Unsure of what I want?
Somewhere along the line of my life, I lost sight of what I want or what would make me really happy. So I am in a position where I feel like I am just going through the motions of living. I am not suicidal but I don't feel enamored by living. It sounds like such a first world problem but its how I feel. Like I have friends who say "Yeah I can't wait to leave work and spend some time with my family on our family vacation!" Whereas me, I currently can't even fathom that. Even though I know I want a family. I feel inadequate because I don't want to have a family just because. I want to actually like my family. What can I do to get out of this slump. Not sure why my life goals are so clouded. I know I am not suicidal but I am also just not enthralled by living. This combination of feelings leaves me feeling very unempathetic sometimes too. I want to get out of bed and crave living. Again, I have never felt suicidal but I guess I just feel incredibly mid on the will to live scale. I feel like I am being kept alive by weird things. Like video games coming out. My thought before Elden Ring came out was "Wow, I hope I don't die before Elden Ring comes out." Most normal people probably have thoughts more like "Wow, I hope I don't die." I want that kind of normal.