I fucked up beyond belief.
I don't even know how to make this post, so I'll just start with a brief backstory.
A couple years ago, me and my family moved from the place I grew up in, and the place that I am severely attached to, to a completely new part of my country. I never really had friends, neither in the town I grew up in, or the towns I moved to after we moved away from my childhood town. As a result, I've been socially isolated and can barely build a connection with anyone. I have no friends, have no connection with family, and generally feel misunderstood.
A few weeks ago, I met a girl who seemed to understand me and after meeting each other a couple times, we decided to start a relationship (My very first relationship with a girl). She seemed perfect at first, and due to my severe loneliness, I looked right past some pretty massive red flags. After only a week of her being my girlfriend, she invited me to come with her on a weekend trip with her to a pretty romantic city, where we had a copious amount of unprotected sex.
What she did not tell me beforehand, and what she only told me right after we had unprotected sex, is that she was ovulating. Only now that I write this do I realize that this was likely not an incident, but that I am the potential victim of baby trapping. TLDR: I likely impregnated my girlfriend in the heat of passion (In a week I will know if I impregnated her).
We are one week back from our trip and I now start to realize that this girl who I got to know during one of my darkest moments, is easily angered to a point that I am afraid to speak to her at all. I am beginning to sober up and realize how many red flags there are. I don't want to continue a relationship with this girl, but the baby situation makes this an incredibly complex situation. If the baby actually does not become a thing, I will plan a breakup carefully (she has a history of violence against former partners of hers, which I shouldn't have ignored)
A couple years ago, me and my family moved from the place I grew up in, and the place that I am severely attached to, to a completely new part of my country. I never really had friends, neither in the town I grew up in, or the towns I moved to after we moved away from my childhood town. As a result, I've been socially isolated and can barely build a connection with anyone. I have no friends, have no connection with family, and generally feel misunderstood.
A few weeks ago, I met a girl who seemed to understand me and after meeting each other a couple times, we decided to start a relationship (My very first relationship with a girl). She seemed perfect at first, and due to my severe loneliness, I looked right past some pretty massive red flags. After only a week of her being my girlfriend, she invited me to come with her on a weekend trip with her to a pretty romantic city, where we had a copious amount of unprotected sex.
What she did not tell me beforehand, and what she only told me right after we had unprotected sex, is that she was ovulating. Only now that I write this do I realize that this was likely not an incident, but that I am the potential victim of baby trapping. TLDR: I likely impregnated my girlfriend in the heat of passion (In a week I will know if I impregnated her).
We are one week back from our trip and I now start to realize that this girl who I got to know during one of my darkest moments, is easily angered to a point that I am afraid to speak to her at all. I am beginning to sober up and realize how many red flags there are. I don't want to continue a relationship with this girl, but the baby situation makes this an incredibly complex situation. If the baby actually does not become a thing, I will plan a breakup carefully (she has a history of violence against former partners of hers, which I shouldn't have ignored)
