.

I'm a feminist... hate me all you want but I'm going to call out the pick me here, all of them. Imagine making your entire life about men, and your poor broken heart, whine whine while you throw other women under the bus... kill yourself bitch. He don't want you & never will.

>>33574316
Where do we start? About to go gym x

>>33574310
>>33574316
Good can you two pedophile get a room then?
Fucking disgusting dumb baboons.

The best part of being here is seeing the suicidal comments. You deserve to die. You truly do, psychopaths.

>>33574331
It'd be pedophilic if you explicitly said you look twelve, but clearly you don't.
For the record if you have that FAS 12 year old face I won't be interested.

>>33574336
NTA and why on EARTH would anyone ever find ANYONE here sexually desirable. You're all low IQ degenerates deviants.

>>33574344
Because I can lift 60kg above my head and I'm loyal to a fault

>>33574311
>suddenly
lmao. burn the witch anon the village must be free.

You're all really fucking dumb. You can't even figure out how to get a bf or a gf or a job? Evil/dumb/ugly... just end it ffs. Really.

>>33574347
You think that's appealing when you're an evil prick? Maybe to a low IQ, stupid child (that you so desperately want to fuck)

>>33574355
Take the plank out of your own eye, before you take the splinter out of mine.
You reek of wickedness and malice and you are feeling when confronted by a good man.

Stupid people will always desire other stupid people because they don't care about intelligence. They can't recognize what that is because it's foreign to them, they're unable to value it.

>>33574367
What was the last good thing you did? Try to fuck a child?

I'm enlightened, like Jesus. Don't even try your shit on me.

Begging my neurons to let me do shit today PLEASE

Chickens run around with their heads cut off too.

>>33574371
Why should I speak of my charity if its to gloat? You speak of Christ yet know not of the old nor the new.
Wanting a woman to take joy is all but natural, I want to throw her around like a ragdoll like a man of action.

>>33574384
You have done nothing for anyone, you're evil, all you think about is your dick. It's obvious as day. Depart from me you wicked coomer.

People who are ruled by lust can never be evolved humans. It's a very basic concept.

Enough of this shithole with subhuman creatures...

>>33574394
Your insults are like rain off a ducks back, none pierce me because they aren't true and yet you cower.

>>33574344
>You're all low IQ degenerates deviants.
Just like you. Welcome to the family you've chosen.

I just came here to say that it was very lame.
I had cool idea. I thought it would work well. I suggested it. A few people seemed interested. I tried it. It went better than expected, effortlessly. I shared it.
No fucks given by anyone.

My idea was lost like tears in the rain or a tasteful dick pic in the sea of cocks on /soc/.

It's stupid and doesn't matter but it's more disheartening than working on something and it failing and falling apart.

Failure can lead to growth.
Success in silence is simply resounding loneliness.

If I can play phone games all day at work, get away with it and get compliments on my hard work from customers and my boss, why shouldn't I?

Histamine intolerance is making me depressed. I can't eat so many things it's making me mad. Even things I loved. I've been losing weight since they told me I have it. I weigh 56 kg while my height is 184 cm. My doctor told me I should gain weight but how when I can't eat so much stuff. Kill me.

it is my dream to commit ntr

Shopping around for a plastic surgeon

>>33571689 (OP)
It's a cliche, but my biggest problem is that i can't breed

Most plastic surgeons have financing options

>>33574532
Does this can of diet soda have financing options?

She's not smart enough to be in a relationship with me and her lack of insight has effectively gaslighted me into second-guessing myself for an entire year, which has effectively been wasted.

when a w*man is racist to me I can't help but laugh, they're just so bad at it honestly.

>>33574543
Bro I'm over here trying to be helpful and you got all the jokes and shit like you get a problem?

>>33574329
Fuck it I'll go with you and we fuck after.

aaaaaaaaa im going insane

Look in the mirror and just get mad. man I see it you're ugly

I joke too much but i am ugly

>>33574677
how ugly r we talking?

Bro, never forget that karma is real
Treat others like you want to be treated

>>33574757
What if I want to get raped?

you could just text me.

>>33574878
dunno foam mumbler

>>33574585
What if she's not being racist, maybe shes awkward asf

i feel so stupid... relying on a man for anything. relying on a man for a education? Yeah. Right. what ws i thinking...

