Thread 33626856

Is it shameful to be filming amateur porn? bc that's how I feel
I feel stuck.
>manager has been giving less hours and less OT
>bills chewing through my savings..
>in comes my ex
>she's a camgirl now
>offers to pay me in exchange for my dick on cam on weekends
I took it 'cuz I had to, but I hate her guts.
Typical basketcase bitch, she hurt me a lot, but now she's acting all friendly... But I have to go along with it.

I know there's two ways out of it but idk how to proceed:
>1. Get a new job
I got this job through Disability Assistance and they won't get me a new one for another 8 months..
>2. Change my mindset
Maybe if I'm less ashamed of myself I wouldn't be taking psychic damage... But idk how to do that.
This shit feels inherently humiliating.

>>33626856 (OP)
It's not shameful for men who do not show their face on cam. You can also take the opportunity to hate fuck you ex.

>>33626898
This. Hatefuck founds reasonsble.
Also try to get some skills you might use to get another job. Look at job requests and their requirements listed. Get the skillset and you are good to go find another job. Takes some effort tho.

>>33626856 (OP)
are you gonna even be able to get hard and perform with all those negative feels?

as for your question. Idk. I have a huge porn dick, I've considered doing it at times. I think if the money is worth it go for it. But in your situation with your ex, it sounds like you're just really desperate. Maybe you could do no touch male stripping or something less degarding. idk, but I'd never be able to do porn with an ex, I'd want to kms

>>33627188
I just pop a Cialis. I'm able to get it for cheap thanks to coupons.
At least I don't show my face or speak.. Just sit/stand there trying to stay hard while I get the weakest blowjob on the planet for 3 hours
>no touch male stripping
Oh god no. I could never interact with clients.

>>33627115
>Hatefuck
I hatefucked her once off-cam and it wasn't even that good... She's hot, but she can't turn off "porn mode" iykwim.
The main issue is people just don't want to hire disabled people. I won't get into it, I'm perfectly capable of working in an office but I still got fired regardless..
Now the only people who'll hire me are places that have some sort of plan with Disability Assistance.
It's fucked man

>>33626856 (OP)
1. Yes it's shameful.
2. Go to church.
3. Work harder.
4. Drop a link.

>>33626856 (OP)
Not exactly shameful. Just be safe and careful about it.
Make sure that whatever platform you upload to is secure. Have a separate email that isn't linked to any you currently have, and make sure your hoe name can't be traced back to you.
(Just a heads up. Speaking from experience from when I used to do sw. If you end up with a stalker who may also be local to your area, you're not gonna have a good time. lol).

If you're using OF or fansly, you may as well use photo ediying software and download fonts to make your own ads. Nothing too extra, but short and sweet. Aesthetically pleasing and welcoming, but no overkill.

>>33626856 (OP)
It is shameful no matter what. Stop promoting and justifying shitty behavior.

>>33627619
>4. Drop a link.

Yes it's shameful. yes it's humiliating. no the money will not make you feel better.

>>33626856 (OP)
>Is it shameful to be filming amateur porn?
Yes

>>33628945
>>33629492
>>33629202
Honestly I'm coming to accept that dignity is a luxury..
Between bills and medical debts I'd have been bled dry with just my dayjob.

My ex knows she has me by the balls, I think she gets off to having a guy under her thumb...
The porn sucks but at least she has the decency to leave me alone after we're done. It could be a lot worse..

I guess the real question isn't whether it's shameful, but if I can make it not be.
Like a change of framing or something. idk.

>>33629786
>dignity is a luxury..
After all is said and done, dignity is the one thing worth holding onto, more then money.
We're all going to die some day, that shouldn't stop us from doing the right thing. Even if nothing matters, your actions have ramifications here, and if you aren't promoting good things here then you are promoting evil.
>but if I can make it not be.
You cannot change objective reality.
Out there somewhere will be some 13 year old kid wanking it to the content you make because he stumbles upon it online. Why are you supporting that?
If you need money, maybe stop spending money on shit you don't ultimately need, check your vices, create a budget, save cash, stop investing in materialistic goods and fast food, etc. Hell you can probably even get a cheaper phone bill or whatever, check your own vices before you try to rewrite reality to fit in line with your delusions.
Have some ethics, have some principles, be a fucking Good Man.

https://youtu.be/47s_3aPKDXw?si=T1VgtT-Fzwkq1WOq

>>33626856 (OP)
You prostituted yourself, you're an actual whore now. You gotta do what you gotta do but you have to live with this now.