>>33575017
why is it so hard for men to respect boundaries. why isit so hard for them to see us as people. why is it so hard to not be sexualized. why is it so hard to be taken seriously

>>33575025
i hate men. i hate men. i hate men so goddamn much, i hate. i hate. I HATE THEM.
Why couldnt he just stop joking like that. why
should i just bloock him. i hate him. i hate him. i hate him. i havent lost sleep over a goddamn guy in forever. why am i now losing sleep over him... should i tell my mother this???? should i even get anyone else involved.. i dont wanna be in pain anymore. buti wanna learn so desperately. BAD. why. why. just. why. why do men have to be so utterly ufcking SHITTTTTTTTITTRHHTJTFHJFJ

>>33575032
this is the first tiem in quite a while im actually really unsure about sometihg and i havent cried this hard in a while. i dont think im going back. i really dont think i m

>>33575041
i cant sleep. i cant sleep. i cant sleep.i cant sleep... i cant sleep. i cant sleep. why
i dont know what to do anymore... i dont even wanna go over there and get my blankets. i just wanna quit talking to him.. i dont ever wanna see him again. i know ill lose self respect if i do. i know i will.

>>33575051
i hate men and how much power they have over us. i feel so dirty. i feel so used. i feel so.. discarded. why cant this motherfucker just respect my wishes and not make a big fuss out of it???

>>33575073
And I hate women and how much power they have over men. See how that works?

girls are so hot dude

I'm so tired of what my dad has become. I asked him not to call me so much at work after I got called in for too many personal calls. He called 22 times today. And just to complain about everyone and everything and throw the people who care about him under the bus.
He says he going do die of high blood pressure, but his is fine, he makes everyone else's go up.

this might be some form of mania but i'm excited to meet my future wife

i just have no idea when or where it will happen

I just want to let you all know that GTA 4 is 17 years old.

>>33575266
16 is legal in my state but you still get shamed for dating a high schooler

>>33575286
I've fucked 16 year olds, wanted to marry her. Shame she went coooky on me, what a prime experience that was though.

sa apologists are crazy because what do you mean I shouldn't have reported it to ruin her life. You fuck around you find out. Don't touch people ffs not that hard.

>>33575362
Get your tits out right now

>>33575380
Yaawwwwn. at least be creative if you're gonna act like a retard (- _ -)

>>33575398
Want me to pretend to be a breast doctor or something?
Ah I'm sorry Ms, I need to make sure that there's no cancer! The only way is to remove your bra RIGHT NOW

>>33575411
Sorry I don't have tits as much as you wish I did. I like it flat

>>33575417
Now I have to see them, I like flat chests.

>>33575426
(ToT) **

girls are so hot dude

>>33575429
What? do you like being wanted for once? Knowing a big strong man will pin you down, tear your shirt, show your tiny little tits?
How terrible.

>>33575434
Truly awful. I definitely DO NOT want that to happen to me! It would be SUCH A SHAME if a hot man did that! I would be SO MAD!!

>>33575447
Ah, if only I knew exactly where not to go for something like that to happen. After all it would be just unimaginable knowing how physical I can get.

Should I just starve myself until I'm pretty. I can't, I can't I can't just sit here and eat my stress away. I already have Wellbutrin. Please, I need to look good. I need to look good and cry because I'm so untouched, and untouchable. Is it my hair, is it my weight, is it my race, I don't know. Fuck, I could talk my way into bed like a stupid whore but even if I'm not ugly I'll never know the prize of being... so beautiful it hurts

>>33575452
Uoh no!!!! My worst fear in the world.. getting the heebie jeebies just thinking about it... ( * _ * ")

>>33575461
Give me a place, I'm free this weekend, I'm sure I'll be a high class romantic and a real charmer, like to think I'm as good with my tongue as I am with my hands.

Sour grapes

>>33575457
>Wellbutrin
doesn't that make you fat and asexual?

>>33575466
>>33575461
And I know this is GIOYC but when can I get it all over your chest?

i dont wanna sleep
all i wanna do is just cry in my mothers ches.t... arms

>>33575504
I'm mad ugly irl dude it's not worth it... use your imagination and I'll use mine... (×_×)

>>33575512
homie is probably mad ugly too, don't sweat it

>>33575512
I’m sure the guy isn’t a looker too desu

>>33575531
I've never been rated less than a 7 on soc for what it's worth
>>33575512
I'd say you're worth it, knowing you're beet red behind that screen, all flustered, imagining some man ruining you.
I want to make you want it, need it.

>>33575500
No you're thinking of Lexapro, I'm still horny but I haven't been only on account of getting hives because of anxiety and tight clothing. But Wellbutrin (or specifically bupropion) is supposed to kill cravings and substitute as an antidepressant

>>33575540
God. Now I really wish I had a flat chest. They're so fucking cute I'm genuinely jealous of women with them... I gotta get a reduction someday I promise (£_£)

you were my best friend for so fucking long. we grew up together. how could you just throw it all away?

>>33575544
So long as I have something to grab I'm happy

i like most boobies but boobies that have gotten fat and then lost fat really do start to look like pancakes

>>33575544
Bed time for me I think, but just know given the chance I would throw you around, I would fuck you and really make you feel like such a good little slut after I'm done with you.
Don't have too much fun with your imagination, I'm sure the real thing will be even better

>>33575623
Good nite ^_^ hope to see you in your dreams

I accept your love, and return it in kind. Earnest, honest. You’ll always own a part of me. It turns out I gave you my naivety.

illy

We forgive each other but what are you staying quiet for? I don't get it, S. We completed each other. When will you know that we're like Shakespeare level lovers and we'll never be the same without each other. Never.

>>33575797
https://youtu.be/UzLphv2bYaw?si=-_uANYnGNlobF6gG

>>33575797
:O

>>33575809
You should have showed me the clip where Satan and Trump were in bed together. That was funny

>>33575866
Is that even a thing?

I'm fucking crashing out

>>33575585
Just work out those boobies

>>33571689 (OP)
A year ago I held hands with her and felt her gaze in my eyes and we smiled at each other. I think that was the peak of my life, it will be only down from there.

I'm going for longer periods of time without thinking about her now and I'm slowly starting to get back to myself in certain ways. Still cry daily though. The stranglehold loosens slowly even if I'm still in it

Sometimes it strikes me how much of a piece of shit I was to her

Results came back and it's benign so they said I'm being put on low priority and told me to keep an eye on it NO GET THIS SHIT OFF ME? My family has a strong fucking history of breast cancer, most of my aunts and female cousins have had preventative mastectomies due to testing for BRCA, get this fucking lump off me I KNOW I qualify for it despite being a man

It's been 5 years and she still rent free in my head. Got married, had a kid, bought a house and still haunted by the only girl who ever fucked me for sport that i actually found arousing. I'm chasing a dragon I'll never catch, for a high I'll never have again. I know it wouldn't have lasted much longer no matter what i did but that was some of the best few months of my life

>been searching for a job since June
>hundreds of applications sent now
>five interviews out of all of that, all denied
>get another interview from a company that's pretty desperate for new hires, literally says to my face I'll be overworked until they make up the shortfall in staff
>Go in confidently and do well on the interview, told I'd get an answer by the next day
>the next day has ended and i haven't gotten a word

at this point I'm genuinely starting to consider suicide. I don't want to die but if this keeps up any further, I'll be in the streets like a dog. I'm literally at a loss. I've taken interview classes, I always make sure I am clean and well dressed. It would be easier to pay my rent with bank robbery at this point.

He's never gonna talk to me again and that's such a waste of hundreds of shared experiences and passions
I guess objectively I wasn't as important to him as he was to me

>Ex got some karma
>Got raise
>Got bonus
Today was a very good day

>>33576048
read some scripture. pray in the name of Jesus.

I'm sick of this bitch overreacting to innocuous shit, giving me the silent treatment and then expecting me to grovel for her forgiveness. No fucking more you cunt. I'm not playing this game.

>>33576166
Tell her to stop being a cunt

>>33576159
I'm shinto, actually.

I'll write something tomorrow.

Playing dmc3 and wow I suck at vidya..... got my ass beat mission 2 and its like "wait... THERE'S A BOSS!?!?!?!??" then again, it's on my phone.... shits probably easier with a controller....

>>33576139
Drinking tonight and starting to feel less at peace about this
What the fuck is wrong with him to develop things like that and just leave out of nowhere
What the fuck is wrong with me to be so stuck on this and not just cut my losses and move on
Acting like a bitch over this

What does the words 2 weeks even mean?

I know that even though we haven't spoken on years I still love him that same as he loves me. It would take a single text. I could even type it out and schedule my phone to send it in an hour. Bypass my nerves.

>>33576292
I think there's earlier lesser known media references but the more recent one is when Q used to say shit like "patriots in control. 2 more weeks(until something happens/there's a great discovery)" to get Maga hyped up before the 2020 election.

>>33576278
did he really just leave out of nowhere? no reason?

>>33576349
It's repression
He was half out the closet and decided to go back in because he'd lose family
Okay it wasn't out of nowhere
He told me about the choice he was making
But I thought foolishly that I could come along for it and we could figure it out together because of how much we'd already shared and helped each other out on
It's weird because I basically know the reason but still feel like I don't
It's about just not having a conversation about it being over I guess

>>33576236
>shinto
that's not even an actual thing

it's a historically revisionist loose amalgamation of local mythologies on par with hinduism

>>33576316
No I was talking about possibly being mentioned about contact in two weeks between my person and I. If that person has a memory or something that only we would know and would say that here that would be great

do girls with big boobs wear crosses while showing cleavage so that we feel bad when we look at their tits?

>>33576408
-so that some of us feel bad
-so that some of us are tempted and fall
-so that they can have fun with the ones who don't care
-because they are demonically influenced

>>33575073
What are your wishes?

>>33576475
big honkin gazongas, we're talkin mommy milkers, we're talkin massive melons, we're talkin huhuhuuuge hooters, we're talking jumbo jugs, we're talkin 7 of 9s, we're talkin big dog sweater puppies, we're talking king size knockers, we're talkin mountainous mammaries, wer

>>33576048
I've been bouncing between casual work for the last 5 years where they'll send me to the middle of nowhere for a few weeks since thy know I won't say no unlike their usual lot and then never giving me a shift. I keep myself sane by doing volunteer work in my local community gardens (free food I grow) and community centers (more free food and temperature control during freezing winter time or summer hell). My current work has given me a single shift that is a forty minute drive away and is Friday nights 930pm to 1130pm so it won't even cover the cost of petrol but if this client likes me I'll be able to get his others shifts along with this final of the day one.

Also unironically, are you white or white passing? I've had my probation period ended early because my white arse knows the law and rights of workers unlike the foreigners here on work or student visas or have poor English skills. I've walked into interviews and immediately seen they are surprised I'm white (I have a very "ethnic" sounding name) and therefore am not getting this job.

>>33576528
And you wonder why I don't take you seriously

im ftm and i can’t decide to continue to lose weight to look like trevor reznik or foodmax and become a hairy fat guy

>>33576552
When I met you you were a girl and you are a girl, you can pretend to be a man with someone else

>>33576577
if i was playing pretend i wouldve just said i was a man, not an ftm.
also we've never met before, u have me mistaken for a different ftm.. i wonder whom

>>33576586
Unless you know that you don't pass for a man and you want people to take pity on you

>>33576594
i've been naturally referred to as 'he' on 6 different occasions this year alone

>>33576552
>become a hairy fat guy
Don't. Your knees will thank you later.

>>33576606
Why are you such an absurdist?

>>33576611
how am i an absurdist

>>33576614
Your post is utterly meaningless, you just say things without meaning for the sake of saying something

>>33576619
i said it for the sake of proving you wrong

>>33576621
It doesn't prove me wrong at all. It's as if you said that I hate fruits and I said that I ate 6 fruits this year and it proves you wrong

>>33576623
except you stated something that wasnt personal to you, it was personal to me
thats why i responded back with something personal to me

>>33576628
And it makes you an absurdist

>>33576633
then wouldnt that make you one too?

>>33576636
It was just an example, an absurd example because I love fruits

Gotta love how I'll be feeling fine one second, then my brain makes me think of... it.... and then I feel sick to my stomach and sad. It's like my mind and body can't let go of what was done to me.

>>33576695
Nothing was done to you, literally nothing, you just make things up. And if you have to make things up at least make stuff up that makes you feel better

>>33576721
? Are you that same ragebaiter from yesterday? Go find someone else to annoy and let me giomc in the gioyc thread. Fan behavior

that was a fucking disaster

>>33576048
Have you considered construction?

You literally behave like a woman, 100%, I accept you even though you don't accept yourself

>got buzzed and listened to thr vm's again
Learn from my mistakes bros, not like this

here's your "big argument" so you won't have any guilt after it ends because i'm a toxic person for calling you out on your bullshit
you're welcome!

Forever mad at myself for not being motivated enough to commit to any hobby besides drawing. fml

>>33577028
are u one of those permabegs that post on /beg/ too?

>>33577033
I don't care to post my art. But I'd hope im not doomed to be forever beg haha.

>>33577022
You kept reminding me of flaws i nearly got rid off, it's literally the definition of torture, I will never forgive you I'm serious

>>33577041
I do classify myself as beg desu, especially since I'm coming out of a stagnant period but I'm doing okay little by little. Still gotta learn how to draw clothes and backgrounds etc etc

And now you keep reminding me that I was tortured

Honestly if you had any dignity you would hide under a rock and never come out or at least until I forget about all this

i look good but im autistic and unemployed so no girls let me fuck them. its a sad sad world. how do i make them let me fuck? no, getting a job is not an option; neither is violence

It hurts and it hurts and it hurts over and over and over again

Is this life? I accomplished everything I wanted to. Girlfriend into marriage, prestigious job, house, money, hobbies, everything I ever wanted. Now what? This never filled the void. Sometimes I wish I stayed a loser NEET -- at least I had something to look forward. Towards making something out of myself.

I've been a dispassionate, hyper-effective void for years. How do you get excited about things? I saw somebody dying the other day and felt just such a rush. Why is only the end of a story exciting?

>>33577164
>--
chatgpt wrote this

Sometimes I wonder if I should take the bait then I remember I shouldn't waste time on lower beings. To be sentenced to such an existence is punishment enough for them.

>>33577170
Thats not how it does the em dash.

i wonder if I'll meet someone that'll make me not wanna kill myself some day but then I feel the crushing guilt of turning down people in love with me as if I deserve anything at all or to put my happiness over another person's by not sucking it up and agreeing to commitment. every day I lose the little hope I had more and more that the love I want exists at all so what am I even saving myself for

I’m going to be turning 29
No job no gf
Is it over for me? Will I have to live the life of a hermit?

Someone was on my ass following me home yesterday because they were mad I got to a four way stop before them, so I whipped into a parking spot so quickly they almost hit me then got back behind them and followed THEM. I scared them so much they did an additional loop around the office to try and lose me, when they went to take their second loop I waved goodbye and went the opposite direction. Don't fuck with people while driving because there is always somebody crazier, like ME

>>33571689 (OP)
Comparing my fit coworkers fat ugly wife he married in 2019 to my average looking polish uncles slender sex icon wife he married in the 90’s makes me suicidal haha. I can count with one finger the number of hetero relationships in my life that haven’t ended in a nasty hard separation

I've changed my mind, instead of saying I want her back, if she ever does come back to me, she will need to apologise to me.

The urge to text her is strong. It was nobody’s fault that we ended things and that’s why I thought we could just keep on going as friends. Instead she cut me off.

>>33577927
She made the right decision, men and women can't be friends.

Way back when I had an account on a certain manga sharing website I called out a scanlator for using sockpuppets to stir up trouble and I was the one who got a strike for "harassment". These scummy mods are a fucking plague on the internet

Want to ruin some small ginger girls tiny little pussy. No beef, pure slit hnnnnnnng

I feel like my life has snapped. I've gone from being the only sensible, reasonable, responsible person in my entire family to realising I'm deeply traumatised and my entire life and what I thought was my personality is just a giant cope. And what's my reaction? "Push it down, keep it inside, suffer in your own time but for the love of god don't let anyone catch you feeling."
I just want to pick up and move across the country and pretend none of them ever existed. I can't talk about what happened, it would either ruin everyone, or they'd sweep it under the rug. There's no reaction that would make things better, it's too late.
It feels kinder to just remove myself. I never got a chance to form proper bonds after what he did anyway. He gets to have a family and I don't and that's just the way it is.
I just don't want to wait for everyone to die before I get to have a life. I wish I could just erase myself from their memories and slink away with an actual future ahead of me.
What kills me is I tried to explain what was happening at the time but I didn't have the words for it and they didn't understand, they insisted to me that things were fine so I decided I was just fucking crazy and told myself it wasn't really happening. But things weren't fine, and it should have been obvious and this all could have been dealt with, but they were too wrapped up in regretting having kids to pay some fucking attention.

Why is the post quality on /gif/ so much lower than everywhere else on 4chan?

>>33578026
>>33578104
Colton is such a piece of shit honestly. LARP is very clear. Fuck off

Good luck living with that piece of shit Maria

Uninstalled steam.
I KNOW that I will fail to turn my life around, again, but desperation is a bitch.

>>33578251
MEDS. NOW.

To the mistake I made choosing The lie I fell for for years
Trapped ruminations inside these walls
Where I ask questions I already know the answers to
Why do I feel sick every time I look at my hands.
Why when I take off I feel free, like there is hope again.
Thoughts of the other path
My dream far away from here
Why I get Butterflies in my stomach thinking of The one I lost years ago
what his kiss feels like running into his arms when I see him for the first time
Far away from here.
In a place where I am free from The one who trapped me here's voice
The one who when I look across the room and see is searching for the words to lock me inside.
Walking outside is just as much a prison.
Middle of nowhere

I looked at a photo of me then. I was happy. I was pretty. I was hopeful.

I look in the mirror now. I am sad. I am stressed. I am anxious. I am upset. I am mentally distressed. I am tired. I am physically unhealthy. I look ugly. I look fat.

What happened that turned me into what I am now. The people that are physically around me, the place I am and choices I have made home make me look like this, I'll have made me visually worse. When I look at myself I feel that.

>>33578333
FUCK OFF WITH YOUR SHIT LARP NOW

Removing literally years of lies, trauma,, hurt off of me
You offered me your hand before but I couldn't see clearly
Now that I've put those years of lies in a zip file and permanently deleted them
I feel clean, I feel myself
No games. I'll contact you directly and ask if I can take your hand again because I know that it's time I took the step forward to you.


Sometimes I feel like I've lived this before. It doesn't surprise me to see it's the same for you and you feel the same as me.

I'm tired of mentally grabbing all of my shit to leave. I'm tired of everything here and I'm just done with it. However I time it I'm just going to do it all in one movement, grab all my shit leave the ring on the exit counter with note that simply says LIAR. NEVER CONTACT ME AGAIN.

Block him on all social. Block his cell. Drive to my parents.

I won't have to process everything that happened ever since him. I cut it out completely and I myself again. I remember who I am and how I feel about everything.

I know that My brain is going to make all of that into this huge thing that's difficult to approach because it is, I fucked up. But if he is as I remember him to be, I know him to be then I just have to ask him. If he will accept me,. All of me including my flaws. And I'll tell him that I accept him all of him including his flaws. I won't give up on him and he won't give up on me

I remember being happy, spending the day on the phone, computer with you. The only mistake we made was not seeing each other sooner. Feelings for each other were not lost. I still love you. I just made mistakes and tried to justify them. I remember you. I remember us. If I come home, will you accept me as you said you would? It scares me to take that chance but it scares me even more to have lost you.

Last time I felt like someone knew me for me and accepted me for me, I was happy.

Feel like I'm almost out of here, drop all the weight, and lies he trapped me here to live with at the door and go home.

It will be better once I'm home

Maybe I'm too European for this but when I hear people getting accused of sexual impropriety and it's
>HE FUCKED A 17 YEAR OLD
>PEDO PEDO PEDO
I think it's weird if they're 30+ don't get me wrong but I think to myself a lot of girls I knew were losing theirs at 14, friend of mine when he was young got his cock sucked at 12 by some young council estate girl, some actively snuck into clubs and bars to fuck men 10 years older at least
I don't believe the fantasy Americans have of women being perfect angels until they turn one second past 17 years, 364 days 23hrs 59 minutes and 59 seconds.

When I was walking with you, I wondered if the oncoming cars were moving fast enough to kill me.
I didn't want to be this bitter and envious person who laments everything they could never have.
At the gym, you asked me if I was sad and then told me that it wasn't actually sadness, but some other emotion you couldn't place.
It's infected me.
I can't stop the swirling negativity and suicidal curiosity. The gap between me and others has never been so apparent, and there's nowhere to hide.
I've never been naturally good at anything. Never particularly drawn to anything.
I'll keep banging my head against this wall because brute force is all I understand. I'm not giving up.

>>33578508
Destiny is an ugly sex pest loser.

>>33577931
Good thing I’m venting and don’t need your approval for anything cocksucka

It'll be hilarious when it gets to the point incels just start raping bitches and pulling them out of their shitty little apartments. I fucking hate females - whores from the cradle to the grave. They deserve everything bad that did, does and will happen to them. I laugh at their suffering because it is deserved.

>>33578792
I think Destiny is a weird sex pest freak who specifically targets girl BPD demons, he got his just deserts, I'm just tired of that specific way of moralising when I've met enough women who would make Sodom look tame.
Only a century ago men were fucking 14 year olds without much issue.

>>33578864
Forgot to finish the thought
>14 year olds without much issue
To pretend that anyone in that inbetween age is an innocent angel to me is beggars belief

I feel like i should end my life. I dont think there are any options available where i could have a life I enjoy. I've gone over every option. Also nobody likes you after they learn you are suicidally depressed so I'm forced to be alone or constantly wearing a mask which eliminates the point of relationships.

>>33578508
Most women played with dicks before they got out of middle school. Always sexually exploring with little boys or trying to seduce their male authority figures before they even get tits. Women are whores at every point in their life without complete control over them, but the fat old ugly bitches know their natures and hate not being at the top so they make this fake bullshit about minor innocence to maintain an advantage for the men they want. They know most girls are fucking psycho and ran through by 18, it is a psyop made by faggot men and lesbians, religiously adhered by moronic simps and mindlessly accepted by retarded normies.
Sexual morality is a lie for retards.

>>33578885
Sexual immorality is an even bigger lie for retards. You got some guy a few posts up for yours that built up a whole life for himself including marrying a wife and he can't stop thinking about some slut he slept with years ago

>hosh is injured again

Holy fuck man this guy is never going to finish a basho again

My best friend when I was 12 used to act like a little bitch all the time. It didn't occur to me until my 20s that he had a gay crush on me. Dude was literally having one-sided lovers quarrels with me and I was oblivious..

>at the park painting at a picnic table by the river
>entire park runs the length of the river with multiple spots to enjoy it
>a mom with her baby and dog come hang out near the water within a couple yards of me, just standing not at a table
>she starts loudly talking to the baby almost shouting and I just turn my body away from them
>lunch date meets up with me and the entire time we eat the mom is loudly talking to her baby right next to us just standing around
I could tell she wanted me to give her attention so bad but I simply hate babies and families lol. Lonely woman should go make friends at a mommy group not crowd people at the park like a lunatic. I owe her nothing

Had a dream about going as a nun for Halloween.....weird.

I was super hung up on things not working out with a guy I was talking to - especially because of the intense mixed signals he gave. Had a gut feeling though and downloaded Grindr. Found his profile.

Weirder still that I honestly don’t care that he likes sucking cock. It’s kind of hot. But it’s like damn dude. Why waste my time just because you’re a closet case. We could’ve just been friends.

It feels like I was a prop to build up his sense of masculinity/camaraderie with other men.

I'm finally starting to move on from u :DDD

>people sit in different spots every class

Holy fucking shit this is so goddamn annoying

another job rejection, well oh well, life is swell

>>33579172
Good for you

Me and my female friend have fantastic chemistry and I'm starting to develop a crush on her, FUCK.

And I think it's showing too, a friend already made an allusive comment

i lost my virginity to a girl, she took acid before, im not even 100% sure of like what acid even does, she seemed totally normal and lucid, like, you can tell if someones super high or super drunk but she just acted totally normal? and then she initiated sex, is that bad, am i gonna get in trouble, im scared

I damaged my leg permanently and can't run anymore or play some sports that I enjoyed. It sometimes hurts and i struggle lifting stuff. I am 36 and single and can't get a girlfriend. The women where I live seem really picky but I have dated women from foreign countries a few times. They were nice but the long distance is more of a struggle for me. Especially if I have to do all the work to get them here.

I screwed up a lot on other things in life and just not happy with myself.

>>33579300
>can't get a girlfriend
Does he know?

We are so back.

It's crazy how every day spent with you flew by and it just seemed natural to be with you, now that you're gone every day is a chore and the void you left behind occupies my mind constantly. I hope to see you again some day.